Nicky

Starting fires daily

[mrcarriertheii]

The beast looks in horror as it sees the weight of its sins

[arsonick14]

Biological Disaster

Fake smile for the speed camera

Only one around to snap my pics

Well the government can eat a bag of dicks

Lackeys of the bourgeoisie

What a day, just my luck

Doesnt life just suck?

All our parents fucked and now we're stuck

I think sex is gross but my body still wants it, or at least it used to

I'm nothing but a biological disaster

cant life just be over faster?

Wanted to get my nails done - treat myself like a princess

No one else does cause I'm such a mess

I've got a few bucks and unresolved trauma to my name

Losing it and I'm tired of this game

What a day, just my luck

Doesnt life just suck?

All our parents fucked and now we're stuck

I think sex is gross but my body still wants it, or at least it used to

I'm nothing but a biological disaster

cant life just be over faster?

I'm so over it, ready to dissipate

Mute my incoming messages and isolate

I want a partner but I'm scared to date

I dont even have much to offer

I'm just a biological disaster

Burnt out, wannna burn it down

I'm no princess I dont have a crown

The bridges are burning, try to cross and you'll drown

Cant save me, I'm a biological clown

I'm nothing but a biological disaster

cant life just be over faster?

What a day, just my luck

Doesnt life just suck?

All our parents fucked and now we're stuck

I think sex is gross but my body still wants it, or at least it used to

I'm nothing but a biological disaster

cant life just be over faster?

[arsonick14]

Burdens

Why would I put my burdens on you when I can wear them all on my own shoulders?

Why should I feel the need to open up when I can keep it all for myself?

How could I ask for help when it's rarely been given?

I dont even know what help to ask for.

I don't know what my feelings are to be able to talk about them.

I dont want you to have my burdens, and I dont want you to have any of your own.

I let go of my own rage, so give me yours.

I'll take your vengeance in place of mine

I'll burn away the problems until its all fine

Do I have more to give, or have I given it all?

Am I still needed, or have I done what's necessary?

Are there any problems left, or have I found the solutions?

There's always more problems, maybe too many.

A necessary evil can cleanse the world, to make it better.

When I've given up, that'll be all there is to give.

[arsonick14]

Burdens

Why would I put my burdens on you when I can wear them all on my own shoulders?

Why should I feel the need to open up when I can keep it all for myself?

How could I ask for help when it's rarely been given?

I dont even know what help to ask for.

I don't know what my feelings are to be able to talk about them.

I dont want you to have my burdens, and I dont want you to have any of your own.

I let go of my own rage, so give me yours.

I'll take your vengeance in place of mine

I'll burn away the problems until its all fine

Do I have more to give, or have I given it all?

Am I still needed, or have I done what's necessary?

Are there any problems left, or have I found the solutions?

There's always more problems, maybe too many.

A necessary evil can cleanse the world, to make it better.

When I've given up, that'll be all there is to give.

[arsonick14]

Burdens

Why would I put my burdens on you when I can wear them all on my own shoulders?

Why should I feel the need to open up when I can keep it all for myself?

How could I ask for help when it's rarely been given?

I dont even know what help to ask for.

I don't know what my feelings are to be able to talk about them.

I dont want you to have my burdens, and I dont want you to have any of your own.

I let go of my own rage, so give me yours.

I'll take your vengeance in place of mine

I'll burn away the problems until its all fine

Do I have more to give, or have I given it all?

Am I still needed, or have I done what's necessary?

Are there any problems left, or have I found the solutions?

There's always more problems, maybe too many.

A necessary evil can cleanse the world, to make it better.

When I've given up, that'll be all there is to give.

[arsonick14]

One Big Game

I cant remember a time where I wanted to grow old

Its always been constant nightmares and fool's gold

My whole life, everyone told me, "you're so smart"

But brains cant change the direction of a broken heart

Trampled by the Neverending horrors

Compassion does no good when you're a coward

I learnt how to slow myself down, looked around and only saw everyone's pain

So I sped back up again, Changed to a new lane

My whole life, everyone said, "You've got so much to live for"

But how can I believe them when all I see is their hurt?

There's no-one I hate more than a liar

But when I'm talking to myself, it's my pants on fire

Its hard to stay positive when everything looks bleak

I'm trying to keep going, but I feel so weak

My whole life, I've always asked "does any of it really matter?

Will they remember me or forget me?" I'm sure, it's the latter.

