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YoU

I stare at your hands

And wonder

If they're a perfect fit for mine.

I stare at your fate

And wonder

When is our time.

I look at your soul

And not your face

That they do not see

I watch your colour

And believe me

Its "totemo suteki".

I saw you leave

A lot of times

But was never brave enough

I wonder

If they ever told you

Of my outpouring love.

-Jannat Nur (conversations with you #2 )

(YoU)

May 2020 cc

How are you?“ I ask. And by that, I suppose I mean, have you found someone new? I’ve been looking at your Facebook profile but you haven’t updated it in a while. “I’m well, thanks,” you say. But, really, that doesn’t answer my question. “Are you happy?” I almost blurt out, but that’s too personal. I can’t ask that sort of question anymore; I haven’t the right. “Are you well?” you say calmly. “Yes,” I reply. No, I think. “That’s good.” This conversation is knocking the wind out of me. Why does it leave me so empty? Small talk is for strangers and we knew each other inside out. Knew. Past tense. I guess that’s why. You give me a small smile. It’s the awkward smile you used to give the homeless on the street. Suddenly, I feel disgusting. In this moment I realise it doesn’t matter whether you’ve found someone new. I’ve lost you already. I probably lost you a long time ago. #SinceYouHaveBeenGone

#sinceyouhavebeengone