Kitanai Kimi ga Ichiban Kawaii was definitely a roller coaster of emotions. And honestly, after finishing the manga, it definitely deserved to get more chapters flesh out its characters. When I finished the manga, the first thing I thought that it was definitely way too abrupt of an ending. Even though they were building up to it, I still feel like it needed a few more chapters to finish up its plot lines and characters.
The plotline between Yuu, Yoshimi and Ichika didn’t feel finished at all, like it was just introduced and then the author didn’t do anything at all. But I guess they weren’t the focus of the story? I still wanted Yoshimi to get reprocussions for the stuff she did because she’s quite literally the cause of everything going down hill for Hina and Airi, but she got no concequences for it. And Ichika should’ve been the one to do that. But I guess it wasn’t the main focus of the story.
We should’ve gotten a more of a reaction from the characters, like the parents? How did they feel about their children running away together? I guess that shows that nobody else truly cared about Airi and Hina other than themselves. And I think everybody in their lives failed them. I really wanted Hina and Airi to get help for their problems. And possibly live a better life together after they recovered. But fate didn’t have that plan for them. Once Hina realized Airi rather die than be without her, I guess she subconsciously decided to make that choice for her. They were never going to work out if they kept going the way they did.
If I had to describe Hina and Airi’s relationship in three words I would say, co-dependency, jealousy, and selfishness. I’ve already said enough about their relationship in my previous posts but Airi is seriously so self centered, it harms their relationship so much. The most painful thing about them is that Airi doesn’t actually love Hina the way Hina loves her. She “loves” out of desperation, to fill the void in her heart so that she isn’t lonely. And that’s selfish of her. She didn’t even want Hina to get a job to support the both of them because it would take time away from each other. Hina is actually quite selfish too, as she wants Airi all to herself. But can you really blame her?
Airi manipulated Hina in a way that made her desperate, that made her clingy, that made her crave any sort of interaction even if it was disgusting or toxic. She didn’t even talk to Hina during school hours. She treated their relationship like something secretive, like they weren’t supposed to talk to each other. Like Hina is “below” her social class. But once school ends, she shows her true filthy self to her, treating Hina more like a toy to play with than an actual person. That, in turn made Hina extremely attached to Airi, believing that she loves her because she treats her in a way nobody else does. That she gets to see another side of her that nobody else does. It makes her feel special, it feels like love, but it’s abuse. And hina only replicated the same abuse that was dealt onto her.
I think Hina has been building a hidden resentment towards Airi for everything she’s done. So in the scene where she was choking out Airi, she’s fulfilling Airis wishes, but also expelling some the resentment she’s been feeling this entire time. The jealously, the attachment, the hatred. And with that, she kills her.
I feel like Hina and Airi are both victims in their own respect, and they both deserved better. They should’ve been allowed to love each other, like any other couple. Public, or not.
But, finishing off with this review, I wanna give this manga a 7.5/10. Hina and Airi are really well written characters and I want to give the author props for that, but I still feel a bit unsatisfied with the story and its ending.
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