It's almost time.
In just a short 48 hours I'll be boarding a plane to Sydney. An exciting, new chapter of my life will open and to be frank, I'm a little bit scared. Last time around I knew exactly where I was heading and how long I would be gone. However, this time around I don't know where I'll end up, how long I will stay there and if I will even come back home. I've always tried to plan the future, but life doesn't work that way. You plan a certain life and then midway life gives you a bitch slap and sends you in a totally different direction. This doesn't necessarily mean a bad direction, it might be the best thing to ever happen. This is something I've learned in the last year and it made me stop planning the future. I just have to see where I end up.
The next year or so is all about finding myself. I tried to do that backpacking around the world and I did find a lot of new parts of myself I didn't think I would have (for better or for worse). However it also made me really uncertain about what I wanna do with the rest of my life.. I really don't know, did I finish the right study for me? Should I continue trying to get into the media world or should I do something totally different? I should really try to build some sort of career, but do I really want to do that and in what profession?
With only 48 hours to go, I'm getting quite nervous. Almost a year ago to date I was also on my way to Australia. Even though I loved the country, some stuff happened that made that part of my trip not really great.. And, to be honest, I am a little bit scared to completely start over again, meeting new people, trying to get a job, trying to settle down somewhere for a while. In the end I think it will be good for me, something completely new and time to figure out what to do with my life. And that is just what I have to do. I don't know when I will be back, maybe in 6 months, a year, two years or maybe never. Who knows? I just got to clear my head and go for it. Australia, I'm coming for you!