WAR WORN

byleth. mercenary of sorts.

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ha.

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covering both ends of the spectrum there, huh.

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if you expect me to reveal my plans on compromising with the church’s traditions and our goals, i have bad news for you. i don’t have a plan.

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words are too difficult.

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having made that choice, since ur in such a neutral position, will invariably lead to a line of questioning in where ur allies will b confident in the belief that ur loyalty is something 2 be bought and sold, that seriously diminishes your trustworthiness, aaand it will probably cost u ur friends at the end

ntm the fear that u, as a weapon in the hands of the church, who could flip on ur allies(the whole deconstructing the crests/demolishing what the religious p much stand for) u as an asset could be poised against them. Should your religious handlers decide to use u that way

and i also dont think u can convince people that youll act differently, yfm, that doubt is always gonna be there youre self proclaimed mercenary, no ones going to trust you and thats p devastating

religious handlers, that’s a good one, thank you for that. 

you’re missing a lot, you know. maybe this is presumptuous, but i don’t really think you’ve spoken to any of my friends on the topic of trusting me. so i’m not going to say much on that part, aside from indicating that many of them have already proven you wrong. i don’t really think you know me, either. 

i know the fear is there for some, may always be there, but i’ve known that for a long time, as a mercenary. i’d like to be trusted, that’s the sort of person i aim to be, but i’m not going out of my way to change someone’s mind about me, or give up on being a good person. i think i should have specified that. of course it hurts, but i plan to let my actions speak for themselves, and if that doesn’t work for someone, then fine.

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lots of swings and misses. maybe you all should slow down a little. it’s alright to aim sometimes.

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snareapparent replied to your post: cant imagine siding with a religious faction that...

wow, that’s a lot of assumptions being made.

seems like people are very good at making entirely blind and incorrect assumptions with only a fraction of the full story.

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cant imagine siding with a religious faction that supports everything your friends are trying to take down, i bet they resent you for it, for thinking people preserving this whole crest system would ever bend an ear to you, yknow whats gonna happen right? when youre done playing super duper nice and decide to eventually try and get them to change ages old traditions? if the world isnt ready for that change theyll probably find a way to discreetly remove you, and by that i mean end your life 🤷

i think you’re right in a few ways. i don’t doubt there’s resentment from both sides, and if it’s targeted at me rather than each other, then so be it. and i don’t doubt change is going to be difficult, but i believe it’s doable, especially when everything else is changing around it. and with a shift in leadership. if i must see the change through myself, i will. besides, i’m one of the hardest people to kill, i think i’ll be alright if things do turn out that way.

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x so how does it feel being a puppet for the most significant proginators of misery in the history of fodlan? :)

that’s quite a claim, that anyone is most significant in such fields. this isn’t the first war in fodlan nor do i believe it’s the worst, it’s just that the victors who go on to write their own histories don’t admit that someone else might have made a better future than themselves. 

calling me a puppet is rather strong, too. i chose this position myself, i certainly wasn’t bribed or blackmailed into it. but you forget i’m a hired sword, i’m familiar with being used to sway political affairs. used to it. i don’t have any qualms with it, especially not when it’s my own choice.

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claude is too charismatic to sound boring. he could talk about the process of making parchment and i’d be entertained.

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oh i have a very good one.

where does the king keep his armies.

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up his sleevies.

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oh i have a very good one.

where does the king keep his armies.

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i keep opening and closing the new post page but i have nothing to say. i’m considering resorting to jokes.

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✘ Is there anyone you don't think you could go on fighting without, if you were to lose them?

i won’t lose anyone. so there’s no point in entertaining this question.

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i feel as if the former count gloucester is trying to haunt claude.

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✘ Do you ever want to give up?

i was made to keep fighting, and i have people to keep going for, purposes to serve. i won’t say i’m not getting tired, but i can’t quit.

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✘ Who do you feel you put the most trust into? Who do you try to be trustworthy for?

i trust each of the golden deer with my life, frankly. which is no small thing. i want to be trustworthy for. hm. those who need someone to rely on. the church’s followers, the soldiers, my friends. maybe that’s a vague answer. but there’s no specific person or reason i want to be someone to trust.