taco bell

he/him, ???, no i won't kill your mom, yes there are exceptions but it's better if i outright say no you heathens

[ask-messageman]

surviving is.. mediocre. I’d rather be living. I hope you did well on your finals, mm. 🚬

sometimes surviving is the best that you can do for the time and that’s okay. 

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i’m sorry to hear that you’re stressed. i hope some of that stress will go away soon, friend. and i’m okay i guess? life sucks but you know, i’m surviving.

spring break has started and i’ll feel better once i know my final grades.

surviving is a good thing though. 

[ask-messageman]

do you miss certain apsects of your life from the past

i think it’s natural to miss certain things.

missing things isn’t unhealthy but you should never dwell on them. it’s good to look back at good and bad things and see where it’s taken you today, how it’s changed the course of your life. those memories are apart of who you are today and sometimes i wish i could go back but i can’t. but i remember those fondly and even the bad times, i remember fondly. it’s made me who i am now.

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hey mm. its the anon that asked you about smoking way back when. just checking in, cause i missed ya. are you doing okay in life right now?

wow, it has been awhile.

i’m doing alright though. school has kept me busy and decently stressed but i’m surviving. 

how have you been anon?

[ask-messageman]

i miss you

i miss you too

[ask-messageman]

hello

because of some recent events, i feel like it’s necessary to say this. 

i am not a therapist.

i cannot be your therapist.

i care about you all so much but i am only here as a temporary solution. i can only offer you advice and care but i cannot give you any more than that. i know that it’s easy to separate me from a real person because i don’t share much of my life but i am just one singular person. there is only so much that i can do to help.

if you are seriously considering hurting yourself, please, please, please, call 911, talk to someone in person, go to therapy, take your meds, whatever you have to do. i will be here to support you whenever i can, but i cannot pull you down from the ledge every single time. that is a lot of pressure on me and it’s not easy to shoulder that.

i apologize if this comes across as rude or if it upsets you but i just need to put this on my blog so that it’s there.

i’ve missed you all

[ask-messageman]

talk to me like i’m a person worthy of respect and maybe things could change

[ask-messageman]

just a heads up:

i am going to be gone for a couple days and won’t have my phone. take care of yourselves

[theraeandgo]

shitty pen art // remember the future

4.10.17

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Thats a good idea, if I get back in touch with my Mum I will definitely suggest seeing her once a month on a select date. Thats how it used to be when I was in care. But it all depends on her mental state. Again thank you so much, it’s nice to know you’re here. - 🌙

even a phone call once a month. sometimes it’s nice to hear someone’s voice. you don’t have to get back into a pattern that will harm you but just something small so that you’re still there

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Thank you for listening by the way. If you ever need to vent too, then I’m here, I dont mind coming off of anon - 🌙

i’m always here to listen. thank you for trusting me. and i really do appreciate your offer. if i need to then i will definitely take you up on that

[ask-messageman]

I know you won’t kill my Mum, but honestly, i feel life would be easier if you did. I miss her so much but if I see her again, we’ll keep going in this loop: having a nice time together until she gets bad again. Its so hard. I wish she didn’t have these illnesses but there’s nothing left for me to do except take care of myself now. I could vent further about my life but for now I’ll leave it with this. -🌙

illness can be really hard when it’s in a family. i know from personal experience that it’s really hard to watch them struggle but you are very important to. i am glad you’re taking care of yourself. i don’t really know your situation so if this doesn’t apply then feel free to ignore it but: maybe you could have a monthly (or weekly or whatever you would like) dinner? that way you can still see her but you can also focus on yourself? please take care of yourself

[ask-messageman]

Hi message-man, can I vent to you please? - 🌙

yes, of course

[ask-messageman]

I just wanna say I love you message man. I'm glad you're here. You deserve all the good things in life. -Bookie

i love you too anon. you all are good to me and i appreciate you soso much

[ask-messageman]

where did that ask game anon go?

would you all like to play a game tonight?

[ask-messageman]

what comes to mind if I say "time"

i wanted to find something witty but the only thing that really comes to mind is the end of time and 4 knocks

[ask-messageman]

never thought I'd say this but I'll fight technology

do it. let me know how it goes