Ardens BunkerTowerNexus (Thing)

It's a space island, but also a bunker and a tower apparently. 30+. Full of Me so decide if you want to deal with that. Pigeonsona in pfp by EilionFate on Vgen.

[ardensnexus]

I'm Ardens, and this is my tumblr.

More accurately this is "my space." You're most likely here because there's something I've left around that you like. I've tried to highlight what you might be looking for for easy looking. Otherwise I'll be bedecking this space with "me"- thoughts, images, a virtual capsule of what is "me." Handle it regardless of what you come across en route to your destination and you'll be fine.

Fics are sometimes ported over from my Ao3. If you can't find it here, there's your best bet.

Here are some tags so you can get to the neat stuff faster.

Thoughts in a bottle - Mutterings and attempts to record notable emotions and experiences as part of a personal quest of sorts. Contains positive and negative sentiments. Negative sentiments are usually tagged under "grumping" if that helps you block it (stuff might slip, I'll try my best)

HSR Fanfic - All my Honkai Star Rail fanfics that have been ported to Tumblr.

Headcanons - Assorted headcanons, it's pretty much all HSR currently

HSR Chat - Tag for my HSR Chat tool-made log things because I basically cannot stop making them

No Man's Sky - General NMS antics/highlights, from neat photography to fantastic fauna to... volcano surfing.

NMS x HSR Crossover - For stuff I make in NMS for my NMS/HSR crossover AU. The actual fics will be tagged with its name when it gets here.

(Updated as of 4/26/26 for clarification of expectations)

[ardensnexus]

I think I've hit the point where my value of "understanding" has come to bite me.

I tried so hard to understand others, and to make myself understandable to others, but as time goes on it becomes clearer that I am fundamentally incompatible with most people. They will not understand my drive, my values, my ebb and flow, and I will not understand the petty squabbles, the banal mutterings, the unwillingness to use compassion and sense. They will not understand my effort and I will not understand their lack of effort. I tried.

To stand on the other side of this gulf of mindset is lonely and painful even if I know it's for the best. Better to watch and cherish the passing joys from a distance than waste time and energy bumping into the invisible, impenetrable wall that separates me from everyone else. They see me, they come to recoil from my presence, the shudders and whispers mount until they finally think they have a reason to banish me, and they breathe a sigh of relief at having defeated something so evil. Let them. There would be no convincing them otherwise.

I will come to accept that I stand alone, even as I toss bottles into the sea of thought around me. Someday I will finally learn how to handle myself, by myself, for myself. Someday I will be strong enough to build everything by and for myself, for that is the only way to enjoy something that will not break its promises. Anything from the outside deteriorates and becomes tainted, therefore, building what you want is the only way to find a pure joy.

I may never be able to create that magnum opus that teaches the naysayers their final lesson. I may not even be able to produce points of light to guide those that find them by chance. But at the very least I will inscribe joy, love, and serendipity on my tower for the people looking from the other side to see.

I will dream in my cradle of beauty. It will be all I have left, and life will go on.

[ardensnexus]

Just as a general rule, "grow up" and "get over yourself" are such empty ways of saying "I don't like how you are, change how you are for me." Beyond that, they're utterly meaningless. If "growing up" means changing my core nature so some smudge in the greater sprawl feels better, I will never, ever do so. There's consideration and then there's breaking oneself for an impossible request.

Civility should never, ever be code for "don't call out bullshit when you see it." Do not yield to people who do not and will not understand.

[ardensnexus]

One last thing.

The world is too ugly and vile a place to not embrace what little beauty you can find. If it is precious to you, that is enough. If it gives you succor in dark times, that is enough. That is the true nature of art as a beacon.

If you can hold that light aloft, you've already risen far enough above the mire.

[ardensnexus]

Body randomly superheats as I try to avoid destroying stuff. MUST BE THE COREFLAMES

Anyway, my stone is thrown (heh), I sponged the dirt off my shoes, if that kid wants to riot I'm sure they can send one of their equally dumb little buddies after me to tell me why I'm secretly sponsoring the destruction of the world by liking what I do. Whatever.

At least my apocalypse is gonna be good-looking!

Oh lol it looks like they blocked me first. good. Self-annulling problem. Back to fixing things up for myself.

[ardensnexus]

I'm still half-convinced that splattering idiots on the internet is a victimless crime.

I do my best to stay constructive with my wrath but also, you can basically throw a rock and hit someone who deserves it. And even if you don't actually hit anyone, you still got to throw a rock, and sometimes that's what counts.

[ardensnexus]

Imagine seeing your friend struggling and then saying, even as a joke, "if you get serious, we can't be friends anymore!"

March 7th has been hit with one of the most egregious writer bag fumbles in the horseshit Amphoreus Apology Tour that is Planarcadia. Apparently she learned NOTHING from Amphoreus at all and possibly has even regressed into an even more vapid dunderhead comic relief (except not even funny) character. "Evernight will protect me!!!" Maybe she shouldn't lol

Anyway the game even calls her out on being completely useless.

