Beauty is from within
Tony Stark x reader
Authors note: I’m up at 1:12 AM because I just had to write this. Feel free to Inbox me ideas!
Warning🚫: Body issues
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I stared at myself in the bathroom mirror, I don’t know why, but one little comment anybody makes brings me back to this. It all started when I was 16. It all started on a cloudy morning, a morning in which my mother was utterly mad at the fact that she had to wake me up, I had missed my alarm and she was already upset about something.
Weight. One of my mother’s biggest issues with me, and one of the biggest issues I carried. For as long as I can remember, my mother always talked shit to me because of it. I was born skinny and grew up skinny and I don’t know when I stopped. But my mother tried lots of things, she made sure I didn’t eat too much.
But that morning, she was bitching to me the most. She was clearly upset at me and I was afraid to drive to school with her but I had to be brave. So I got into the car, and most of it was silent, until she started screaming at me. I don’t remember what she was screaming to me for. I simply slept through my alarm. But she just started attacking me, and then my body. She said so many horrible things making me cry in the car, tears flowing down my cheeks but I didn’t let her see that I was about to burst. The school was in sight, YES FINALLY. I hopped out of the car walking fast, I had to get the nearest bathroom, the lady at the entrance looked at my puffy red eyes and pink nose and asked if I was okay. Of course I was lying but I said I was fine. Then I continued to cry my eyes out inside the bathroom, and that’s when the little voice began.
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I stood inside the bathroom staring at myself, tears running down my cheeks. ‘Look how fat you’ve gotten’ I ran my fingers over the stretch marks, red and small, yet having a powerful meaning. ‘You’re ugly and pathetic and look how ugly your body is’ The tears started coming down faster. I looked in the mirror and started hating myself more. ‘Tony doesn’t love you’ ‘He only says he does because he doesn’t want to hurt your fat ass’ ‘Bet pepper runs through his mind when he fucks you’ ‘Just end this belly will you’
I love crying silently, but this time I couldn’t help it. I ran outside the bathroom and onto our bed, I threw myself and cried harder. “Jarvis Lock the bedroom door please” “Alright, But are you okay Agent Y/N? Shall I tell Mr.Stark that you are crying?” “Please dont” I said, I rolled on my side and stared at the clock and soon I was engulfed by darkness.
When I woke up, I felt his arms around me. I smiled and turned around rapidly. “Hey sleepyhead” he whispered, I could see his concern and saw he wasn’t exactly dressed, he only had his boxers on. “Hi baby” I murmered, how long had I slept? “Y/N, mind telling me why you were crying?” I looked down, should I tell him? “I wasn’t crying” I could feel his stare burning through the top of my head. “ Jarvis was kind enough to let me know that you were up here crying and I dropped everything and came as fast as I could, but you were asleep. Honey, what’s the matter?” And that’s when I broke, his deep husky and raspy voice did it again.
“Tony, I-I just can’t. I cant live anymore, I don’t want too. My body isn’t perfect and I know I’m not either, I’ve been battling with this for as long as I can remember and my mental health isn’t good anymore, I hate my body Tony, I hate everything about it, the way my stretch marks hug me as if there’s no tomorrow and these 6 red ones on my belly haunt me. How you love me is a question that still wonders through my head. I’m not enough for anyone and I’m not beautiful enough for you or for me. You deserve better baby you do” I looked up and much to my surprise Tony had a few tear stains on his cheek.
“Have you ever heard the phrase ‘Beauty comes from within’?” I nodded. “Well, Y/N the reason I love you is because of who you are, you’re this funny, talented, young spirited, beautiful, friendly, social, admirable person. Your personality is what attracted me to you in the first place, besides how fucking hot you are may I add, but I’ve never met anyone who still cries when they see an ASPCA commercial, or when an animal dies in a movie. You are so much for animals and the people around you. For example, When Parker twisted his ankle because did something dumb, you took care of him, you fed him, you angled his ankle, bandaged it every few hours after applying whatever Vaporub you found and constantly asked him how he was feeling. Or when I got sick and you chose giving up a whole week worth of vacation with your family to stay and tend to my needs. You’re unique and you’re something special. You make my laugh all the time, and you make me smile on the hardest of days but most of all, I love your big heart and big smile. You’d do anything to cheer anyone of us up and that’s why I love you. And as to your body issues, baby, you’re gorgeous as hell, I mean cmon, you’re sexy with or without makeup, your body is perfect in my eyes, and you and me, we’re going to start working on making you realize how important, sexy and beautiful you are baby mama”
I have to admit, he really knows how to sweet talk his way into sex. “I love you Tony Stark” “And I love you too Y/N L/N” He said as he placed a kiss on my nose, and then my forehead, trailing down to my lips, and onto my neck. “Don’t ever forget that” He started trailing down to my chest, “You’re beautiful inside and out”.