Just a Troubled Kid

to BE oR nOt to bE

[grecoromanyaoi]

betray, belittle, boytoy

[thenevernovel]

I have rehearsed what I would say to you. A speech full of dignity and closure. But if I ever saw you, I would probably just say your name. And then probably nothing.

| excerpt from a novel I will never write

[archangel-7]

I don’t like being mean but I don’t mind either.

[archangel-7]

Crushes are crazy. Why am I seeing this random autistic girl the way god sees her.

[archangel-7]

You stare at your coffee hoping it gives you perspective & sanity & the ability to make sense of it all & that's a lot to ask of your coffee.

[thoughtcascades]

You need to move on

I can’t even move out of bed

[archangel-7]

You are not ALIVE without struggle.

Depressed? No purpose.

Sad inside? NO WAR.

NO BATTLE.

NOTHING TO FIGHT FOR.

YOU MUST FIGHT, IT IS WHO YOU ARE.

[thoughtcascades]

me, falling in love: oh cool. another entire human to romanticize, destroy, misunderstand, and cry about

[thenevernovel]

I wonder if plants ever get scared when they have to lose all their leaves in the fall. They must know, in whatever way a plant knows things, that they have to let go of everything that makes them beautiful and just stand there, bare and cold, for a long time. But they do it anyway. Because they trust that the sun will come back, and their roots are deep. I think people have to do that too. Let go of things, even beautiful things, and just stand in the cold for a while, trusting that their roots are deep enough to keep them alive until spring.

I excerpt from a novel I will never write

[theacademicgatsby]

the 2022 urge to get my life together

[theacademicgatsby]

the 2023 urge to get my life together

[archangel-7]

2024 is the year I'm telling y'all

[archangel-7]

The urge is dead atp

[archangel-7]

mUsiNgs oF my miND

Saw her pass by

Wondered if it would have been any different

If i hadn't lied, but i felt strifed

My bitter heart oblivious of the need to survive

"Actions have consequences they say"

I am always in the same situation

shrieking and screaming begging you to stay

Only when the final match has burned

Locked in a stalemate, will i ever be able to escape this ever-growing labyrinth of my mind

I feel no remorse, this is me

Regret of having less and the inability to hold more

And i will tell you what the worst is

Its the way it doesn't hurt when i wish it did

"And my heart almost burst"

s.c.

[archangel-7]

I don't even think about you atp, but when I do...damnn

[archangel-7]

M&M

The clock struck 12

and I found myself waiting,

wanting everything or nothing.

The decade-long wait was over

but my heart was tumbling over

but still, I felt peace.....Oh, I was wrong.

the past year's memories came flooding back

well not really, though I wished they had.

I think I felt that the past was all I had.

Fuck, I made the choices all so bad.

s.c.

[alaskaisnothere]

isn't it funny how life is wonderful and messy and hard like one day you are crying your eyes out because you feel lost and the next day you are packing your stuff ready to leave your worries behind and start a new chapter in a different country and then you find all these people who love and support you and you still feel lost and you still have no idea what your life is supposed to look like but you're enjoying pink sunset and book dates at the park and overpriced coffees and maybe you just have to enjoy the breeze without expecting a storm

[theacademicgatsby]

the 2022 urge to get my life together

[theacademicgatsby]

the 2023 urge to get my life together

[archangel-7]

2024 is the year I'm telling y'all

[theacademicgatsby]

taylor swift when she wrote: LIVING FOR THE THRILL OF HITTING YOU WHERE IT HURTS, GIVE ME BACK MY GIRLHOOD IT WAS MINE FIRSSTTTT

[theacademicgatsby]

not much can go wrong in life if you have a good book by your side