Art by Esjik

Unironically on a journey

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Day ?: I haven't really kept up with drawing every single day because I've been a little busy with school exams and other obligations and commitments, but I have been drawing at night for a couple of hours before I go to bed, and I felt inspired to make a new profile picture for my Anilist account and in honor of my favorite current anime from this season (My Dress-Up Darling), I drew the one and only Marin Kitagawa! I have a lot to improve on as it is my first real digital painting, buttt I'm pretty proud of all that I've learned along the way. I've definitely gotten more comfortable with using layers and various kinds of brushes. It has been a very enjoyable learning experience! :)

Other than that, I've been pretty happy with my life lately, and I feel like things are starting to work out a bit. There are a couple of hurdles and stressors here and there but nothing that I can't handle! Hopefully, I stay like this for a while....

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Day 6: So of course I am super behind.... I think I owe a Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday drawing, buttt I actually drew this earlier in the week and she was kind of a work in progress throughout the week as I got a lot busier. 

Firstly, I’m really proud of myself for doing super well on my cell biology exam. I feel like now that I have more of a mastery mindset rather than a performance mindset where I felt like I had to prove myself to my friends, I am more able to feel like myself and study more regularly and actually kind of enjoy doing it. :)

I’m proud of how far I have come, and I’m excited for the next day and the next. I just really want to share these feelings with those around me who are struggling, and I hope they heal soon. So for the sake of those ladies in the world, I dedicate this drawing to them. And I also dedicate this drawing to the Asian American community who has sadly been the target of many more frequent hate crimes. Although, hate crimes that are not reported on the news should not be forgotten... meaning that the actual number of hate crimes is actually much greater than we think, yet the model minority myth and the perpetual foreigner status of Asian Americans makes us so invisibly vulnerable. I’m saddened by this. :(

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Day 5: Another line art and squeezing this drawing in real quick before I finish up some schoolwork and go to bed. A little sexy sort of pikachu looking person perfect as a prequel for Valentines. 

I’ve been procrastinating too much lately and been so concerned about money. I’m just going to go with the flow and try to take small steps one at a time. Tackle one thing at a time. I might feel overwhelmed at times, but just break problems down one by one.

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Day 4: I am behind one sketch, so I will be posting another one hopefully soon. I’m practicing figures and I want to experiment more with backgrounds and inanimate objects. 

On an unrelated note, I have a cell biology exam tomorrow, and I feel pretty good about it. I feel like now that I studying more for myself and have a mastery mindset rather than performance mindset, I am starting to feel better about myself and gaining more academic self confidence. Still have a lot to do for school tomorrow, so I’m not sure if my Day 5 will even be able to go up soon, but I hope to draw it soon.

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Day 3: Progressively exploring new things and trying out different perspectives and brushes. It’s actually pretty funnn. I definitely need to work on backgrounds so I will work on that, and then also do some more studying on drawing clothes cuz I hella winged it.

Anywhooo, I’m really happy today because I got into the program that was my first choice! It was also the only program that I applied to, so it was really all or nothing, and I’m really proud! :)

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A late night post, but I’m pretty happy with how it turned out. Basic bitch outfit but make her a comfy baddie LOL. A day full of up and downs, and I’m honestly over college right now. I hope I get into the program I applied to....

Anywho, Day 2 of drawing, and I did some figure studying. I want to hopefully expand my repertoire and further hone in on my art style, but I’m sure I’ll discover my place eventually. 

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So I’m trying to get back into drawing because I’ve been feeling a little lonely and bummed about personal things, and I just want to remember how it feels to mindlessly let my creative mind run wild. Cheers to Day 1 and hopefully, I get the hang of drawing again and maybe I’ll improve.... I’ll try to commit to drawing at least one small thing a day. Even if it only takes 30 seconds. :)