all the love, Annie @annietolentino - Tumblr Blog

I still get those sleepless nights.

Some nights, I can’t sleep if I’m not gonna cry and let it all out.

Most of the time you just feel empty inside and exhausted and you just don’t wanna live anymore.

You lose interest in everything that you’ve always wanted to do and in everything that you love.

There’s a constant battle in your head and body. Your mind says “go get up and function. No one has to see you’re depressed. You can’t let your family know.” and/or “I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I WANNA DIE.” And your body is just “No. I’m not moving. I am not gonna function. I’m exhausted.”

I know for some people it’s very dramatic to hear and pitiful to see someone who can’t just normally function, like they’re dead inside. But it’s more than that. There’s more to that. We don’t need someone to feel pity on us or what so. We don’t actually want that. We don’t want that kind of attention. We need help. Help us get through what we’re going through and stay fucking real to us. Be there to listen when we let our thoughts out. We don’t need judgement. We need comfort. We need a home. We need someone who won’t give up on us even when we have already given up on ourselves.

I don’t know why I’m writing this out.