astra

too silent to scream, loud enough to write ☮ POETIC💠

[artemastra]

A question popped in my mind.

What are we doing with ourselves?

-astra

[artemastra]

Damn your still on tumblr, Nice!

I like the silence here, different souls pouring out sentimentals without the unnecessary clamoring of what the world may think.

[highonoverthinking]

[half-a-heart]

You never said goodbye, but you stopped showing up, and somehow, that hurt worse.

[terrorignitis]

Juansen Dizon, i am the architect of my own destruction

[artemastra]

It's already raining hard. I guess the heavens' felt sympathy and wanted to hide my tears.

[paper-wounds]

[artemastra]

In this loneliness. I wanted to scream. I needed to shout. But nothing will fix me better than being in your arms. Wrapped for embrace even suffocating is tolerable.

[artemastra]

I can always tell, that I love physical touch. The hands holding, the fingers' crossing, arms brushing, hugs and kisses. More passionately, it all boil downs to sex. I always thought that being inlove with someone is always giving a piece of yourself.

Something that you can always offer, but the deep connection you seek, is also the one reason that can destroy you.

What if that is all that I am. What if that is the only thing that I can offer? Nothing else, but my body! - astra

[artemastra]

I always wonder if there is a fraction of something in between reality and fantasy. Where all desires are seeked and unrestricted. - astra

[salparadisewasmyfather]

“You can tell a lot about a person by the way they leave.”

— Nils Brandstädter | (Journals - How it ripped out my heart)

[artemastra]

02/16

On this day, I come to realize my value as a person. Maybe. I am just someone that can be disregarded if no longer needed. Maybe. Is it the reason why I try so hard to stay in control most of the situations around me? Maybe. That's my only purpose?

I don't know, today I realize that I was a nuisance. A disturbance to someone's daily life. Or maybe I had become so dependent on that person that I can no longer see what I do without them.

Maybe, someone can enlighten me. Someone help me. I don't want to stay in the dark for too long. Save me from drowning.

[artemastra]

Funny how fast the tide has change.

Our lives drifted away far beyond each other's shore.

Never setting foot on the island we once promise to stay.

I hope you live well.

With the dreams that you turn to reality.

Without me. Without us.

[artemastra]

How to diminished the feelings of regret? Knowing that it should have been me. The life that he started should be with me.

The pain of knowing that regret.

[artemastra]

Let it consume you.

Eyes never lie.

[thoughtkick]

“I don’t think there’s anything sadder than when two people are meant to be together and something intervenes.”

— Walter Bishop

[a-j-s-the-only]

she said even if you had all the proof, you still wouldn’t believe me

because you don’t want to