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paalam at pahiram...

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to (my dear) andrew.

It’s been almost a year since I (we) fucked up. It’s been a year since I was blinded by something for me to drift away..

The first few months became hard for you. But I was there, I gave you something that I can give; my comfort and my words. Looking back from where we are, I always thought that we are destined for each other. We met in a day and met each other again after a long time. Maybe it is a destiny. I didn’t know that it wasn’t suppose to be a destiny of love but a destiny of knowledge.

I always search for something that wasn’t in you but never noticed those things you had and I am sorry. We already had closure, right? It was my “best things come to those who wait”; to forgive me. I am so stupid for breaking your heart in that way. It was an immature decision, I know. My reason will never be righteous.

Pahiram.. When everything was hard for you, I know you endured the pain and all I can do was let you borrow my time I have for another man. Three-month rule I never followed. I remember that one time you called me and begging for me to come back. It’s like a knife that stabbing my heart back and forth but there’s no blood coming out. There were many things that has been broken but neither of us thought of the good times. Oh, ‘til now those make me smile, always. Such a feeling when I still remember you greeted me on my birthday through Skype and those times you gave me foods with notes. I could not ask for more. And those blissful night life with you. Those were the memories I ever dreamed of :) You were (past tense, okay? haha)

Paalam.. And then few months before we mark a year, there’s this another girl making you happy. I was suppose to be jealous, egoistic, and bitchy. But I am not (trust me on this! haha). I have so many wrong-doings in our relationship then. I was nonchalant, impulsive, psycho, controlling, clingy and everything you never dreamed of. I always spam you with texts, I always hated you when you’re late, I always hated you when you utter wrong grammar, I always hated you when you’re with your friends. You’ve had enough of me, andrew. I know :) And maybe this time, the right girl, who’s worth waiting for will out win everything I did. I ain’t confident but we both know that I am not perfect and I am not anywhere near it. You deserve someone I am not. As I’ve told you before, you shine brighter like anyone. And I am not the light that suppose to reflect you. I am dull. I had hopes and dreams with you but I never supported you because I was too controlling. No one will be ever as controlling as me. Maybe she’s a girl that will allow you to band practices or hangouts without sarcasm at all. I wasn’t the one for you from the very start.

We both fucked up in many ways… But maybe these “fuck ups” are the lessons we need for us to grow in a person who’s mature and well-rounded and to prepare us for a relationship that will truly last.

I am happy that you are happy. Good memories and old people will be there, but eventually those memories will turn into ashes and will be scattered together with the love we thought we needed.

Always remember, you will always be my Polaris. :)

New year, new hope.

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I am so empty inside that I can’t put any title on it. I am just empty.

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Uh hey, the creep that I am, stumbled things that I shouldn't have. I know that this seems awkward and what not, I dunno. Uh, whatever, well, what I'm trying to say is that things will get better. I know that I'm not even your friend, and this is weird. I know that you acquired deep cuts, and it hurts like f. just bleed it all out. then maybe it will go away. but not go away like gone forevs. little cuts will remain, and it will sting from time to time and it will sting for hundreds of reason...

It's okay ate cy. You make it a little bit better. I had cuts and it became scar now someone is kissing those scars accepting what I've been through. But at times, I cannot get him off my mind. I have so many reasons to hate him, but to love him as well. I got fed up with empty promises but he isn't man enough to accept his mistakes in the relationship. I'm better off now. But of course, that was magical when it lasted. I dunno what's coming ahead of me but i know, i'm strong enough to let things go.

it will sting for hundreds of reason, but you'll heal, the frayed person that you are now, will be fine. I dunno what im blabbing anymore, haha, i could go on spouting unnecessary things forevs pero tama na, ang creppy na ata talaga. haha. pardon me. p.s i think you're a pretty cool person. p.p.s dont mind me p.p.p.s. the real question is, kamusta wilabaliw? damn, i've been dying to see those guys.

Yeah. The person i'm with now, he's cool :) i hate it when people judge me for what happened. I'd love to tell you everything huhu it's okay we can be friends *hugs* i only have feeeeew few as in few friends that I can talk to about my problems and vice versa so it's a comfort that you asked :3 wilabaliw is fucking great. Seeing ian flip right before your very goddamn eyes is sooo priceless :)

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Dropped by because Ayala Museum was so damn crowded. #gestalt2015

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One Hundred Ways to Say ‘I Love You’

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“Pull over. Let me drive for awhile.”

