Delta Megalos (chu~)

Full time sburb badass Prince of Life👑

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Fuck that. I am good, I am me.

I'm God damn Delta Megalos. I'll prove I can be happy and escape. I'll make the right CHOICE.

I'll make sure everyone is as happy as can be.

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I think...Me thinking I could end things myself was always the trap that was laid for me. I think I've been constantly being pushed into power, down a path I never would have wanted. Because of some stupid test of character.

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But if anyone ever sees this rant. I want you to know something. I've only ever wanted to live and to see everything go right. I never wanted people to die or suffer because of me. My actions have consequences, and I'm unsure if I could ever be good. If I ever was.

I just wanted to be the best me I could be. And although I am strong, although I could grab the scissors and cut, sometimes the hands that hold the strings make you really stop and force you to sit.

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I'm done ranting...I just remembered a dream I once had. Anyways yeah. I think I might be depressed or something.

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I...don't really vent much. I've just been realizing lately how fucking...awful and selfish I've been.

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Now the only thing holding me back is...me? Being in this session is giving me endless time to think.

And alot has happened since my lasts posts.

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I think...I was too much of an opportunist? The second I had the ability to do anything i took it, I babyraged over so much shit. But I succeeded, and bent rules, and I was rewarded every single time for ingenuity.

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No...Maybe when I had first obtained octillions and infinite amounts of grist. I think that's when I started. That was the linchpin. I could literally make and do anything I wanted. I had reached heights even some of the most gifted sburb players couldn't fathom. I was gifted immunity to powers, I could keep my wellspring of God hood infinitely filled, I had dominated the most deadly planet in the 288 player session.

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Maybe when Stan died....

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I think when Kira started shifting bad. Being single hits you far harder than you think.

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I fucked up...Really badly. I've been really conflicted and I don't know when I started being like this. When I started pulling back from everyone. When I stopped being me and just started being some anomalous diety figure.

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I'm not gonna be tagging these next few posts because I'm just screaming into the void but.

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It's been a while. I've been sitting with friends and I remembered this. Where did I go wrong.

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Hey Delta. Loyd here, you've been quite in PC for a while, making sure you haven't croaked on us, pretty sure Frida is the only one allowed to do that.

I'm good have slowly been dealing with like titans and fuckery. Been doing dealings and shit and contemplating alot of shit. Been having fun ig if you can call it that

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Discovery 1: I MUST remain in control

Alright so through my travels i have discovered 1 thing about myself and that its “Im never allowed to go all out”. Not in the cliché “My power would nuke the earth” Way; although it is true. I discovered earlier on in my journey that whenever i let loose bad things happen. I once accidentally rended an entire city in half when i was facing a difficult flow. i put alot into that attack and well....property damage out the fucking ass. No casualties because i practice control but that is a bit worrying right? Another is when i finally got ahold of my aura. It originally was too bright or whatever and almost hurt my dear dear friend star...and then when i got stronger it gained the sheer power to kill and destroy things around me. my very presence does that. So i must always bottle my power and keep composure and never for a second drop my guard because if i do. bad things happen.

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When am i allowed to be a god

Evidentially not sure 

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I'm FB. I'm one of the guys pulling strings for SBURB: Multisession. Although, I think you've done quite a bit to your fellow players.

Gasp how scandalous lmao but naaaa i havent dont much to my fellow players than lead them to the GREATNESS of victory. Currently im completing quests with a guild of breath players so thats fun!!!