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Hello! Hi- *head gets blown off chunks of my brain scatter in all directions*

yuri

#al sndy hk #🍵🌊🌊blr #121412blr

Forever wip will never finish

#zd2003

At one point in my life I was really into tarot.

Those two's destiny matrices are.. Pretty screaming. I should write an analysis later

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Some freak just sent me an ai audio of adam forcefeeding the listener im so scared how do I fucking block them tears are literally running down my cheeks

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Sona

#self sona

Still trying to get access to his accounts. Still trying to find txts to c0mb0l1sts that have Adam's gmail!

I suck at this. I really need someone more professional to do this

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lanzaphernelia

this is related to my last post, but earlier today i was going through the documents released of adam (i will get to the point i swear)

and i remembered the photos he took of himself on july 18th 2010, where he was holding a gun to his head. he references these photos later on in a message to somebody, likely meaning to say “why did i not die on july 18th?” which opens the idea that there could have been something he realized he could do, before he dies, that is .. and i think we all have the same idea in mind. now, if this is the case i do not believe he told this person whom the message was to the entirety of if, but that’s not what this is about.

i believe if that was what was going on, then adam shut his own plan down somewhere between late 2010 and early 2011, and this was because in his mind it would be ‘accomplishing something’ which would go against his views on life itself

going to his audio recordings from september 2011, he speaks about not having the discipline to kill himself, and not wanting to put a name to himself / accomplish anything specific before he does it, and something he said caught my eye

i’ve seen people here and there on reddit, and on the early days after the massacre suspect that he did it to force himself into killing himself, and i didn’t see why exactly that would be the case until now. he mentioned that his life was too comfortable to force himself into doing so - then proceeded to say that was the way he’d die, he was going to (…) going to WHAT? and he never explained. it was clearly something he withheld from the audience, and given his audience was occasionally one person it had to have been something he couldn’t say ever, this guy spoke about pedophilia on his channel so i would imagine it to be something drastic. he followed it by saying “either that or ill develop the discipline” (discipline to kill himself)

either WHAT

okay that’s all i thought this was crazy i’ve never seen people mention it before, sorry for my wacky wording i make zero sense right now. it’s late and im delirious .. missing him a lot

antinatalismatlightspeed

Holy SHIT

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antinatalismatlightspeed

Adam had two Spotify accounts. I repeat Adam had two Spotify accounts

Also something I found while scanning his emails

The D&D Online 👀 look looook

No porn sites tho:(

I don't know if anyone has already posted something similar or if someone has already tried to find these accounts. Ifyk comment please..

antinatalismatlightspeed

I also scanned the zhouy****@aol.com and cryingh******@yahoo.com emails. 0 hits!

I will try again with more powerful osint tools later. I'll keep you updated

I can't handle this on my own since i'm a noob though hohoho. If you are skilled in programming/coding or just simply good at finding lost accounts then please go ahead!

antinatalismatlightspeed

83. Fucking. Leaks. 13 of them public.

Adam had "smiggles" as his password on many platforms. My guy did not gaf

#121412blr #12142012 #al sndy hk

antinatalismatlightspeed

Adam had two Spotify accounts. I repeat Adam had two Spotify accounts

Also something I found while scanning his emails

The D&D Online 👀 look looook

No porn sites tho:(

I don't know if anyone has already posted something similar or if someone has already tried to find these accounts. Ifyk comment please..

antinatalismatlightspeed

I also scanned the zhouy****@aol.com and cryingh******@yahoo.com emails. 0 hits!

I will try again with more powerful osint tools later. I'll keep you updated

I can't handle this on my own since i'm a noob though hohoho. If you are skilled in programming/coding or just simply good at finding lost accounts then please go ahead!

#🍵🌊🌊blr #al sndy hk #121412blr #12142012

Adam had two Spotify accounts. I repeat Adam had two Spotify accounts

Also something I found while scanning his emails