Relapsing

23 5’2 ….minors don’t interact

[anonsad22]

I starve and starve and starve and starve and the scale doesn’t budge I don’t understand. I barely eat, I throw up, I have like 6 bowel movements a day and I somehow gain 4 pounds.

I can’t do this anymore I’m sick of my body I’m sick of looking like someone fucking clawed at every inch of my skin I’m so sick of my own brain. How do you guys cope I really need coping tips I’m so sad and I really need a friend who truly gets it I’m sick of fake positive bs

[anonsad22]

I’ve been in a 1,000 calorie deficit for 2-3 weeks and I s2g if I don’t see at least 10 pounds down next time I fucking get to go on a scale I’ll be crashing tf out

I once lost 20 pounds in 3 weeks when I weighed less than I do now so I feel like there should be significant process….and need that dedication again

[anonsad22]

I bought Jean shorts two days ago and they’re already starting to gap in the waist

[anonsad22]

somehow feeling like a horrible fat lard because of what I’ve ate today and also feeling simultaneously very happy while I’m also crying listening to a playlist that was sent to me titled with my name

[anonsad22]

Been feel so dizzy and nauseas all day today (It’s 100 degrees out and I have pots and low blood sugar problems) so intake has been up a little bit trying to do anything to keep my body from feeling like I’m going to die because when you’re an adult with this disease you have to still function like a normal person :))))) trying to not feel horrible about myself

[anonsad22]

Following up on that last post everyone does suck but I did have a very fun night and morning with a very beautiful man I’m lowkey obsessed with (who I won’t see again for distance reasons) but it’s a win. Could cry about it though because I truly care about him so much

[anonsad22]

Constantly reminded how insignificant and worthless I am to every single person I hold close. I’m never going to be enough. I might as well be small to match how invisible I really am.

[mi-amiami]

When he thinks u dont want him going through your phone bc ur cheating but you just dont want him to find your edblr

[anonsad22]

If I have anything other than rice cakes, diet soda, energy drinks, coffee, or ONE protein bar if I get my work done I need someone to kill me

[anonsad22]

when tf does it get better.

[anonsad22]

Alright real talk.

How much protein do yall eat and how do you get it specifically if you’re veg or vegan….

Coming from someone who mainly prioritizes fiber (and low cal obv.) I eat *MAYBE* 20-30 g of protein on a good day and I’m afraid of muscle loss and becoming flabby / lose skin

I don’t eat meat and I don’t really eat eggs

[anonsad22]

I need access to a fucking scale rn

[anonsad22]

I had 1585 calories today and I’m still having hunger like why??? I’ve been doing so good staying under 1200….some days even having 800 and feeling fine ON MY PERIOD? So what’s fucking up with me tonight. I feel like my stomach and arms and face are getting bigger by the second I actually want to cry.

[valtsv]

i bet being kicked repeatedly until you can't move feels good as fuck when you feel like you deserve it

[anonsad22]

Has anyone else been having a really hard time lately

[anonsad22]

God will this ever fucking stop. I can’t live a life that is so emotionally exhausting

[anonsad22]

I just ate and I wanna purge so bad because it’s the only thing I have control over right now I actually am freaking tf out