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To my maybe,
I know we never really thought this would be our ending, but in the short time we spent texting back and forth, constant video calls, random voice message, Out of town dates, Meeting each other halfway out of the country, it felt like something real was growing. That’s why it’s sad, it ended before it even had the chance to begin.
I appreciate your honesty. I know we tried to make something out of nothing. It was quite the long shot i know, and it still feels unfair that our connection never got the chance it deserved. I know we both saw the potential. I saw how you made an effort to wait for me and how you tried make this work despite the distance. And yes, I get that it’s scary that we were both unsure of what to call “us” before.
All I wanted was to make my self whole before going to you, All i needed was that time to focus on ‘me’ so i’d never have ‘What if’s’.
But then, when I was ready to take the leap of faith and jump right in to you. To make everything official, to finally tell you those three words that i was so darn scared to say. I was ready to give my all to you. But you weren’t there to catch me anymore, not romantically. We settled to being the “almost” lovers.
Talk about right timing noh?
I hope one day our paths cross again when we’re both in better places, when timing is kinder, and maybe then, we’ll be ready for what this could’ve been.
Until then, just know I’ll be quietly rooting for you from afar. I hope you build the future you always talked about, and I hope you get to spoil your family just the way you dream of.
I’m going to miss you. I’ll miss our little banters, the comfort, the spark, and all the almosts.
P.S.
TOROISE!! USRN NA AKO! CRN NA DIN! 🥹
Yours always,
Alpaca.