i. do you not know that this is what i long for, more than anything? i have slept in a tangle of blankets on the living room floor for at least a decade now, i can live anywhere. but that's not what i'm wanting amymore.
ii. i do not have any forgiveness for you, not here, not in me. you can go looking for it, if you care to; there's plenty of light out back, the stars are all out tonight & i'm sure you could find it if you ever looked for it.
iii. among the earth, our living. the seeds in my mother's garden pushing up towards the sun & down towards the water, the marked comings and goings of the worms, the rabbits' dens & all his children. among the dust, our bones. they have sat there undisturbed a long time now.
iv. i am howling & unhinged in my hurt again. i can stomach no comfort; they might as well say its only the sun that has disappeared.
v. let me strip myself of my carnelian, let me rinse away my anger & step into a body that has never hurt. i am man enough to admit i'd be someone else if i could.
vi. but, if not, let me raise my banner high,
vii. let me say "we were here" & mean "you cannot take this, not this too", let me make something of this anger before it kills me;
viii. i am burning away so fast; all blaze, no glory
ix. don't you know where you belong? it isn't here. i told you where to find your forgiveness; look to that before you think to take this space
x. you know the wrong you've done, you know the rage i carry. we "were" here? no. we are here. i will not be forgotten.
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