reality

Hi! I'm a young blogger taking you with me through the weird struggles known as my life. https://anonymousrealitybl.wixsite.com/reality

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The Car Crash

I Embarrass myself on a day to day basis. It's true. You know those shows that make you cringe because you just know that the main character is going to do something bad and you have to reassure yourself that it's just a show and everything will be fine. Well welcome to my entire life. Just one slip after another each slip filled with more and more fear. Honestly my life is kind of like a car crash, painful and you can't take your eyes off of it. I know my friends don't know who i am right now but i just wanted to say thank you for tolerating me i have no idea how you do it. I'm pretty sure I've not only lost my mind but it went straight out of the door and walked every street until it find itself is a completely new country. I on't even know what i'm doing most of the time. The only thing i do know is that in this life i don't want to have regrets. In a previous blog i said my favorite quote you should go read it haha self promo. The quote states, It's better to know and be disappointed than to never know and always wonder. Live life to the fullest who cares how badly you embarrass yourself as long as you have fun and nobody gets hurt or anything terrible happens then you're good

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perspective

Perspective. Point of view it actually means a lot. For example, to some my room is tan or white, but for me, i can clearly see it's my favorite shade of yellow. Or i could embarrass myself so badly that only the ones seeing my car crash of a life was everyone except me. Perspective is what gives people an opinion,. a voice. But sometimes perspective can be bad. It can allow you to see the downside of life. It can allow you to have the point of view that you never wanted to see. Everyone says look at the bright side, or there is a silver lining, but what if sometimes there isn't. Look. I'll be honest i don't really know where i'm going with this, but being curious and questioning, and not stopping that's what's keeping the world spinning. Perspective is what is keeping the world spinning. So even if you are scared or don't know what to do always know that you have a voice and a point of view

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the spilled over bottle

Ok, hear me out here, well read me out if that makes sense. We all have interests.I have a friend who is interested in different sexualities, another in books, and another in TV shows. We all want to talk about different things. The good friends will either share those interests or listen to them, but isn’t it the worst feeling when you feel like you have been talking about that one subject so much that you are annoying your friends. For me it’s boys. I know how that makes me sound, i hear it too, but it’s the natural tendency of human beings to talk about something that gives you that happy feeling in your stomach. Not the creepy one probably from gas or food poisoning but the one from butterflies or nerves. Your friends don’t want to hear about that boy 24/7 or that one tv show that basically means nothing. In the end this is basically where we end up, finding a way to express the thoughts that we keep bottled up inside.  https://anonymousrealitybl.wixsite.com/reality

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take off the mask

I think we all have those days where we feel like crying, where we put on a mask and smile, where we work through the pain and trudge on as if we feel nothing inside. I know this is getting very serious but what if we were happy. what if. What if i was no longer lonely and had an actual boyfriend. What is the boy i liked actually liked me back. What if i took the risk that i only took in my dreams. What if i let go of all of my insecurities and did what i needed to do to live. What if we didn’t care what other people thought of us. What if i kissed him. What if that friend became the one. What if... what if i’m stuck wondering what if forever.         It’s better to know and regret than to never know and always wonder.     https://anonymousrealitybl.wixsite.com/reality     

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Does anyone else feel like they are getting stuck in an endless circle of similar events. Every day it's the same thing, the same routine. Go to school, sit through classes half asleep actually wanting to die, then going home after a long day of hard work and doing more hard work. The only differences in my days are how late i'll go to sleep or how badly i can embarrass myself that day at school. Honestly the only things keeping me alive right now is music, food, and my friends. Friends are supposed to be the ones that can make you smile or can relate to you on that level of depression that i think we all have. If you don't feel that way, life is too short to hang out with people that bring you down. i don't know how this excerpt got to this point of me complaining about my misery to teaching life lessons, but moving on. My point at the end of all of this is life sucks a lot sometimes, but you don't know what the future is going to be like. For me, for example, i'm holding on to the thought of college, the excitement of being on your own, meeting new people, and undergoing new experiences. https://anonymousrealitybl.wixsite.com/reality

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setting myself up for disaster

Does anyone have that one friend that means something more. Allow me to elaborate.I Feel like almost every girl has a guy friend. In all the shows there is the long lasting friend relationship that eventually becomes the relationship that you praise in your shrine every night. For example Chandler and Monica. They were friends for a long time. At some point i feel like that friend has been thought of as more than that. Don't deny that the thought hasn't crossed your mind no matter the gender. For me i'm interested in boys and one of the scariest things is falling for that friend and i can feel myself slowing falling.  I don't want to catch feelings especially for one of my best friends, plus he is leaving nest year so setting myself up for disaster was not on my bucket list. You can't choose who you fall for no matter how much you wish you could. https://anonymousrealitybl.wixsite.com/reality

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The beginning to the end

I started eighth grade pretty recently and like most teenage girls at my age i had a crush. For me, it was on this boy, let's just call him jack. Previously we had gone on a school trip where i first really talked to him. later that summer we talked and talked and well...talked. Every time i got a snap i smiled, until the beginning of eighth grade. Me, being an awkward, socially inept eighth grader, didn't really talk to him that much. Eventually my friends helped me out and it became less awkward i thought things were going well... i thought. One day my friend was texting her girlfriend so i thought why not text him again. Eventually Jack ended up with a long string of texts basically confessing my undying love for him. now naturally this would probably overwhelm or freak somebody out and that's exactly what happened. Jack responded with ok. whenever i tell this story my intelligence just shines right on through tbh. Anyway my young heartbroken, well as heart broken as you would be in this situation, self blocked him. My friend, trying to help me told him of what happened in my frenzy and i'm

pretty sure he blocked me back. I started by unblocking him but i think i'll leave it there.

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Hi

Hi, for the purpose of this blog my name is Reality. welcome. Like most teenagers i go through drama, friendships, and relationships but i’m going to take you along with me through my  maniacal journey. The link next to this text is to my website if you would want to see more. It will be linked in most posts. Hope you enjoy what comes next! https://anonymousrealitybl.wixsite.com/reality