bury your anger.

lee donghae. twenty-seven. anathema. proud owner of pandemonium. ❝ an eye for an eye will only make the whole world blind. ❞ ― mahatma gandhi

[damnhaehyuk]

omg lee donghae.

[arcxtaekwoon]

Insomniatic Drinking | Donghae & Leo

[arcxtaekwoon]

(...)

[antxdonghae]

Donghae smiled when it seemed like calling Taekwoon out to the bar in the middle of the night didn’t bother him much. It almost seemed like he was grateful for having Donghae calling him out this late. Nodding and smiling at the younger male’s reassuring words, Donghae took another sip of his drink. A small chuckle escaped his lips at Taekwoon’s comment on the alcohol. It felt nice being able to laugh a little after the terrible nightmare he just had. He let the joyful atmosphere fleet around for a moment before suddenly turning dead serious. Staring intensely at Taekwoon, he said in a matter-of-fact tone, “It’s not free, you know. I’m charging you for that drink.”

He picked up his drink again, moving it in front of his lips and hid a little smile behind it, while his eyes were fixed on the younger male to see how he would react. Donghae was being half-serious and half-joking, though by the end of the night, it would most probably end up being a treat from the older male. How could he charge Taekwoon for that drink? 

[antxdonghae]

empty glass

[spdxwonbin-blog]

(...)

[antxdonghae]

(/good thing he was outside. the cool and fresh air did help a little against the nausea that was building up inside of him. donghae took a deep breath, sitting still for a few minutes before he found himself being stable enough to stand up and begin walking again, but not before he looked down at the blinking phone in his hand, clicking his tongue at the offending text messages from the older male)

(txt) hyung pls

(txt) u wont get rid of me that easy

(txt) butt u bettr hurry

(/he wanted to write more but was too tired to even finish his threat so he left the message unfinished. it wasn’t too important anyway. wonbin was most probably on his way to meet him, and if it meant that donghae’s text messages would just disturb him so wonbin would arrive later than intended, then there was no need to send more messages. he began walking, stretching his arms over his head and letting out a sigh of content. if only he could get some food into his empty stomach…)

“aaah, wonbin hyung!”

[haeppenis]

lee donghae + his damn tongue

[antxdonghae]

it said i got two mails but when i clicked the inbox i only saw one??? if i missed your reply or something please forgive me (and blame tumblr) and send again! ; u ;

[antxdonghae]

so i haven't been on much, my apologies. i really love this character so i can't bring myself to just leave him like this but at the same time i don't have much time or energy to be around every day. dhasdjhawkd i don't know what i'm talking about but i'm glad to see some of you guys are still here ; u ;

tl;dr: i'll reply to the threads tomorrow or the day after. probably the day after. i missed you all~

[antxdonghae]

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°): relationship status?

ಠ_ಠ: what is your biggest pet peeve?

(ಥ_ಥ): finish this: i hate it when...

ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ: what is your favorite animal?

(☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞ ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜): who is someone you can tell everything to?

(づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ: are you a hugger?

(╯°□°)╯︵ ʞooqǝɔɐɟ: besides tumblr, do you have any other social media?

﴾͡๏̯͡๏﴿?: how old are you?

(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻: what are your thoughts on school?

| (• ◡•)| (❍ᴥ❍ʋ): favorite tv show?

(ง'̀-'́)ง: are you okay?

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧: sexual orientation?

┬┴┬┴┤(･_├┬┴┬┴: are you a people person or a loner?

ლ(ಠ益ಠლ): do you have any siblings?

ಠ╭╮ಠ: have you ever self harmed?

(づ￣ ³￣)づ: have you ever been in love?

(☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞: would you rather be hugged by a bunny or kissed by a doe?

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻: how do you let your anger out?

ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ: are you active?

ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪: what are your favorite band(s)/artist(s)?

（╯°□°）╯︵(\ .o.)\: who is your least favorite person?

