Ask Penumbra

Hello! My name's Penumbra, and I'm likely glad to see you. Ask me anything you want, I'll try my best to answer and I hope we get along! My english is not really perfect, sorry. My artblog Chronological order

[slepana]

Some unfinished/experimental drawings of Penumbra I’ve never uploaded for various reasons

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Well... it was bound to happen eventually. I’ve been beating this dead horse for 4 years, I can’t take this anymore. As much as it hurts (and believe me, it does), I feel that I should accept failure and move on. Despite my best efforts, I just can’t continue this story. I like the results, but it feels like such a chore at this point and it’s been very stressful. I don’t even really watch MLP now and that’s not helping either. I know giving people false hope wasn’t nice, but I genuinely believed all I said, and I really don’t want to do this, because I love Penumbra and I wish I could do something great with her, but it just isn’t working out. Every time I hope I can do this, but I can’t and I’m really tired. I hope you can forgive me.

So yeah... This ask-blog is officially dead. If I ever do draw Penumbra, as she’s still one of my characters, I’ll reblog or post it here. Otherwise this is it, thank you for supporting me.

Edit: http://slepana.tumblr.com/ is my artblog, in case anyone’s interested.

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Some info

Alright, I hate going back on promises, but I don’t see any other option. The university schedule this year is awful and I barely have time for anything, so sadly I can only make very few updates. Technically I could still manage to keep my normal upload schedule, but then I’d have to drop everything else, which I can’t and won’t do. I like this blog, but I can’t spend all my time on it, sorry if I disappointed any of you.

TL;DR: The schedule doesn’t apply anymore, I’ll keep updating the blog at my own pace.

EDIT: So that you have some rough estimates: my own pace is every other week +- a few days, if things are going well.

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((Slepana: okay, this isn’t exactly Monday, but it’s the right week. I generally try not to mess up twice in a row, but as you can see I don’t always succeed.))

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I can’t believe I didn’t write anything about this. I’m really sorry for just disappearing without telling you anything D:

I was pretty much dead after the exams (yes, for the entire summer, it happens) The updates will continue as normal (on Mondays) from now on.

Again, sorry for not telling you anything, I know it was really rude ;_; For some reason I thought I already told you

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Sorry guys, there won’t be an update today as well. Too many things to do, I’m so tired I really just want to curl up and cry, not draw ;_; There will be an update next week though (22nd of May), don’t worry

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((Slepana: Sorry for skipping an update last Monday, life got in the way))

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((Slepana: Sorry if there’s something wrong with the update, I was a bit sick and couldn’t make it properly))

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Two updates in, and we already have an existential crisis.

((Slepana: For the first time in forever I’m not late ^.^’‘))

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((Slepana: Aaaaand I’m back. Fun fact: the first post in this blog was uploaded on Thursday just like this one (at least where I come from). From now on I’ll do my best to stay on schedule, so expect an update on Monday. Also, the majority of updates won’t be as detailed as this one, only important moments like character introductions and stuff like that, I hope you understand. This time I could take my sweet time as it’s only 4 panels long and I needed some time to figure out at least the basics, so once I start posting I don’t get stuck.))

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First of all, thank you for your support, it really means a lot! I’m really glad there are people who genuinely care about this blog  <3 It seems like almost everyone, including me, thought starting over would be better, so I’ll be working on that

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Please don’t skip this post

if you like this blog

I’ll even put the TLDR version before my needlessly long rant:

Basically, I have three options: 1. Stop beating a dead horse and accept this blog is dead. 2. Start anew and try to make something better while keeping the core concepts. 3. Try to save this story trough more subtle changes and maybe a timeskip. And I want you to help me decide. Please send me a message if you want more of this blog, even if you can’t decide, I need to know if someone’s even interested.

So, uh.. I don’t want to be writing this, but in a way I’m stuck. Probably everyone who reads this noticed that I’ve had a hard time drawing for this blog, and even when I managed to force myself, the updates were very chaotic... The truth is I don’t like where this story went and how it turned out. This was my first time writing a story, and I’ve made a lot of mistakes, and they’ve been adding up and it was hard for me to work around them. As I said, it’s hard to draw something you don’t like. I could just accept that I’ve failed and stop updating this blog... But I like Umbra too much and I got attached to her after all this time ._. So I’ve tried to somehow continue this story and fix things, but... you’ve all seen how that turned out. I’ve been thinking about this for a long time, but now I think I should’ve told you all this a long time ago and I hope at least some of you help me with this ._.

If I want to continue this story there’re two ways I think I could do this (if you can think of anything better, please tell me) I could just start over, pretend none of this happened and put more thought into making this blog. The obvious downside of this is that a lot of nice moments will be erased and a lot of time will be lost. Maybe for some people it would be boring, though I’m not sure. Also no one can just forget everything, including me, so it wouldn’t truly be a fresh start (though you could pretend you’re a seer :D) And even after all of this I could just mess up again and what then? On the other hand I could try harder to fix the current situation with maybe some kind of timeskip and a lot of “silent” changes. It would be a decent solution, but there’s a high probability that I won’t be able to pull it off, after all, I’ve tried similar things already, and while I like a lot of elements of this story no one stops me from keeping them after a “reset”, which will also allow me to introduce them properly, so I can’t really decide what to do with this blog, all options seem good and bad at the same time D:

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Ah, this sudden desire to draw chibis

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Just wanted to share this random Penumbra-related drawing, hope it’s not too annoying :D