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A review.

Today I made a review on a game I feel deserves it. The game is Divinity Original Sin 2 and showcases a classic dungeons and dragons style game. It truly is the digital version of it.

#nr 20

Ask advice and getting rejected.

So about a few months back I asked my friend on campus for help with my social issues. She suggested I should just ask anyone out. For a few weeks there was one girl in my class that I found attractive. So since I did not find anyone easily attractive I went for it. Now I suck at flirting and haven’t been in a relationship in about 4 years now so it was hard for me. Finally I did ask her to come to the halloween thing the campus threw. Well I got rejected and it still feels shit. Sadly I did ask someone for advice, followed it, but I am just not ready for the dating life I think.

Me and my friend which gave me the advice.

#Nr18&19

Sell something

In the steammarket users are able to sell various gaming cosmetics for profit. I was able to grind about 10 specific cases for the game Player unknowns Battlegrounds. Waited around 4 months for the limited supply to drop and was able to turn what was R20 each into R70+ each.

https://www.google.co.za/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=2&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=0ahUKEwjvyNOKkpjXAhVKJsAKHRacDJIQFghDMAE&url=https%3A%2F%2Fsteamcommunity.com%2Fmarket%2Flistings%2F578080%2FGAMESCOM%2520INVITATIONAL%2520CRATE&usg=AOvVaw09uI1WdE-mtTWHl433-FZL

#nr18

Lucid Dreaming

Over the past week my eardrums have been truly fucked so I was prescribed pain pills. One night I took 2 and they are literally as strong as drugs. However I did sleep for about 14 hours and in that time I usually dream a lot. This time I did not, I thought I was awake and couldn’t move. After I woke up I realized that was just a dream but I could depict actions in it. So I do not know if it was a true lucid dream, but it was the closest I could get to it.

#nr17

Vegetarian and vegan for week.

For one week I went for a vegetarian diet and the second week I ate the same food without my diary. I have been eating the same meal plan for about 2 years so eating the same food for a week does not bother me much.

My midday meal with wraps.

My dinner with the vegetarian week with the eggs excluded in the vegan week.

First off, I planned on cutting down in the previous month and used these 2 weeks with the eat plan in order to do so. I would not be able to keep a vegan diet due to my body mass that would drop way too much. To counter that I would need to eat 6x a day and do not have time for the cooking of it.

#nr15&16

Talking to strangers

Went to the naglan 2017 and only surrounded myself with people I do not know. Since everyone there came from a gaming background, almost all of the conversation went in that direction. Gave me some insight to games I detest.

First time in years that I listened to rap. I was a big fan of Eminem and 50 Cent back in the younger days. As I grew up rap turned to shit and I stopped. So picked up Kendrick Lamar’s new album and damn it’s pretty good. Loved his lyrics even though everyone is just listening for how it is portrayed. Guy really has some depth to his music.

Now in the Northern Cape, everything that is not normal is considered extremely bad. So for a day I wore my hair like this and wandered in an extremely small town. Creating awkward situations everywhere and waiting in it. Found it extremely funny how hair can make people so disgusted.

Went to a Christian gathering which is not in my faith. Just find it admirable how people can believe in something with no facts.

My flight got cancelled and I had to make use of ‘the bus’. 14 Hours of boredom. The worst part about this is that on the bus, they aired a lot of shitty movies and in between they will air a documentary pushing Christian beliefs. Now I respect religions, but shoving it into people’s mouths while they don’t really have a choice is pretty terrible.

Spent a day with my nephew. By god kids are terrible. I’ve never been a fan of kids, most likely because I don’t want to be responsible for what ever happens to them. That and I feel like I might just accidentally hurt them way to easily.

Went to an extremely small town in the Northern Cape. Weird part about his town is that there is almost nobody in town. Everyone lives miles out on farms. And people drink a lot in this town. Well guess if there’s really nothing more to do, it’s viable.

Something culturally new. This is something almost everyone in the Northern Cape eat. It is sheep tail fat. Me being into fitness, I died eating mostly fat though.

And a film I have no interest in watching. I went through a list of films I have never watched on my computer and selected everyone which is a Romantic Comedy. I really am not such a big fan of this genre. Mostly of relationship issues and me not being a very good partner. So this movie came up. Watched and well I actually enjoyed it.

A nice thing about it, is stating how we as humans enjoy relationships. Even though they can be bad, we experience joy through it. It reflected the one documentary we watched in Academic skills about a study over 70 years on what makes people happy. Pretty sure it was from Robert Waldinger - What makes a good life.

This week’s biggest mistake.

SO today I recorder a mistake I made. So it’s week 9 and we are handing in all our projects. For animation I was tasked to model Wall E. So the process went on through a few weeks and fast forward to Friday, the hand in date. I was finishing up everything until I applied a bevel to Wall E’s tracks. I saved right after and my project jumped from 12 MB to over 100 MB. Slowly I finished Wall E and when it came to rendering my projects, everything failed. My computer could not handle 27 million faces and there was no time to re-do a week’s work. My computer kept crashing and 1 got to edit a single object every hour. I completely missed the deadline by 3 hours and was forced to re-install most of my drivers due to corruption. Never in my life will I bevel that much again.

Went for a night run. Seeing that I also needed a bit of cardio in my life. Kinda fun doing it in our streets knowing how dangerous South Africa can be. I was amused at just how amazing streetlight can actually be. I spent 30 minutes studying just lighting of it. When I came back home I tried to mimic it in blender for an animation project.

Now to change my appearance. For about 4 years I had a beard. Not the longest not the biggest but just a beard to fit me. So for the appearance challenge I went and did a clean shave for 2 weeks. God I look 10 years younger and my gym presence has gone into the drain.

It’s weird though, seeing yourself in the mirror and acknowledging how different it is.

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