♥‿♥: tell us about your crush!

◔̯◔: what time is it?

◕‿◕: what is your guilty pleasure?

◔ ⌣ ◔: are you a virgin?

[arcxtaekwoon]

Insomniatic Drinking | Donghae & Leo

(...)

[antxdonghae]

Donghae usually didn’t have dreams. If he had, he definitely couldn’t remember it. Nightmares were even rarer for him to have, so when he had gone to sleep that night, he’d never expect to have such a nightmare enter his mind. If it already was inside his mind, he’d never expected it to have unfolded itself the way it did. And of all the people that could’ve been involved, it had to be one of the people he considered his friend. But this nightmare made him realize something: he was incredibly vulnerable because of the many people he’d befriended and allowed them to enter his life.

These people brought him happiness and were a part of his life that he treasured a lot, but at the same time, they were also his weakness. Donghae happened to care about them a lot, maybe a little too much for his own good (and maybe theirs too) but that wasn’t something he could’ve controlled. It was beyond his power how they had wormed their way into his heart and planted themselves there. It was probably his fault too, for allowing them in.

That was probably his punishment for being the friendly guy amongst hostile group members who tried to eliminate each other, using the city of Seoul as their battleground.

The nightmare caught him by surprise and he had to splash ice cold water on his face several times before he was sure that he was awake. He let out a heavy breath and without thinking twice; he was already on the phone with the younger male. After the exchange of a few words, they decided to meet at Pandemonium. Donghae got dressed and about fifteen minutes later, he was standing behind the counter of his bar, pouring himself a drink, taking a seat as he waited for the younger male to arrive.

A smile spread across his lips when Taekwoon entered the bar. Another glass had already been put forth and Donghae poured him a drink as he sat down. When he brought up the nightmare, Donghae had to smile apologetically, “Uh, yeah. Sorry, again, for dragging you out here at this hour.”

[antxdonghae]

empty glass

[spdxwonbin-blog]

(...)

[antxdonghae]

(/he didn’t know where he was going so he just stumbled along the streets, which was pretty much empty but that was to be expected since it was late at night. squinting his eyes again to read the text, he couldn’t make out much but smiled nevertheless because wonbin would be on his way but ten minutes he said? wrote? donghae couldn’t wait that long)

(txt) 10?? howbout making it 5??

(txt) im starving

(txt) n ill props be ded by the time youve arrived

(txt) meanie

(/letting out a sigh, he has to stop walking and leans his back against a wall because all of sudden he feels a little nauseated. he groans and slides down to sit on the ground, propping his elbows on his knees, folding his arms together and positions his head on his arms. he stays like that for a few minutes before he slowly tries to lift his head again)

[antxdonghae]

so i come home to smoke and blood closing and it's breaking my heart because i love this place and the people i've been introduced to. at the same time, i understand admin's decision in closing this place and i wish her the best of luck with everything in the future, and thank you so much for creating this wonderful place and letting me be a part of it.

i'm going to miss everyone so much and i'm going to miss this place a lot. i'm talking as if i'm leaving but i'm not. i'd love to continue the plots i have ongoing and seeing how some of you are still around - why not stay as well? replies might be a little slow because i have a lot of school work to catch up but i'll be around!

[antxdonghae]

kinda important, especially for those i have an ongoing para with and those i'm plotting with

anyway, this is just a heads up for you guys. play nice while he's gone, yeah? and try not to trash his bar. jiho i'm looking at you.

until then, lots of love and stay healthy and beautiful ♥ (:

[donghaais-blog]

[antxdonghae]

tracker; 06.03.14

waiting: hongbin, minah, jia, sooyeon, sora, narae (starter), intae (starter), wonbin

owing: taekwoon, kai

plotting: miyoung, eunhye, sumin, gayoon, jiyeon

[elena-chan-blog]

[arcxsooyeon]

-- ❝ troublemaker ❞ -- s;d

[arcxsooyeon]

(...)

