Poems of Merde

Learn of yourself.

[anti-authoritarian-always]

You're drunk again

Texting me

About your latest self-discovery

And somehow it makes me sad

You're just a nother hero I never had

I feel copied

I feel used

I feel just a little bit amused

So I put down my phone and pick up my pen

[anti-authoritarian-always]

What happened

To the days

Where everything was filled with an unending drip of happiness

It didn't all change for the worst

But some things have become stagnant

Like eating the same meal over and over again

Though I could have eaten that meal for the rest of my life and remained content

[anti-authoritarian-always]

Sometimes you lose something you never thought you would

And sometimes it breaks your heart worse than you thought it could

[anti-authoritarian-always]

I am left alone to rot

[anti-authoritarian-always]

Another year

Another age

Another one trying to make it about them

One day a year

Is all I get

Everything else is shared

I tell myself not to care

But maybe my ego is too great

Another round of shadow work

Or should I just accept this part of myself

[anti-authoritarian-always]

And sometimes I wish I had less of a problem with being treated so strange

You pride yourself on being normal

But I guess in your eyes

Kindness is a luxury

That you can't afford to waste on me

[anti-authoritarian-always]

I don't want him to hurt

But he will either way

If there's a balance I can't see it

I hope there's one someday

Too poor to rent or buy a house

Family too much to live with

If only there was some hope for us

Instead of worrying constantly about business

[anti-authoritarian-always]

Try not to think about it

A woman was found dead the other day

Her ex boyfriend is missing

She'd reported him numerous times to police for stalking

"Unless he poses an actual threat to you there's nothing we can do, ma'am."

The cops say they have no leads

A year later the case goes cold and the ex boyfriend has his next obsession

Obsession- not victim

Because women are never victims they're the cause

Try not to think about it

A family is dead in their own home

Police say they swore it was the right address

The man fit the description

The family was being uncooperative

"We have a dangerous job: if we feel our lives are threatened we shoot first ask questions later."

A year later the shooters are on another case, their salaries raised for the trauma spent in court.

Try not to think about it

A little girl is pregnant

In a state with no access to healthcare

She gets an abortion in another because her abuser wanted partial custody of the parasite inside her

She is being sued at 10 years old and faces a possibility of the death penalty

The abuser already has sights on another girl

He is not imprisoned

Try not to think about it

Guns in schools

Climate change

Being underclass because nowhere will hire you for more than a maximum of the states minimum wage which in your state working full time equals less than "working poor"

Try

Not

To

Think

About

It

Dr*gs don't help

Alc*hol don't help

Books don't help

Medication don't help

Poetry don't help

Fighting it don't help

Try not to think about it

Try not to think

[anti-authoritarian-always]

I weep for the synthetic women that will be abused the same way I weep for the non-synthetic ones.

[anti-authoritarian-always]

Will I remember how you smell tomorrow?

(This is about my childhood fave cookie)

[anti-authoritarian-always]

Why does being a tiny moment in time have to hurt so much?

[anti-authoritarian-always]

Be strange; be authentic

[spookysalem13]

Yule Herbs 🌿

[anti-authoritarian-always]

I am so alone

Why do I attract people who just don't care

[anti-authoritarian-always]

I'm violent you say

Agressive just as I was in my youth

Apparently to you my tongue cuts deeper than my dulled down teeth

Which would break bone before skin had I come after you with all the venom you sent me

But I kept my boundaries strong

And you kept yourself weak

You

Are not

Kind like you think you are

You used me and one more

For your trauma dumping grounds

And claim that you are the doormat

9 years two months and 25 days

A 30 year old with a grudge from our childhood

You were no saint, but you've been countlessly let off the hook

I saw your sins

And I will remind those you hurt of them

You should have treated me with basic human decency

[anti-authoritarian-always]

Something sweet turned sour

The minute on the hour

I hear a call

My name?

I flinch

Within me I have no power

[anti-authoritarian-always]

I am alone

On an empty train

In an empty car

Travelling at empty speeds

There is no destination that I can tell

I've learned to accept my fate

It was scary at first

Looking out the window

Seeing how fast I was going

And learning there's no one on the train

I hoped it would run out of fuel

And I could safely get off

But there doesn't seem to be an end to this

Desolate train ride

Even if it's running on fumes and fumes alone