04 June 2018
I needed somewhere to put my recent thoughts and this was the only place i could think of to come and put it all out there.
My personal life is in a much better place now than i think it ever has been. My favorite grandma growing up recently died. Which was horrible, but i was able to fly out to Utah to see my family and I was also able to see my best friend Kristen while I was out there as well. It was a very wholesome visit because I was able to see and reconnect with family I hadn’t seen in years. and it also showed me that family doesn’t need to be blood to be your family. My dad started talking to me again and I think he/we are starting to let go of this weird grudge thing we’ve had going on for awhile. I’ve learned and changed so much in the past 5 years that I’ve lived in Ohio and I think that he’s realized that I’m not a piece of shit human just because I got married at 17, and definitely not after I got divorced at 20. He’s very accepting of my relationship with Eric too, which is surprising because I’m living with him and we aren't married. But I don’t think he wants to fuck this thing we have up (where we’re actually communicating, you know? its literally been years.) I dunno. We’ll see how this goes I guess.
My relationship with Eric is also amazing. I don’t like talking about it because I don’t want to jinx anything. But You know. Gooey Romantic crap here. lol
I have 3 cats and my puppy still. Gosh they’re all so fuzzy and lazy pieces of garbage. haha
But life is good. I love my cats. I love my dog. I love my boyfriend. I love my house. I hate my job, but who doesn’t? lol