BECAUSE THAT'S LITERALLY ALL YOU DID while we were fighting for our lives. Must be nice. lol

March literally could have gone back under ice during 4.0 and nothing of note would have changed.

Planarcadia is BAD, folks. There's good bits, yeah, but we've got six more months of this drivel. On the bright side, I now no longer have to think about how the best story and characters turned into the worst story with inconsistent characters for... the next 6 weeks.

Divergent Universe helps me wear my brain out so it's not like I'm quitting, but at this point I'm just waiting till 5.0 for the game to get its shit back together.

Hey, if she likes it here so much, we can just leave her here. Wouldn't be the first app mascot girl to become irrelevant (stares at WuWa's Yangyang) (it would never happen but still)

[ardensnexus]

Hey. Reblog kid. Sit the fuck down for a moment.

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN 1-1 PLAGIARISM NO-DEPTH BEAM.

You clearly didn't like Amphoreus and you clearly don't like the game anyway. What the fuck are you doing here? Let me guess. Amphoreus had too many words for you so you just joined the crowd of people going WAH AMPHOREUS BAD!!! Amphoreus was a human persistence/power of story narrative, but you wouldn't know that, because you just wanted something to scream and cry over. And you know what? Keep crying, you empathy-less, brainless sludge person. You're no better than the rest of the greater sprawl.

People like you are PART OF THE PROBLEM. Your manufactured outrage over non-issues GAVE US PLANARCADIA. and you don't even LIKE this game! What are you even doing?

Fuck off kid.

[ardensnexus]

Imagine seeing your friend struggling and then saying, even as a joke, "if you get serious, we can't be friends anymore!"

March 7th has been hit with one of the most egregious writer bag fumbles in the horseshit Amphoreus Apology Tour that is Planarcadia. Apparently she learned NOTHING from Amphoreus at all and possibly has even regressed into an even more vapid dunderhead comic relief (except not even funny) character. "Evernight will protect me!!!" Maybe she shouldn't lol

Anyway the game even calls her out on being completely useless.

BECAUSE THAT'S LITERALLY ALL YOU DID while we were fighting for our lives. Must be nice. lol

March literally could have gone back under ice during 4.0 and nothing of note would have changed.

Planarcadia is BAD, folks. There's good bits, yeah, but we've got six more months of this drivel. On the bright side, I now no longer have to think about how the best story and characters turned into the worst story with inconsistent characters for... the next 6 weeks.

Divergent Universe helps me wear my brain out so it's not like I'm quitting, but at this point I'm just waiting till 5.0 for the game to get its shit back together.

Hey, if she likes it here so much, we can just leave her here. Wouldn't be the first app mascot girl to become irrelevant (stares at WuWa's Yangyang) (it would never happen but still)

[effinbirds]

[effinbirds]

[ardensnexus]

on the one hand, THANK YOU SEAN I NEEDED TO BLOW SOMETHING UP TODAY

on the other. oh no. oh nononono. PLEASE let this expedition be doable without multiplayer. and that whole three teams thing? asking for disaster. the playerbase's majority is composed of minmaxing tryhards and idiots who don't read (and the overlap between them). I cannot see this ending well for anyone. if this turns into "the nose-picking um ackshually guys win", or goes the way expeditions tend to when you have multiplayer on (ie. you get overrun with crap left by griefers to make things unplayable), I might just crawl through the screen and feed them to the swarm myself.

...Still, blowing up some GLASSK takes priority. I look forward to it.

[effinbirds]

[effinbirds]

[ardensnexus]

Am I gonna end up being one of those toxic yume shippers who goes batshit when they see art of anyone at all with their favorites or

On second thought there is no such thing as thought crimes and I would never go after anyone for their ships (not seriously, I say to three random people trying to dig up dirt) (disclaimer: these people probably don't exist but fighting windmills for fun is my hobby), but that weird territorial feeling is. Weird. Like seriously stupid lizard brain watcha gonna do, vet everyone coming for all your sons? Don't be silly.

Does this make me the yume in-law... No I would NEVER I am JOKING lolol

[allshipsareok]

[zykamiliah-temporal]

i think we should bring this back (with some amendments ofc) if we ever needed an "internet etiquette" for the younger generations, now is the moment to remind them. purity culture kills fandom

as well as the three laws of fandom:

Don't Like, Don't Read (DL;DR), Your Kink is not My Kink And That's OK (YKINMKATO) and Ship and Let Ship

[sorcererofsolitude]

📣 Purity culture kills fandom! 📣

[atlinmerrick]

NO ONE LIVING hasn't been squicked out by something. There's over 7 billion of us, my delights and disgusts aren't universal. So I move on. Don't like the ship? Move on. Don't like____? Move on.

I am not an exception. Neither are you. I don't like it I move on and shut my gob about it because everyone everywhere is squicked out by something and they need to put the thing down and just…motor.

[rewordthis]

This but also:

Frames this entire post and hangs it over the fireplace.

[sals-geno]

Time to start yelling out these rules and telling everyone to obey these rules or they will be kicked out.

[positiveseed]

[deciqm]

UHHH so