If I live or disappear, its all about the same

Life goes on to spite us, just one big game

[arsonick14]

Locked In

That bright, bright blue is fading to gray

The storm clouds are on their way

I'm feeling trapped as a caged blue jay

And I've not eaten any-thing today

This grey sky is slowly turning to black

The darkness closes in on me, no going back

I tried to get out, but the doors are all locked

The options are bleak, the way forward is blocked

Looking out my only window, last speck of blue is in the past

I made the wrong choices, turned into an outcast

Abandoned by the light, I've Lost all hope

But at least there's a choice, I'm left with a gun and a rope

[arsonick14]

Miscommunications

A thousand letters full of words I'm too cowardly to say

Hundreds of rehearsed conversations that you'll never hear

Dozens of unspoken confessions, secrets won't see the light of day

A few potential phrases in response and I'm living in fear

Excelling in Missed communications

Blurry meanings, confused motivations

And the uncertain Ramifications

Anxious of the possible implications

The lacking justifications

A thousand tears fall as they cloud my vision

Hundreds of moments constantly replaying in my head

Dozens of thoughts telling me I'm worthless echo in repetition

A handful of emotions I struggle to express are keeping me in bed

Excelling in Missed communications

Blurry meanings, confused motivations

And the uncertain Ramifications

Anxious of the possible implications

The lacking justifications

[arsonick14]

Hair is blowing everywhere in the wind

Today I dont mind, it gives me a screen to cry behind

What do you do when every kind word is a dagger?

Straight into my chest, piercing my heart until I stagger

[arsonick14]

Do you really want to know what I'm feeling?

Cause I don't want to worry you when these dark thoughts have me reeling

This hurt has me needy and melodramatic

As i go through each day on automatic

Barely awake, Every step is a struggle that I don't want to make

I've gotta eat, but with the effort of chewing I'm longing for defeat

Fading smiles as the seconds become days and inches become miles

Bending, breaking, cracking under the pressure, The unbearable weight of the responsibilities

Pushing through but I can't say I'm making the best of my abilities

My best is getting farther and farther away

So please don't ask how I am doing today

[arsonick14]

Another Vivid Dream

Somewhere far beyond my eyes

Exists the land of dreams and lies

Vividly I see a mix of truths and how I wish it could be

The two are intertwined, with little separation

What was fact and what is fiction?

A date with a pretty girl whose partner suffers from addiction

Dredged up memories of my Ma, track marks on her arm

Offering selfishness and neglect until she bought the farm

That she couldn't afford,  and so brought it into a townhome

Shirking the responsibility of it all, Leaving us to grow up on our own

Now I walk these streets alone, as a vigilante I will roam

Unable to stop the suffering of others, every win feels like a failure

[letsmakepoppunkgreatagain]

Bring Me The Horizon - Top 10 staTues tHat CriEd bloOd

[arsonick14]

The new album is great.

[letsmakepoppunkgreatagain]

PVRIS - Dead Weight

[inkenstabell]

Companions

Etching on zinc 40 x 50 cm

Available in my store

[arsonick14]

When all the songs sound the same

And you cant remember their name

You know, I cant carry the tune

But you've got me over the moon

The lyrics slip my mind

But we're two of a kind

So I'll make up the words

You can put it to a few chords

Let's put our whole hearts into it

We'll have a blast, open up the pit

Who gives a damn about how we sound

We're gonna live it up til we're in the ground

If the music all sounds the same

We'll make our own and change the game

Doesnt matter if its midnight or noon

Being with you has me over the moon

Music's the love we share

We're two halves of a pair

So lets go and dance and sing,

Maybe you can give me a ring

[arsonick14]

Pacing

This city isnt big enough for me to pace in

I'm hyper aware but its of all the wrong things

I could walk the whole way from Richmond to Baltimore

I've got an empty stomach full of anxiety leaving me unsure

Music and the thoughts in my head are my only companions

As I try to fill the space in these empty canyons

I just walked from Baltimore to Philly

The burden of mental health is frickin silly

I'm running on coffee and 2 hours of sleep

Doing by best to live this life on the cheap

Now I've traversed from Philly to New York

I'm out of money and feeling like a jerk

And you're prolly right, I need to slow down

But I dont want to so I hop from town to town

I'm still not satisfied so I went from New York to Chicago

Not sure when, but I stopped caring long ago

And I know I'm the common denominator

I decided to just solve my problems later

I've left Chicago I'm on my way to LA

I still haven't found anywhere I feel okay

[arsonick14]

Assume the Worst

Assume the worst if I don't tell you "I'm home safe"

You never know when its gonna be our last embrace

But I lived my life for today, so don't be too upset

Just work hard for your happiness, I want to see you at your best

I never wanted anyone's worry or care

Far too likely I'll go out on a whim or dare

Always on the verge of breaking my neck

A charging bull, I'm reckless, I'm a wreck

Consequences be damned, chasing the red flag

Treating everything like its a game, a silly gag

And maybe it'd be better to be on my own

The stakes are lower when I'm alone

There's No one to hurt when I leave

And No one left in pain to grieve

When they find out I'm no longer alive

That I didnt make it home on the drive

Yeah there's a comfort in being unloved, and If only that was the case!

Instead, I'm the rain that started the river streaming down on your face.

A lot of pain and suffering, softened only by the occasional wisecrack

So Assume the worst when you dont hear back