The courage of being alive.
That sadness that makes you believe that nobody will ever understand you
That makes you believe that nobody cares
That nobody is gonna ever see how much you suffer it doesn't matter how hard you try to show it and tell it
Most of the people don't understand depression
Our kind of sadness has a name
A name for something it shouldn't exists and that nobody really understands
Depression is not something logical
You can't search for logical reasons
Most of them are psychological deep deep in the smallest holes of our mind
That's how you feel, I know you do
The pain to have to wake up another day
To have to walk and talk and do things people normally do
Even looking at something becomes something you can't do it anymore
And a life like that is just not life anymore
And that's when you think of it
When life stops being something necessary
That's when you think of it
And you talk about death like it's so simple to reach it
And you imagine it every day
And you spend hours and hours thinking about how free it should feel
But the truth is that to die and go away takes courage
A courage that we all wish we will never have
A courage I believe so many people wish they never had
This kind of sadness is a deep deep abyss
And there's no bottom under it
Because when you reach it it suddenly disappears like anything else
Because when you reach it you're dead
Although there are little holes in this abyss trough which passes light
That's where you have to put your hands
And every day someone shows you affection, love, empathy
Every day someone shows you that he sees your pain and he cares
Your hand reach that hole
Every day you see the ones you love smile just for the joy of seeing you at home alive
And your hand can reach it again
One day you will come out of that abyss
And you'll be thankful to have been down there for all this time instead of another place
Because life is not irreversible
There's no place in life in which you can't come back if you feel that your life has stopped there to restart again
But from a grave, there's no coming back
And even yesterday is not yours anymore
"Live your life" must seem such a silly thing for you
But it's a truth in its way
There's no point in going to a place you're already destined to go
And regretting every single day, if we really have an immortal soul,
The moment you gave up on life being too hard to live.
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