Dear me,
Can I say you something today! You are amazing, oh I rarely tell you how much I love you, how much I admire you, how beautiful and caring and strong you are:). You and I go way back, to the beginning. We’re one hundred percent connected in a way no one could ever understand. We’ve been there standing together in all the hard times, carrying something too heavy that the earth’s gravity pulls us down so many times and we both fail to stand properly, sometimes crying in the shower, washroom, sometimes puffing through nose, but it’s always been you and me. Always and forever I know it was supposed to be, but I realized some time ago I left you flatfish on your own to rely on love and encouragement and strength from others, from strangers and when it was I who should have held you up. When it was I who should have hugged you and praised you and appreciated you for the marvelous soul you are for all the beauty and life you bring to this world. I know life has been tough but have done quite a good job to stay alive well, thank you for not giving up.
Life is not straight line, it goes ups and downs. In every sunshine's and rainbows We walked together. And thanks for encouraging me saying if you don't want these sunshine and rainbows in life, then that is as good as wanting death. I am terribly sorry that I was not good enough to take fire your motivation, was not good enough to encourage and appreciate you, I feel bad that I allowed you to hang your head down low. I was not all ears to listen to your problems. I never let you lead the spiritual path. This biggest challenges you have gone through all alone breaking you down and many times leading you think about your self worth, your weakness, and your failure. This ungodly life makes you realized how you were dealing your life all alone without letting god to work in your life. because of this ungodliness devil were trying to hold you from walking towards your goal like a dark cloud full of negative thoughts that turns even darker every times you were looking to find a hope. But you did it look behind these dark clouds, there is a bright blue sky waiting to sine on you once you blow those clouds away. And the same goes to our life with god.
Dear me don't look at your past now you did it, you unlock your hardship all alone and learn something important that is nobody can help you but yourself and this makes you feel so amazing. Have you noticed that you have changed? You have, you have improved and I am glad that you did it. You are able to say no to people, able to understand your worth and do so many things all alone and all by yourself. You are hundred percent different from past. I am so happy you are growing spiritually. I saw you getting baptized. That particular moment was the best moment. Really this change is beautiful keep it going throughout your life. Let Holy spirit be the rulers of your life you will see miracles in your life. I know lords has bigger plan in your life and you are going to get more confident to stand up and raise up to challenges. I know now you will stop comparing things, complaining about everything. Tell every-time your life is so perfect with Lord, praise him and pray your needs. At the end of the day, it is all about yourself. Never forget to love and appreciate yourself before you want to be accepted or loved by others.
AS I am, writing you today, please don’t look back, lord is amazing and always follow what is written in Scriptures. Make it as a final authority of your life. The clock is running way too fast. Future is something that keeps you anxiously awaken at night. So someday in the future, once you come back and read this I hope you will feel happy that you have followed a path that you are happy of, which allows you to understand yourself better. Please surprise me with what you have store.