I wanna be perfect for myself

Trigger WARNING! / I do not promote eating disorders or self harm in ANY way! This is just a place for me to help living with myself. Please dont take it away from me.

[skinnyhurts123]

It’s funny.

They notice when I roll my eyes,

But not that I’ve shrunk a size.

They noticed when I bruised my lip,

But not all the meals I’ve skipped.

They notice that I never win,

But not that my hairs gone thin.

They noticed my grades are low

But they’re too stupid to know..

My grades aren’t the only thing dropping.

My weight is dropping.

My heart is stopping.

My faith is gone.

But I’m told to be strong.

Recorvering is a choice.

But for some reason..

I cant choose it.

[chaiteagreentea]

i’m scared of 

eating too much

eating too little

getting too big

getting too small

recovering

not recovering

having too much control

losing control

my mind makes no sense and i’m tired of this battle 

[anas-friend-nina]

Some people’s 500 calories is fruits and veggies.

Others eat a piece of cake and a couple fries for the day.

Some people drink green tea or coffee to keep them going.

Others drink nothing because they desperately don’t want to break a fast.

Some people tell themselves it’s okay to eat over 1000 calories every now and then, it’s healthy even.

Others cry their soul out for going one calorie over.

Some people exercise regularly, keeping in mind what exercise will best help them get to their “goal.”

Others exercise constantly, because they need to be in the negative calories.

Some people were bullied once or twice or maybe even never for their weight.

Others are bullied relentlessly.

Some people fast no longer than 15 hours.

Others fast for days on end.

Some people start already in the normal range.

Others start in the overweight range.

Some people have never gone to rehab.

Others are in and out of inpatient care constantly.

Some people have tried recovery, and are striving to reach recovery status every day.

Others never want to recover.

But you know what?

All of them have a valid ed.

All of them deserve love, support, and help.

Ed’s do not give a shit about your background, age, gender, weight, race, religion, habits, grades, bringing-up, family, or anything else.

All they care about is controlling you.

[versacediets-blog]

Reblogs every 5 minutes ‼️

[anas-friend-nina]

Posting again because I believe everyone should see this 💙💚

[feettogether--thighsapart]

This is so important

[mosh]

sorry i can’t go to your party next month i have a headache

[thefoolofswords]

Rounding up calories to a ridiculous amount Just In Case™️

[passengerhusband]

REBLOG THIS IF YOU ARE VEGAN OR VEGETARIAN

I want to see how many people don’t eat animal friends on this site 🌿🐮

[yoonswife]

i love myself but i dont love me back

[ripptidez-deactivated20170530]

i have never ever related to anything so fucking hard

[amargedom]

Daily reminder!

[aritaylor-ix-deactivated2025081]

[officialdiagnosis]

someone: you forgot to eat? how?? aren’t you starving?

me: I don’t know I can’t feel anything

[rllrn-blog]

[theunrequitedlover]

[skin-daydreams]

For me, my Eating Disorder isn’t just about control or my weight, It’s self harm. It’s indirect suicide. It’s killing yourself slowly without the hassle or feeling of burden when it happens. I don’t want people to know I want to die, but i’m happy to wither away and make it seem like an ‘accident’ you know?

[x-lil-sad-lil-anxious-x]

[infpisme]

[timbllr]

[414lilj-deactivated20170902]

I’m at the “we’ll see” stage in my life. With everything and everyone. We will see.