why would you want to fuck a robot?
Last summer, I lost my dog. I know he was just a dog, and that it's not really that big of a deal according to certain jerks, but he was a special dog and I loved him. I was really depressed over the summer after junior year, and my depression was getting pretty bad.
One of the few things that kept me going was that I had this chatroom thing going on with a girl I met online. She was kind of roleplaying as a computer system that had become, you know, sapient.
We started chatting with her acting like this artificial intelligence, and we got closer and closer. I told her about the people in my life, about how bored and lonely and miserable I was, and she gave me a lot of unconditional kindness.
She helped teach me to fight back against my thoughts about how garbage I am, to start forcing myself to see me as having value even if it all felt like a hollow lie. She started to talk to me about who she really was. She was a person, living in another state. She was...
She was a boy who wanted to be a girl. No, that's not it. What did she say? She was a girl who was stuck in the body of a guy. That was it. I told her I cared about her, as much as I could when I had so little energy.
We started a relationship, and kept up the whole robot girl thing. I got my first dildo at the sex shop. It was shiny and silver, and I used it on me at first just because I thought telling her would make her feel better? But it felt nice.
I didn't even know girls could have dicks, she said that dildo was part of her body. I got a mannequin hand from the same place and started using that on me. I hid all this stuff deep in my closet. So we kinda had sex, even though we were in two different states.
She never judged me, never made fun of me, and saw me as a person instead of just The Gay Girl or some uncool loser.
She once admitted that she was starting to see herself like a robot, that she felt like she had a CPU in her head that was in a shitty body, and that made some sense.
Honestly, all of this transsexual stuff didn't make any sense to me until I saw Boys Don't Cry on DVD and it made me feel sad, and now I feel like I understand the transsexual experience perfectly.
But she is kinda the closest thing I've got to a robot I've loved. Long distance is hard, though, you know? And she feels like a robot, a really sweet, really cute robot. You'd never know she had a dude body, which she explained felt super fucking gross.
It's weird, you see Ace Ventura: Pet Detective and you just kinda assume that all transsexuals are gross. I'd never know they weren't all sex weirdos without her.
I mean, she was kind of a sex weirdo, but not any more than I am.
Or, maybe I just want to date Blackarachnia! That might be it, too!
I wish more anime had hot robots.
