TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE

Mod Max or Virgil, whichever! All sides available for asks! Trigger warnings for abuse/past abuse, and uhhh… a lot of stuff. Past sexual assault, psych hospitals, mental health problems, self harm tendencies, suicidal thoughts… i’ll add as they come up! Everyone gets a happy ending

[ask-ts-roommates]

Hello Virgil

*gives him a hug*

~Ghost

Virgil: !!

Virgil: … thank you

[ask-ts-roommates]

Virgil you Do deserve to leave. Your boyfriend clearly manipulated you, it's not your fault you decided to stay for this long if he took all your agency away and told you lies and stuff. Do you have anywhere safe to go?

Virgil: I… god. God.

Virgil: No, I don’t. I was just gonna flee into the city. I don’t really know anyone. I mean, my parents, but… no.

[ask-ts-roommates]

Virgil… he IS abusing you. There’s no such thing as an alternative lifestyle. Get out.

Virgil: …fuck. Fuck. I’m such a fucking idiot. Four years of my life… I’m a fucking moron. Do I even deserve to leave?

[ask-ts-roommates]

// Anon my love where did you go

[ask-ts-roommates]

Twll me some key points abt this “alternative lifestyle”

Virgil: Um… it’s sorta like bdsm, i guess? Total power exchange 24/7? He’s my master and I only answer to him. I do what he says. I don’t talk to anyone else. I’d get in trouble if he knew about this. Um, what else… no outside contact… he makes the money. I’m not allowed to. I don’t remember why, I could sell my art online but well he doesn’t want me to do that. I don’t know. It sounds bad but it’s not! It’s comforting. Just… not always. And I’m worried… I’m worried he’s been tricking me.

[ask-ts-roommates]

What lifestyle?

Virgil: That’s what he calls it. Our alternative lifestyle. He got really serious when he introduced it, said it wasn’t for everyone and a lot of people confused it with abuse. So I don’t know. I’m probably just overreacting!

[ask-ts-roommates]

Do you think ur being abused? Why?

Virgil: I… I think so. He can just… be really mean sometimes. I don’t know. I learned a lil about abusive relationships before we got into this lifestyle, but I didn’t learn much. But— but I think this lifestyle is just… an excuse. An excuse for him to control me.

[ask-ts-roommates]

Virgil counted up his money, for the thousandth time. Yes. He had enough.

He had enough.

But what if he was wrong? What if he threw away an incredible relationship because he made a mistake? What if no one ever loved him again? God knows he’s annoying, rude, ungrateful. Talentless. Angry. Depressed. A burden. E has been such a blessing, putting up with him as long as he has. It’s not his fault that he has to show Virgil force sometimes—he just doesn’t get it otherwise.

Could he ever make it on his own?

[ask-ts-roommates]

In for 4, hold for 7, out for 8, right?

Virgil: Yes! That. Thank you. Okay… one, two, three, four…

Virgil does the exercise a few times as his breathing evens out.

Virgil: I have to make a decision… have to make a decision…

[ask-ts-roommates]

Hey, take a deep breath, it’ll be okay.

Virgil: Fuck, if I’m going to do this I gotta do it now.

Virgil stands up and almost passed out. He grips the wall.

Virgil: Right… guess I can’t do anything until I calm down. What did you say? Breath? Right. Breathing. In for… fuck, what was it?

[ask-ts-roommates]

Hey, what’s wrong? Do you want to talk about it?

Virgil: I… I’m about to do something horrible and I don’t think I can stop myself. God… fucking— god… I can’t breathe

[ask-ts-roommates]

Virgil, are you okay?

Virgil: No. N-no, haha, no I’m not.

[ask-ts-roommates]

Virgil was hyperventilating.

He sat in the middle of the spotless floor, his money in a pile in front of him. And he couldn’t move. Or breathe.

What was he about to do?