“…But when we grew up, there are so many things for me to know, to see, to read. Endless. Especially when we are in the time that information surrounds us like today. Sometimes, I wonder if that we need to know all of them?
Or media reach us too easy
This huge world seems to be too full of things to follow, so many things to be interested
Twenty-four hours seems to be so few for all those stuff.
And not enough to be left for the things we love
The more we grow up, we seem to have so many things to get to know them
At the same time, we have lesser time for what we love. Until sometimes we curious that what we actually love
Know more, but love lesser
Know so many things, but only a few that we actually know
And know something until we fall for is much lesser…”
…RoundFinger (KhwamSukDoySangGade)
I have read this book years ago when my life faced tons of problem. I was encouraged by this book. But when I felt better, I dropped it down and goes back to live my life again although I haven’t finished the book. It isn’t interesting for me anymore after I felt better. Then, the world of technology and social media ran around me again. Just like other people, I felt safe and stick to what’s going on in social media again.
Soon after, tons of problem hit me again and reminded me of this book. I couldn’t remember when the last time I read the book was, not even know where it was. Luckily, I found it in a corner of a drawer of my bed. I decided to continue reading it from where I had stopped last time. Then I found that part of the book above. I cannot continue reading the book but repeatedly read that paragraph over and over again. I couldn’t stop thinking about what the book trying to tell me.
Sometimes when you know more, you just hurt more. I decide to drop my social media down instead of this book. I delete all my Facebook account, Snapchat, Instagram, and also Twitter. Only Line left in order to keep contact with important stuff like my family or university. Actually, the book is not the reason why I did this, but just a little part of my decision. Then, that’s a big change. I use to be a person who knows everything and is on every trend. But at that time, without social media, I rarely know what’s going on out there. I felt so insecure that I know nothing so I read news on website and newspaper. I just found that it took quite a long time for getting to know something. The newspaper will not just put two sentences of the news summarize for you. I even read the editorial or critics of stuff. It took so long for understanding a topic. But you know what, things was so clear, it makes me think of what can happen next, or who gonna be affected by a story which when I read stuff on social media, I just receive two sentences headlines and that’s all. The long stories are always the celebrities’ dramas. I even forget that how much I was interested in economics news when I was younger. You know, no teenagers gonna retweet or share economic stuff. Feel lonely sometimes because everyone was on their smartphone, but that’s OK. I’ve learned something.
But now, I realize. Nobody can get out of this maze. Everyone expect you to be on social media, to keep contact on Facebook, to show nice pictures from your latest trip on Instagram, and to send your work via Line.
I unwillingly came back to the same old world with intangible stuff, intangible people. We wake up with smartphone rings, then check our Newsfeed on Facebook, then Line, and follow with Instagram. And if we have time we check our Twitter, Tumblr, and Snapchat too. Then, just copy and paste those routine for before going to bed routine.
Sometimes I feel like, I talk to people via social media just like normal, but when I actually meet the person, just feel so awkward and nothing to talk.
However, at least, my decision of deleting all social media account have taught me so many things. I appreciate the value of an actual thing, an actual person, as well as time, that we lose by spending on social media expecting to enjoy them. I have never feel sorry that all those FB messages and pictures were gone because the account was deleted. What I get in return is much more precious than them. I have plenty of time for what I forgot that I love. Now I play piano again, I read books after very long time that I only read books for studying for the exam. I am reminded of who was my favorite writers when I was young. I am reminded of when I was bursting into tears when a member left my favorite band. Although ,right now, I have re-registered new account of those social media, at least I have learned something. I know how precious my family and my friends are. I feel thank you for myself in that day that I have this decision.
Didn’t mean that media is bad, but the way we use is wrong. It is hard to live with social media in today society, but at least we need to know where the limit is. You don’t need to be jealous of anyone’s post on Facebook. If you ex post pictures of his new, just ignore them and happy for them. Live in reality that you create more than the world that other create for you.
It was hard for me too when I first have my social media deleted, but if I can pass it, you will too. And remember what you will get in return is much more precious than what you lose so just be brave. You don’t need to be like anyone else.
I have been thinking for days what I should write for my last blog for this semester and comes up with nothing. But then, deciding to share my story. All experience are such a precious asset ones can ever own. Hope that my article today remind you of something that you almost forget.











