Adventures in Never-Neverland

Shaking up the Snowglobe full of Pixiedust and flying straight on till morning. Not all who wander are lost

[bellisimabelinda]

[bellisimabelinda]

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.

[bellisimabelinda]

[bellisimabelinda]

A girl who brings her own rope is probably trying to tell you something.

[annikablushingkiss]

I have an eating disorder - I live to eat. I binge on food like I'm saving for a 6 headed beast apocalypse and as such it's killing me inside while i expand outwards . I envy most opid addicts, sexaholics and alcoholics- in some ways, there are alternatives and they can actually live without their vice their lives. I still need food. I also understand each of them too as there is still pain, desire and wants- and outsiders looking in who want to minimize this. Food/overeating is not the only battle I've struggled with- just the one that's killing me today.

I am required to lose weight for work for safety reasons. I need to consider my health and lose weight in a healthy way for my own well being- and also develope a lifestyle change that makes this long term.

I look forward to the day when comfort and satisfaction is not sought by food, pain meds, alcohol or sex.

FTR- food has not been my only struggle. I am also a sexaholic. Most days now it stays trapped in me all alone as I deal with my self image issues. And then as my over indulgence issues peakl I also over indulge in alcohol. I have also danced with drugs.

I feel the cycle is never ending - just sometimes a diffent path

In two weeks I'll undergo major surgery. I've had cancer- removed begore. Now It wants to grow back. The Surgery will give it no place to to live. Sounds simple. But I'm scared of pain management and more scared of how I respond to taking pain meds after so many years of not using any and my last experiences being negative.

Im trying to lose weight before surg in a healthy way. I'm planning my life to allow recovery. Im trying not to let my self feel like my sex life is over. For now I'm just trying not to spend my day crying. 5 min maybe. But not the whole fucking day.

[gildam]

[cainimagery]

[annikablushingkiss]

How's my week going? Glad you asked. Something like this.

[rxcknrxlla]

[annikablushingkiss]

I need water again. I'm slowly dieing here on the dry land.

[annikablushingkiss]

It's been a while since I did any writing. Figured now would good time to start again.

About 9 months ago a m/f couple moved into the condo/townhouse across the way from me. There's is an end unit and is designed with some extra windows. If I had to guess they are in their late 30s-early 40s. Both are in fair shape physically and attractive IMO.

From my bedroom window I can see down into the side window of their bedroom. The incline of the terrain puts my vantage about a half story higher. My curtains are usually closed but the cat likes to sit in the one so I leave the curtain parted just a bit. I also go pet the cat when they sit in the window.

Last year when they moved in it was about a week before they hung up any curtains in the bedrooms. It was probably their second night in the house when I walked over to my window to pet the cat and noticed I could see them laying on the mattress on the floor of their bedroom. She had a Tshirt on, but he was naked.

I went over and turned out my bedroom light and came back to the slit open curtain to pet the cat. It felt like I stood there forever just watching. She was laying on her back reading something and he turned on his side facing her. His tone ass was facing me. I thought about getting a chair. She reached way up to turn out a light and I could see she was wearing a darker colored panties under her light blue Tshirt that pulled up when she stretched. With their lights off I retreated to my own bed to masturbate.

I awoke in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and I have no clue what drew me to the window but I felt I needed to take a peek. It had been a late moonrise for the waxing gibbous. The bright light of the moon shown right down through the high front facing dormer windows onto the floor of the bedroom completely illuminating there mattress from the side window vantage point from my bedroom. He had covered most of his body but she was laying face down and exposed with her plump ass in those shapely dark panties showing it off in the moonlight. It was the kind of perfect booty you want to reach over and smack.

I headed back to bed with hff and nipples and a mental note to take a new interest in the time of moonrise for tomorrow.

[motivatorr]

[the-nauti-life]

Nauti.org: Life is Better Where it’s Wetter…

[guavaballs]

[annikablushingkiss]

I need water

[fuck-me-till-the-end-please]

“Goodnight and if you dream of me.. remember I like it rough.”

[afterdvrk]

[emvampyre-deactivated20200914]

[annikablushingkiss]

A birthday wish I blurted out drunk was to have my make partner cum in my female partner so I could eat her out with his cum oozing I to my mouth.

I never happened. I didnt bring it up again sober. They use condoms for penetration with each other (well all but that one time I found out).

Still on my wish list...but maybe I need to change who I'm making those wishes too.

[yuckytuna]

[billyguitar78]

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