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“sorry” vs “I’m sorry” “night” vs “goodnight” “bye” vs “goodbye” “love you” vs “i love you” all have two different meanings

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Ikaw lang talaga yung nagpapasaya sa akin ngayon. Kahit na topakin ako. Kahit na lagi ko siyang inaaway. Kahit na lagi akong hindi nakakapagchat sa'yo. Kahit na hindi ako maganda. Kahit na palamura ako. Kahit na hindi ako sakto para maging girlfriend mo, mahal niya pa rin ako. At kahit na sobrang layo natin sa isa't-isa. Dhale, I love you. Konti na lang hihintayin natin. Yung una at pangalawang pagkikita natin, yun yung mga araw na magiging sobrang proud tayo sa isa't-isa. Kasi yun yung araw ng greatest achievements natin. Kasama parents natin.

I'd rather have body ache due to hard fucks than having it due to being sick. 💔

Nakakaputangina

To the man I'll love,

How much time do you still need for you to finally meet me? It's been twenty-one years and yet, I haven't heard even a single word from you. I am missing you now. Even if we still haven't met. Now baby, I've got something to share with you. I've been into series of love and I can say that those just took me into tears. Those dreams shattered by their acts, those promises that they said and broke, and those smiles I had that they made just to see me cry. I want those dreams, promises, and smiles come from you. And I am hoping you’ll never do the same way they did.

Now, though I still don’t know you, I promise you that I’ll be faithful. That if ever we have misunderstandings in the future, I’ll stay. No matter how big our fight may be. Remember that my faith will be bigger than our fight. And I hope we’ll share the same thing. I promise to be the happiest person for you. If ever all the people that surrounds us gets upset with you, I promise to be there for you always. I love you and I’ll never get tired of saying this to you.

Baby, I know all the wait will be worth it. The time will come, and we’ll be together. I’ll wait patiently. Regardless who may come and go in our lives. We’ll be worth it. Our love story will be the greatest. And if you come into my life while I’m in another series of love, promise me you’ll never walk away. ‘Coz I know that I’ll do the same. Please baby, promise me you’ll stay. Promise me that at the end, it’ll be just you and me.

Loving and patiently waiting,

Your forever baby

Why would you even bother stay with someone who's not even willing to stay?

A lot of people is still asking me what happened. And to tell you the truth, guys, I don't even know. I had many questions still remained in my head. Like, was it me? wasn't I enough? Hah, I never wanted to say this but it's still here. Hindi ko alam kung anong meron pero nakakaputangina na. I'm enjoying my life as a free man now pero bakit ganon? Bakit may kulang? Bakit siya pa rin? Wala naman na dapat diba? Wala nang siya. Wala nang ako. Wala nang kami. Funny may it seem, pero hanggang ngayon, nalalabuan pa rin ako sa sarili ko. Dumadating pa rin yung oras na iiyak ako dahil sa kagaguhang ginawa niya. Umiiyak ako kasi sa tuwing inaalala ko yung dalawang taong pilit kong iningatan, napunta lang rin pala sa putanginang ending. Hahaha. WTF. What the fuck ba kamo? Sus, more like WALA TALAGANG FOREVER! Bitter na kung bitter pero punyeta. Sa tingin niyo ba, magiging ganito ako kung hindi ako ginago? Mas matatanggap ko pa siguro kung sinabi na lang niya ang totoo kesa iwan ako ng walang paliwanag at walang sorry. Mas masakit kasi yun kesa sabihing, "Uy! May babae ako. Iiwan na kita". Sobrang nagmukha kasi akong tanga kakaisip kung saan kami nagkamali sa relasyon namin. Hehe. Pero siguro nga, hindi talaga kami MTB. Siguro nga, talagang destined akong malayo sa kanya. Kahit na kumikirot pa rin yung kaliwang dibdib ko everytime na maiisip ko siya, ngiti na lang. Kahit na pagdating ko sa bahay, iiyak na naman ako.. Sige lang. Sanay naman na ako. Pitong buwan. Pitong buwan na akong nalulugmok. Ilang araw na lang, papatak na ang 8th month since nung naghiwalay tayo. At sa 8th month na yun, anniversary sana natin. Tatlong taon na sana. Tatlong taon na sanay tayong magkasamang masaya. But your fucking choice ruined it. Oh, yeah. You had a fucking choice. It's either stay with me or fucking cheat. And you chose the latter part, Kevin. You chose to break my heart. Days after the 2015 began, I felt something different between us. I just shrugged all of those off kasi I trusted you. I trusted you for not doing the same thing your dad did. And you know what's ironic? It's that you were angry with your dad because of it but you still did the same. Bitter na kung bitter pero wala eh. Hindi ko na kasi kinakayang pangiti-ngiti na lang ako. Marami na rin kasing nagbago. Pero marami pa ring natira dito. Marami pa rin akong luhang pinapakawalan nang dahil sa'yo.

I think I found you.

Every night, I've been asking myself this question. "San ba ako nagkulang at iniwan niya ako?" And up to now, I really don't know the answer. Seven months have passed. Still, wala akong naintindihan sa nangyari. It was a fucking blur. I was lost. For the past seven months that he left me, I tried forgetting him. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, kelangan kong kayanin. Kasi nakaya niya nga eh. Kami pa pero nakaya na niya. I always cried myself to sleep to make me feel better. But when I am about to move on and forget him, dun siya nagpaparamdam ulit. Haha. Ewan ko ba. Baka kasi dahil sa inakala kong kami na nga talaga. Tss. Naalala ko, wala nga palang forever. Pero ngayon, ikaw. Ikaw na nakilala ko lang online. Ikaw na tinanggap ako kahit na hindi ako maganda. Hindi ako mabait. Hindi ako ideal girlfriend. Nagising ako sa katotohanan at naalalang may ibang tao pa nga palang nakakakita sa akin. I've shared you alot about my life and you never judged me. You told me things that feeds my heart. You make me smile and cry at the same time. Maybe what I said tonight hurt you. And I'm sorry. I am just being honest but I want you to know that whatever we're having right now, I want it to remain until the longest time. Ikaw na nagsabing kakayanin natin diba? Alam kong nagsisimula pa lang tayo pero aja lang, babe. Basta alam kong mahal mo ako at alam mong mahal kita, ok na ako dun. Maraming bago tayong pagdadaanan at alam nating pareho kung ano yung mga dapat nating ipaglaban. I love you, RS. Thank you for coming into my life. 💕

And if you have just asked me if I was okay....

Semi-reunion. 😂 (at Sunny Brooke 2, General Trias , Cavite)

Bakit nga ba pinili mong mahalin siya?

I am so fucked up!

Manila gaming with the gang! 👌 (at Kersteen Joyce Transport)

Territorial. ✔️

Good bye, Bmlh! Ü

Throwback! 👸🏻

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