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woah... this blog feels like a relic or something.
my name is toya (he/him pronouns please)... and i made this blog when i was a kid. i don't really remember how old i was, only that i was very, very young. my... senpai, suggested that i make a blog. when your family are strict, controlling assholes, sometimes you have no places to discuss it other than at your pianist teacher's typing into her computer on some secret social media account you were dumbly suggested to make! lmfao!! though i guess i'm being a bit unfair to tsukasa-senpai, seeing as this blog did help a lot, i'll admit. i figured out that i was on the aromantic spectrum, it helped me... digest that how my family was treating me was wrong — alongside akito, of course. though, i would never have listened to a single word akito was saying if scrolling through tumblr didn't open me up to the idea in the first place.
i never made or reblogged any posts here — i really just. lurked. if i'm being honest, i was scared that my dad was going to find me regardless of what i did; or my brothers at the very least.
i'm... less scared of that now. so i'm going to start using this blog i think? it really doesn't have a lot on it, just a. erm. poorly chosen url and header image... though i am a bit tempted to leave it as is — preserve some history.
though, i do have drafts. a lot of them. i don't have the time to go through them all at once — i have a vivid bad squad practice session up soon. i've read the most recent one, though, and it is a little concerning. i. don't remember what it is referring to.
i don't know what i realized that caused me to decide that i'd rather die than let akito know, but whatever it is, it was serious enough to cause me to abandon this account. At least, until now.
yeah.... so this will be interesting.
