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Nobody said it was easy.

I am torn.

Midterm/Prelim Exams

Review here, review there. Lalalala!

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I wish everyone goodluck! Kaya natin 'to mga pre. :)

Faking A Smile.

There is a quote saying; "It is easier to put on a fake smile than to explain the reason why you are sad." Seems legit right?

These past few days I had to put on a mask. I forced myself to act as if everything is ok in front of my friends, family and everyone who knows me. I had to fake a smile simply because I don't want other people to feel my sadness. I don't want to be a burden to anyone anymore.

Well I guess there really comes a point where you can't handle things anymore. Just like what happened last night. I had to let those feelings inside of me explode. I had to withdraw every drop of pain, anger and the like just to feel a little better. I had to, somehow, cry because I believe it would help me release tensions.

I don't know. It feels incredibly painful inside.

Breaking A Person's Heart.

"We accept the love we think we deserve." - This is an excerpt from a famous movie and it suits the status of my love life right now.

Earlier this day, I had to make the most painful thing in my life and that is; breaking someone else's heart. It may sound so selfish and insensitive but I had to do it because I wanted to save him from further pain. I know it's painful because I had experienced it myself but what else can I do? No one can blame me for doing such thing. You have no idea how hard it was for me to do it.

How can I even fight forthe love if in the first place I don't know what is our real status? The idea of, "wala naman akong pinanghahawakan."

Well, I already did it and I don't regret that I did it because it's for the common good.

Halalan 2013.

Sa darating na May 13, 2013 ay ang araw para sa paghalal ng ating mga senador at mamumuno ng bansa. Nawa'y iboto natin ang mga kandidatong hindi lamang magaling sa umpisa, at hindi lang mabulaklak sa salita kundi yung mga kandidatong may paninindigan at mabulaklak sa gawa. Ang darating na eleksyon ay hindi lamang para sa'ting mga tao ngayon kung hindi para sa mga bagong henerasyon. Sana ay pumili tayo ng maayos. Vote wisely. :)

OMBREFIED: A DIY Experience.

` I had a DIY project a while ago. :")

I have this plain blue shirt from Mint which I bought for like 2 years ago. At first I loved the shirt so much 'cause it matches anything. But then, I got bored and so I decided to ombrefied it. :D

I decided to stitch away the sleeves and do the ombre-thing on the upper part of the shirt.

HERE GOES THE RESULT:

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Yeayea it's not that good but hey, I am a neophyte in the business. Any constructive criticisms guys? Let me know! :D

A Life Without Him.

A couple of night ago, my life changed.

I decided to let go of someone I held for the longest time. Yes it hurt. Everything you do that is out of your league is painful. But I guess it'll be worth it. I was left with no choice but to save myself from further pain. I wanted to give myself a brand new start. Take away all those negative things and focus on the positive ones. I suffered too much for me to stay holding on. I was stoked that night to give up everything between us.

Few days have passed and I can say that I'm actually doing great. It wasn't that hard as I thought it would be. All the cramming and the procrastinating helped me divert my attention. I think I'll get through this wholly although I cannot disregard the fact that a part of me is missing him.

This is Me. THE NEW ME. And I need to live this awesome life without him.

#RealityCheck

Sometimes, I wonder if anyone is secretly in love with me.

Meron kaya? Ang sarap lang pagisipan at i-wish diba? Kasi tayo may mga crush pero hindi natin sinasabi sa kanila na crush natin sila kasi natatakot tayo or nahihiya. Ang sarap lang kasi isipin kung may tao rin kayang takot sabihing mahal niya ako kasi baka i-reject ko siya. :">

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Luuuuuh. Nagi-imagine na naman ako. :"> HHAHAHAH! Happy Black Saturday guys! :D

Unrequited Love.

"Meaning: Loving someone who is not interested."

Have you ever experience loving someone who, unfortunately, doesn't love you back? It feels like loving a wall. You will never have a chance to get a response at all. If not, you're lucky. If yes, you're doomed. With all the daily conversations I have with different people, it's safe for me to say that there are a lot of cases of unrequited love nowadays. No matter what gender you're in, there is no such thing as safe zone.

Having been in love in a person for three-long years, I am very much aware of what unrequited love really feels. Yes it's nerve-wracking, heart-breaking and soul-crashing but there's no antidote on it. All you can do is love that person, get use to the pain it causes you and eventually, with all your might, move on.

No one is safe in love. Not everyone will get their happy-ever-after with the person they really wanted. There is no sure satisfaction. Just chances and risks.

How well do you value your time?

After reading Mitch Albom's: "The Time Keeper", I appreciated time. It made me think of how well do I spend my time.

Yung feeling na biglang bumalik yung mga memories ko and I asked myself, "Nasulit ko ba 'tong panahon na 'to?". Yung 14th birthday ko ba nasulit ko? Yung promenades ko? Yung panahon na nandito yung relatives ko sa Philippines, nasulit ko ba? Did I make the most out of that certain time? Ang hirap isipin. Oo alam ko na I had fun on those moments pero, sulit ba? I mean hindi naman kasi sa kasiyahan lang mava-value ang time e. You should spend it to it's fullest. Na alam kong kapag binalikan mo hindi ka ngre-regret. Na oo sumaya ka and at the same time nasulit mo.