“It reminded me of you.”

“No, no, it’s my treat.”

“Come here. Let me fix it.”

“I’ll walk you home.”

“Have a good day at work.”

“I dreamt about you last night.”

“Take my seat.”

“I saved a piece for you.”

“I’m sorry for your loss.”

“You can have half.”

“Take my jacket, it’s cold outside.”

“Sorry I’m late.”

“Can I have this dance?”

“I made your favourite.”

“It’s okay. I couldn’t sleep anyway.”

“Watch your step.”

“Here, drink this. You’ll feel better.”

“Can I hold your hand?”

“You can borrow mine.”

“You might like this.”

“It’s not heavy. I’m stronger than I look.”

“I’ll wait.”

“Just because.”

“Look both ways.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to.”

“Try some.”

“Drive safely.”

“Well, what do you want to do?”

“One more chapter.”

“Don’t worry about me.”

“It looks good on you.”

“Close your eyes and hold out your hands.”

“That’s okay, I bought two.”

“After you.”

“We’ll figure it out.”

“Can I kiss you?”

“I like your laugh.”

“Don’t cry.”

“I made this for you.”

“Go back to sleep.”

“Is this okay?”

“I picked these for you.”

“I’ll drive you to the hospital.”

“What do you want to watch?”

“You can go first.”

“Did you get my letter?”

“I’ll do it for you.”

“Call me when you get home.”

“I think you’re beautiful.”

“Are you sure?”

“Have fun.”

“Sit down, I’ll get it.”

“I made reservations.”

“I don’t mind.”

“It brings out your eyes.”

“There is enough room for both of us.”

“You don’t have to say anything.”

“Wow.”

“Happy birthday.”

“I’ll pick it up after work.”

“It can wait until tomorrow.”

“Cross my heart and hope to die.”

“It’s two sugars, right?”

“I’ll help you study.”

“Stay over.”

“I did the dishes.”

“You didn’t have to ask.”

“I bought you a ticket.”

“You’re warm.”

“No reason.”

“I’ll meet you halfway.”

“Take mine.”

“We can share.”

“I was just thinking about you.”

“I want you to have this.”

“Call me if you need anything.”

“Do you want to come too?”

“I’ll still be here when you’re ready.”

“Is your seatbelt on?”

“Sweet dreams.”

“I was in the neighbourhood.”

“Stay there. I’m coming to get you.”

“The key is under the mat.”

“It doesn’t bother me.”

“You’re important too.”

“I saved you a seat.”

“I’ll see you later.”

“I noticed.”

“You can tell me anything.”

“I hope you like it.”

“I want you to be happy.”

“I believe in you.”

“You can do it.”

“Good luck.”

“I brought you an umbrella.”

“I’ll pick you up at the airport.”

“Take a deep breath.”

“Be careful.”

And…

“I love you.”

Thank you for today, love 😍😘💑

http://www.cosmo.ph/sex-relationships/dating-tips/to-my-almost-boyfriend I had saved and read so many articles like this. Whenever I stumble upon such, I can't help but re-think everything that happened. Every article just hits exactly right there so it makes me look back. I overthink this matter since then but yes, people need to move on. But how can you move on from the things that made you alive in the first place? Maybe you just don't want it back. Maybe it was just a force to help you go on with your life. A force that is a pleasurable pain. A deep satisfying emotion but stabbing you at the same time; that made you immune from being hurt through the years. But this is something that you should keep in the deepest part of your most essential cardiac muscle, not burn it like a paper and be turned to ash. It is a guilty pleasure that you may carry as long as you breathe. #SabawThoughts #CreativeWritingInTheMiddleOfPrelimsWeek

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Gusto ko lang ipagsigawan sa buong mundo na "ANG LAKI LAKI NG BILBIL MO HAHAHAHAHA" Hays magkaiba na tayo ng school 😢 Pero okay lang. Magkikita pa naman tayo ng TThS. Saucy tayo sa Tuesday ha? ❤️

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