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[arthoex]

[gacougnol]

David Dubnitskiy

[organic-vintage]

dainty

[prettyred88-deactivated20130222]

[dridelus]

[thequietboudoir]

Sois ma Vénus...

[pisces-core]

[arthoex]

[sonimage1965]

Jane Fonda

doing yoga with her cat,

1962

[pisces-core]

[cheshmenoor]

[arthoex]

Rope

I want my mummy

but the rope between us

snapped long ago.

I want my daddy

but he’s stretched too thin

holding both ends.

I want to be held

and understood

by someone who loves me.

But they can’t handle the rope burn.

I push people

until the rope frays

in their hands.

Rooms fall silent

when I start.

So I learn 

to tighten quietly.

Everything unsettles me

and nothing stays long enough

to hold.

Why did I come to be?

Why didn’t I die

when my mother told me to?

I wish she’d let the rope

hold

a little longer.

Then I would never have learned

that she had already

given up on me.

The candle she held for me

had already blown out.

Smoke curling slowly

into a room

that forgot I was there.

The rope never frays

when it’s around

your own 

neck.

[petalaftermidnight]

Brigitte Bardot 1964 🤎

[xcassiopeiaa-deactivated2025090]

[titologist]

if i don’t get to tie up a girl’s hands in this lifetime i would die unfulfilled

[j66e]

[thequietboudoir]

[theothersideoftumbrl]