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so, yesterday was my 28th birthday.
i actually wanted to make this post yesterday but i ended up being busier than i expected and i just fucking passed out at like 5 pm
anyways. MAN. i'm dang tired of mostly keeping to myself until all my work is done. it's not sustainable, and i keep getting surprised by it all just not being over.
so. my birthday gift to myself is going "Fuck it, I'm getting back into things now." again, not all at once because holy fuck that would be exhausting, but easing back into it at a CONSISTENT pace.
how fucking naive i was when i said this
so, yesterday was my 28th birthday.
i actually wanted to make this post yesterday but i ended up being busier than i expected and i just fucking passed out at like 5 pm
anyways. MAN. i'm dang tired of mostly keeping to myself until all my work is done. it's not sustainable, and i keep getting surprised by it all just not being over.
so. my birthday gift to myself is going "Fuck it, I'm getting back into things now." again, not all at once because holy fuck that would be exhausting, but easing back into it at a CONSISTENT pace.
I should be alive again sometime this week. Finally just about recovered from my health issues, but I got some responsibilities dumped on me that I gotta deal with first.
Responsibilities turned out to be heavier than anticipated but I've gotten in just under the wire
Now I can't be back to normal all at once, but I can at least say I'm steadily and consistently pushing back into normalcy within the one-week prediction
In fact I even intend to be more back-to-normal than I was before I got sick, actually addressing some more people I'd been afraid of addressing for months
I should be alive again sometime this week. Finally just about recovered from my health issues, but I got some responsibilities dumped on me that I gotta deal with first.
very frustrated that i've had to spend much of one of my favorite months of the year very delicately nursing my health
what's the first movie you remember seeing in theaters? don't try and be all edgy and cool and say like tetsuo: the iron man. be honest.
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That’s a good question my aunt took me to see Sky Captain And The World Of Tomorrow and House Of Flying Daggers the same month when I was 8 but I have no way of knowing the order she took me to then.
@antagonistchan I am really curious about your answer.
the first movie i know for a fact i remember seeing in theaters was Star Wars: Attack of the Clones, when i was five. as a fun aside, i don't remember this, but i've been told that the first movie i saw in theaters was The Phantom Menace, when i was an infant. so that's a nifty coincidence.
however, i also definitely remember being familiar with going to the theater when i saw Attack of the Clones. if a family member named a movie i saw prior to that, there's a decent chance all the memories would come rushing back and i'd go "OH YEAH, I REMEMBER GOING TO SEE THAT".
and i suspect that the first movie i can truly remember seeing in theaters was the 1999 Inspector Gadget movie, which, as i advertise a lot, is still one of my favorite movies. i watched that movie over the summer between second and third grade at daycare, and i'd never heard of it before, but it gave me WICKED deja vu, and when i asked my parents about it that night, they were like "Oh yeah, we took you to see that movie when it was in theaters". i would have been less than two years old at the time, so i definitely don't have a COMPLETE memory of the experience, but i strongly suspect that i remember SOME part of going to see that in theaters. and if i'm right, then it's that.
"You better not be Hugh Laurie and Bjork promotional posters for the XBOX 360 reveal!" My ass:
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WOW my night has been shit in three whole different ways
one form of deep embarassment and annoyance (misclicked and permanently deleted some important files. i'll live but MAN that moment of panicked realization)
one form of actual emotional drain (not gonna elaborate because that's personal but dw i'll be fine, it wasn't even that bad, it just made me a bit gloomy)
and to top it all off: i'm making plans to go to an urgent care tomorrow because i've realized that i've got an ear infection
why the fuck is it that whenever i touch my headset in a funny way, Google Gemini thinks i'm talking to it
man sometimes you have a funny train of thought
was thinking about Carmen Sandiego because i was watching the DefunctTV on it
remembered the Where On Earth Is Carmen Sandiego animated series (because it came up). as you might glean from this blog's title, i'm a big fan of the 1999 Inspector Gadget movie. and because i loved that movie so much, i got interested in the original show. i specifically got a DVD of the show's finale- Inspector Gadget Saves Christmas. it came with a bunch of commercials for other shows by DIC, including Where On Earth Is Carmen Sandiego. it intrigued me, so i also ended up getting a DVD of a special from that series, Into The Maelstrom.
at some point in Into the Maelstrom, the weird disembodied head character makes a joke about Meatloaf (like, the rock star). i remember this very vividly because it was like the second time i'd ever heard of Meatloaf. the first was... well, that takes some backstory.
if you don't remember, in the late 90s and early 2000s, there was this weird thing called MTV Unplugged. it was basically just famous musicians recording acoustically in front of a small crowd. it wasn't very good but it was super hyped up at the time.
i mostly remember this phenomenon because as a kid, we had this one CD. a Muppets parody of MTV Unplugged called Kermit Unpigged. it was basically an audio drama interspersed with a few songs.
and the main joke i remember from it is a bit where someone gets excited because there was a door in the studio that said "MEATLOAF" on it and they're like "oh boy meatloaf is DELICIOUS, i can't wait!"
and then when they come back, Kermit's like "so how was the meatloaf?" and they just dejectedly go "Eh, there was just some big guy in there. I think he ate it all."
all this from just Carmen Sandiego
man
so for years, people have been talking about how much people misuse the word "gaslighting"
but when they do, they always say "people just use it as a fancy way to say 'lying'"
and i've never felt like that was accurate. yes, people are misusing it, but that's not quite right
and i recently realized- finally- what the ACTUAL problem is
people don't use gaslighting as a fancy word for lying
they use it as a fancy word for brainwashing
The 1942 Gaslight remake is honestly one of the greatest horror movies ever made and i personally can’t remove the term gaslight from the film it came from. In which it meant to purposefully drive insane by convincing someone they already insane.
Oh wow, I knew that movie was old, but I didn't realize it was so old that it had a 1942 REMAKE. Like, 1942 is about when I thought the original would have come out. I mean, I guess I've heard about silent films getting remade with audio once that became possible, and in that case it's probably not such a drastic difference in age, but I'm used to remakes happening like thirty years after the original lol
man
so for years, people have been talking about how much people misuse the word "gaslighting"
but when they do, they always say "people just use it as a fancy way to say 'lying'"
and i've never felt like that was accurate. yes, people are misusing it, but that's not quite right
and i recently realized- finally- what the ACTUAL problem is
people don't use gaslighting as a fancy word for lying
they use it as a fancy word for brainwashing
man
there should be more authors like Louis Sachar out there
like. when i was in elementary school, i was ALL about his kid-focused Wayside School series
and then when i was in middle school, i got into his more mature stuff like Holes
and there was this really nifty feeling of "oh man, i'm growing up, and now i can read the more advanced works of this author i already like"
and like. yeah! more authors should do extremely kid-focused stuff AND more adult-focused stuff so their readers can grow up alongside the content
I feel like that was kinda the appeal of The Great Ilusatsted Classics that you could read kid friendly versions of Jules Verne and Alexander Dumas before you read the real things.
see the difference is that Wayside School wasn't like a kid-friendly version of Holes
they're two completely different stories by the same author for different demographics. Wayside School is about a fucked up school that was accidentally built on its side and everyone there is fucking insane and there's weird noneuclidean geometry going on (there is no 19th floor, it goes straight from 18 to 20. except there actually IS a 19th floor, and the people there only half-exist); meanwhile Holes is about a kid who goes to juvie where he digs holes in the desert and it's like a commentary on prison culture and the history of race relations in America
Holes isn't any more "real" than Wayside School, it's just more mature. and Wayside School still has value to me as an adult, it's had a long-lasting effect on my taste in surreal media
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