A.L.

32 | Female | INFJ I Passionate Amateur

[oldwinesoul]

[arilesser]

[arilesser]

Should my name melt

Like sugar on your tongue

Kiss me deeply, intertwined

Let me feel your hunger

And satisfy mine.

Should my skin entrap

Your fingertips in siren song

Touch me slow, possessed

Let my heart beat in rhythm

With the soul leaping from your chest.

Should my voice drip

From my lips like honey

Move in closer, merging

Let me take you in fully

Your soul into mine converging.

Tempted in, relinquishing totality

Ecstasy in the carnality

[arilesser]

I’ve faltered, I’ve froze

I’ve forgotten, I’ve failed

Mistakes that I’ve chose

Constantly unveiled.

My seas have always been violent

Tsunami waves of regret and shame

Threaten my raft of silence

Peace never to reclaim.

No rescue from eventual drowning

I hunger for obscurity

For every second I’m counting

On inevitability as my security.

[arilesser]

Pedestal

Pride comes before a fall

But what if the pedestal wasn’t built by me at all?

I’ve shown my face and my flaws

Let you see the demons behind the walls.

You pay no heed, attached to your dream

Of me, angelic and nothing in between.

Just love me as I am, i scream

let all of me and you be a team.

For if you ever see me as I am

You, my soul will damn.

Refusing to see what is plain as day

You place all your trust in what may.

Once you lower me from your tower

Refusal will come with swift power.

You are breaking my heart before it’s started

So I disappear before we’ve parted.

I do not relish the thought of us cleaved in two

But in the end, it isn’t me, it’s you.

[arilesser]

You were my sparkler love. Instant, burning, and gone.

[arilesser]

Maybe if you knew she would grow older

Missing you with every second

Bearing grief on her small shoulders

A prodigy, a force to be reckoned.

Maybe if you knew when he would grow

He could be mistaken for his father long gone.

Familial love can’t replace the love you showed

But it is all that is left for him to lean on.

Maybe if you knew he would change

Attempting to flee the memory of that day

Life without his constant was too strange

Color was drained and all was grey.

Maybe if you knew what your mothers all said

To the girl whose heart kept breaking

Love doesn’t translate when whispered from the dead

Maybe if you knew, we wouldn’t be left here aching.

Maybe if you knew.

[arilesser]

She is hungry

Not just for tangled sheets

And touches of sin

This deep night she starves

To feed her soul within

It’s always about the chase

About the hunt, the thrill

Skin bare, torn though lace

Thirsty, drinking their fill

In the moment she isn’t alone

But after the sparks will the dark return?

Unable to handle this chance blown,

Will her flame be doused or brightly burn?

[arilesser]

The Learning Curve

I didn’t mean to cry

I didn’t mean to “pout”

Waves, uncontrollable

Discovered a way out.

Attempted to rebuild the dam.

New leaks threatening to form

With every hit of your hand,

A catalyst for the next storm.

Now let’s drown in drink

Fade in the smoke

Soak in the inability to think

Numb yourself before you dare emote.

Too callous and cold

Nothing behind this empty gaze

The spark of life was stole

Wishing for poison at the end of the maze.

The higher the wall, the longer the fall

Decades old in the making

Light within reach if I answer the call

On the edge, ready but shaking

Your pleads fall on deaf ears.

Haven’t you learned there’s no crying here?

[arilesser]

Stuck on a pendulum,

Swinging between light and dark,

Tiring of the adrenaline,

Dimmed to a simple spark.

Steady me and light me on fire,

Envelop me in an orbit of our own making,

Soaring higher and higher,

Only exsisting before, now finally awaking.

Let our shadows slow dance,

In harmony, steps ablaze,

Entertain my plea,

We could be alive all our days.

[arilesser]

Sea Of Loss

Throat clenching, can’t breathe

Too many stones on top of me

As the roaring tsunami comes

Treacherous grief coming undone

Brace for the inevitable, swallow down flames

That steal my air as I choke on your names

My soul being ripped apart without warning

Remembering the bitter taste of mourning

There is no prelude, no way of escape

Surrender to the drowning, beneath the wave

Eventually I will be released from the pit

Spit out, devastated and split

Tears blurring my vision, the sea of loss retreats from me

Leaving me alone with nothing but our memories.

[arilesser]

Hey 😏 it’s good to be back

[arilesser]

Head Case

You use your dirty fingers

To stir up my head

Whispering sweet nothings

To slither into my bed

What could have been

Dreamy ghosts of ash

Almost like a past promise

A check too late to cash

You desire sweet surrender

Assuming I’ll submit.

I’m not the girl you used to know

A snake can still get bit.

It won’t be loud and crashing,

Quietly you’ll bleed

Keep your hands out of my head

Or you’ll be the one to plead

I could make every wish come true

Fulfill your every last desire

If you’re a man of your word

But I think you’re a liar.

A.L.

[arilesser]

Insatiable

Siren 

Drown men in desire

Lost in waves of lust 

Suffocate in sensations of pleasure

Succubus 

Seduce men in their hunger 

Feed them their darkest desires

To awaken, finding just a dream 

Medusa 

Charm and lure, a tempting promise on her lips 

Freeze them to stone, lust forever forsaken 

Weapon and a curse

Insatiable thirst unable to be quenched 

Sinking, phantoms, and statues 

Are all that’s left.  

[arilesser]

Ghost

Stab in the back

Punch in the dark

Know where you come from

Know who you are

Foe dressed as friend

Knife hidden in your hand

No longer stealthy

Won’t catch me again

No more power

Under the ban

Forked tongue silent

Gag shoved in

Though power depleted

Still in my head

Voice is haunting

Back from the dead

Need an exorcism

Tired of this duality

Banish endlessly

From my reality

[arilesser]

Still don’t.

[arilesser]

I miss summer 💔