Yknow. I'm just gonna be straight up and say that i feel like my depression is making quite the comeback. Things just. Don't feel the same they used to and everyday is getting harder and harder to force myself to function like a normal human being. I haven't even really felt the same energy i felt for most things. Hell, even being horny has become almost a chore lately.
2020 was the worst year for my mental health and i was inches away from attempting suicide at the time (something i only really considered back when i was 11) and. Idk. I just see some patterns from that time coming back. For example, my insomnia is kicking my ass right now (i'll try and force myself to sleep soon dw).
I'd ask my family if i could see a therapist again but- i stopped seeing the one i was frequenting because of financial issues and. Ngl we're still struggling with money; so therapy is out of the picture atm.
I don't know. Things are changing fast but i still feel stagnant. I want to move forward with my life so bad but i just feel rooted to the ground. I promise to keep trying though. One step at a time right?