SULIT. Paulit-ulit ako no? Parang sirang plaka lang. Pero kasi yan ung isa sa mga natutunan ko sa book na yon. Na dapat sa bawat oras na lumilipas sa atin, sinusulit natin. Vina-value natin. We should not take time for granted. Hindi yung, "bukas na lang, may oras pa naman e." Kung ano yung mga bagay na kaya mong gawin sa mga oras mo, gawin mo. Habang may oras pa, mahalin mo yung mga taong nagmamahal at nagaalaga sayo. Habang may oras pa, gumawa ka ng tama. Gumawa ka ng mga bagay na alam mong ikakasaya hindi lang ng sarili mo pero pati ng mga taong nakapaligid sayo. Sulitin mo yung panahon na kasama mo yung mga importanteng tao sayo kasi when time is wasted, you can never take it back. Walang rewinds sa buhay. Treasure it.

Sabi nga sa book, "What makes humans different from animals is that, humans have the fear of running out of time." Kaya ayan. I-treasure natin mga kapatid ang oras natin. Kahit gano ka-konti o karami, basta ang mahalaga, at uulitin ko, at nasulit natin ang oras natin. :D

#time sulit

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OMYGOSH! Sino hindi a-agree sakin if I say na this pic is so hot!? I'm getting wet!! Hardcore grabe. :"> <3

Si ako na mahilig magpetiks.

I passed 2 math quizzes!!!!!! Yahoo lang talaga. Nako naman kasi ha! :") Never ako naka-experience ng ganitong saya sa Mapua kaya. Feeling ko i'm so matalinooooooo! Hhihi. O ayun lang. Masama ba mag-blog? Hhaha. Later ulit dudes. May klase akis. :p P.S: Happy Tuesday!! Spread love. <3

ANTOK AT GUTOM AT THE SAME TIME.

What if inaantok ka habang nagugutom ka? Ano uunahin mo, kumain o matulog? Deeeeym! Nalilito ako. Nyhaha. E kasi naman ang aking mata ay kusang sumasara dahil sa antok pero ang aking sikmura ay nagwawala dahil sa sobrang gutom. Kaya ayun I ended up confused. :'( Mas lalo pa akong nalilito dahil ako ay nasa kalagitnaan ng discussion. O yes friends you read it right. Nasa klase ako pero kung anu-ano inaatupag ko. Blog, twitter, facebook, antok at gutom. Oh my gas abelgas!! Nyhaha. =)) Bye na nga muna. Hhaha! Baka tawagin pa ko ng prof ko. Magre-recite na rin ako para dagdag points. Hhahah! Bbye mga ateng at kuyeng. :")

Urgh badtrip!!

Yung umagang-umaga pa lang, badtrip ka na! Nakakainis kasi. First time ko na magkaka-violation regarding improper uniform. Kasi naman nasira pants ko kaya eto black suot ko. Pakening. Hindi pa naman ako sanay na ganun. Bahala na ngaaaaaaa! At dahil nababadtrip talaga ko, eto blog padin kahit nasa jeep ako. :| >:[ Nakakainis talaga. Btw, Good Morning. P+@!?+&)@: !!!

Isang malagim na kaganapan.

So eto na nga mga friends!!!! Eto kasing ate ko nahulog sa kanal. Well actually hindi sya nahulog totally. Lumusot lang yung left binti niya sa takip ng kanal. And BOOM! Basag yung takip ng kanal. :'( Nakakasad yun. Sirang-sira kasi. Hhahahah! Pero seryoso, nasugat ung left knee niya. Grabe ung sugat niya. Kawawa si ate e. Alam niyo ba kung bakit? Naglalaro kasi kami ng volleyball. E ang galing ko masyado ayun dun ko napapunta sa may kanal. Hahaha! Tapos na ang maliligayang araw ng makinis na binti ni ate. :'( =)) Thanks to my greatness nasugat siya. =))

Himas dito, hampas doon. Goodbye lamig.

Grabeeeeeeeeee! Iba talaga ang trip namin dito sa Nasugbu. 11PM nagpamasahe pa kami. 11 ha!! PM. It was so relaxing. Sobrang nakakatanggal ng sakit sa joint and everything. IT WAS LIKE I WAS BEING FUCKED UP! Seryoso. Hhahah! Ang galing kasi ni ate masahista. Ermergersh. And because of that, ayon ako’y inantok ng bigla. Pero syempre blog muna bago borlog. Mahal ko kayo eeeh. Osya goodnight na! :* To Citi and Painte Massage Spa, I shall return!

Isang paumanhin.

Sa lahat ng taong umasa ng piktyur ng isang magara at tapos na bahay, paumanhin. Nako naman mga ateng! Next week pa pala ang lipat namin e. Hhahah! Maling impormasyon. Anyhow, just visit my insta accnt. I'll be posting part by part pictures. Kanina kaya pinost ko na yung loo ng grandparents ko sa room nila. :') Look niyo here oh: instagram.com/apbfuentebella O ayan a! Atleast nag-UD ako. Abang-abang na lang mga friends. Keber na sa tagal! Hhaha. P.S. Ako ay tao lamang. Pasensya na. :") :D

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