[antxdonghae]

(/even with his attention on making the food, he still manages to catch a glimpse of her in pain and he furrows his eyebrows in concern. he felt his heart becoming a little heavy, because she looked fine in the car, but this wasn’t the first time he had it wrong. he’s no doctor, that’s for sure, but he knew pain when he saw it. knowing her though, she’d probably just brush it off as no big deal while letting the pain eat her away slowly. or maybe she’d let him have a look at his and tend to it before anything became worse)

(/just as he put the finishing touch on the meal, he hears her walk over to him, as if she knew that it was done. it was almost scary how such a good timing she had when it came down to things like these. donghae hummed back a reply, smiling at her and taking the two plates, putting one of them down on the kitchen island where the utensils had already been put forth. the other is still in his hand, as he stands on the other side of the island and eats, watching her with concern and fondness) dig in, princess.

[antxdonghae]

empty glass

[spdxwonbin-blog]

(...)

[antxdonghae]

I’m not drunk! (/he yelled at the phone, holding it in front of his face, sporting an angry look. he was sure he’d get a few glances from the other customers, or maybe they too were too drunk to care, but he paid them no attention. how dare he accuse him of being drunk?)

(txt) ruuDEEEE

(/somebody came over to him and said something to him, probably one of the workers who wanted to kick him out but he rolled his eyes and left his spot. it was about time to get the hell out of there anyway. he could get better drink at pandemonium, and that for free as well!) Huh? (/he couldn’t exactly make out the words that popped up on his screen so he had to squint his eyes and holding the device a few centimeters away from his face; still the words were a little blurry, or maybe he didn’t bother trying to read them at all) Maybe it’s time to get some glasses… (/more incoherent mumbling followed and he made his way out of the bar, inhaling the fresh air as if this would be the last time he’d ever smell it)

(txt) good hyung. ill be waiting. come n get me.

[advxjjong]

[past] Summer Lights || Donghae & Sandara

[advxjjong]

(...)

[antxdonghae]

Listening to Dara talk about her aunt made him remember his own aunt in Japan. She wasn’t the only aunt he had on his mother’s side but definitely the aunt he remembers the most, mostly due to the fact that he had lived with her for quite a few years before moving to Seoul. She was a cool aunt, he remembers, though not very talkative. But that was ok, he guessed. She never treated him wrongly and he always listened to her, so their relationship was a good one.

Donghae nods in understanding. Of course he knew. It almost felt like just yesterday he opened Pandemonium for the people, when in fact it had been about six years ago.

It’s already been six years, huh? How time flies.

Pride swelled in his chest when he saw her reaction to what he had just told her. He didn’t like to brag, but he couldn’t help it that people were surprised when he told them he owned a bar. Owning a business was kinda a big deal, wasn’t it? It hadn’t been all rainbows and cupcakes either; the beginning was almost always the worst and difficult times. So much had to be done and he didn’t have many materials to begin with and having to reconstruct the insides of the building wasn’t an easy task either. Getting the business off the ground was equally as difficult.

“Yes, really,” he replied back with a cheeky smile, rummaging through his memory for a picture of Dara but he comes out empty handed. He spent most of his time at the bar; one could probably say he practically lived there now, despite living in an apartment nearby, and he hadn’t seen Dara around. Or maybe she had just visited the times he was out and not working. That wasn’t impossible either.

“It’s called Pandemonium. And I don’t think I’ve seen you there before,” his cheeky smile suddenly turned into a playful smirk, “Because I’m pretty sure I would’ve remembered such a beautiful girl like you.” The flirty façade didn’t last long and seconds later he had to turn his head away to laugh at himself. Wow, how embarrassing. He let out a sigh and turned back, smiling sheepishly at Dara. Turning his attention away from his date, he looked around them, exclaiming the obvious to take the attention away from him and onto something else, “Ah, we’re at the park already.”