Leila feels a warm sensation on her arm and relaxes slightly, knowing itâs Adam. She takes a deep breath and radioâs the farm team.
âJohn, Adam, and I have arrived at the location at 6:45pm. Iâll be heading in shortly.â
She observes the building from the car.
âLookâs empty. No other vehicles here. At a guess, Iâd say Harding isnât here. Could mean that weâre only dealing with Dillon, or Dillon and a guard.â
She takes another breath and looks at John.
âPlan of action. I head in, you keep the car running. Weâll stay in contact via the radios. Any turbulence, I head back out.â
âYou sure you donât want me to come in as backup? Theyâre dangerous.â
âI need you to keep a lookout. If anyone turns up youâll need to tell me. Iâm not sure how log it would take for dam, to go through you, to then get to me. Besides, I know the building inside out. If I can avoid bumping into anyone, I can get Phillip and get out of there.â
She checks to make sure she has everything she needs and looks back at the building. A apartment of her wishes they had more alibiâs but would that be as safe for Phillip? She opens the car door and steps out.
âYou too, any sign of trouble, call me.â
She follows the track down to where the east gate is. She pushes it open and it rings an unworldly screech as she does. She looks back at John, and heads through the gardens, past the overgrown hedge maze and towards the building.
âHow exactly would you warn her? Come on, show me how you do it.â
Her voice, usually full of venom is now sweet, almost sickly and mocking. She follows where his eyes are looking. A pen. She places a hand on his shoulder and gently eases him back down. Taking the pen would just be petty. She has no need for it, and he has no idea where he is. Any contact, no matter how he reaches it, will be useless. Itâs not like he can tell them where he is. At the end of the day ehâs giving himself false hope.
She looks down at her phone and smiles.
âLooks like sheâs arrived. Wait here.â
She stands and walks out of the room, locking it behind her.
John looks at Adam as Leila leaves.
âIf youâre thinking what Iâm thinking, you should go with her, just in case.â
Now alone in the vehicle John watches his surroundings. A part of him wishes heâd bought a flask, but he settles for one of the bottles of water theyâd brought with them.
Leilaâs stomach is in knots as she walks through the gardens, past the weeping willow, past the now dead dog Rose bus, the overgrown lawn and the bench where they sat. She looks up at the building, she was sure it didnât look that big and ominous before. But before, there were people, nowâŠnow itâs a burnt out husk of what it formerly was. She canât let her emotions get to her now, that would be no good. Right now, she has a task, a job to complete.
Emotions would just end up getting in the way and causing more harm than good. She canât remind herself of the time spent here, or the pain they went through, the toil theyâd faced. he canât think of that now, all that maters is finding Phillip.
She walks up to the door, noticing itâs off of its hinges and swings it open.
She holds her torch to the level of her eye and checks either side of her.
She calls, and gets no answer. If she didnât know any better she could have sworn her voice echoed and circled back to her.
Not only does Leila have to think like Dillon, she now has to think like CDI Harding too. She walks through the halls, through the kitchens and mess room, through abandoned living quarters and communal areas. She takes a deep breath to calm her nerves. Heâs to start from the top down. She clocks the button on her radio.
âJohn, living space clear, hading upstairs.â
âRoger that. Roadâs are clear too.â
She heads to the top floor first. He pauses at the landing, shines her torch, and looks left and right. She decides to go left, and check Dillonâs old room first. She opens the door and finds itâs practically the same as the last time she saw it. She looks around, but thereâs no evidence of anyone being here since she escaped. She heads out and shines the torch to cover herself again and heads to her room. She stops at the door with trepidation before going in.
Itâs empty. Some books are on the night stand, thereâs slight charring and smoke damage from the fire. But itâs empty. She looks around, memories flooding through her from when sheâd first arrived. She looks under the bed to find an empty keepsake box. So the rat had been rifling through her things while he had her in the cellar. Brilliant.
She steps out quickly and looks to a final door. Itâs busted open. She steps towards it and shines her light behind her to make sure sheâs not being watched or followed. he heads up the stairs to the attic.
She calls and shines her light. She breathes a sigh of relief to see heâs not there, not being treated like Thomas was. Memories flood through her again of when sheâd tried desperately to help him more than The High Visionary- no- Dillon, would allow. She exits the room quickly and heads to the floor below.
The library is empty, all but a pair of broken glasses on the floor. The other communal areas are empty too. She heads down again. And grimaces when she stops at the cellar.
Her heart is starting to pound with worry. Itâs concerning how she hasnât heard or seen anyone yet. Not to mention, itâs biting cold. She props the cellar door open and alls out.
âPolice investigation. Iâm coming down there.â
Her stomach flips slightly, images of Phillip falling, no, being pushed down the stairs come back to her.
âPhillip? Are you down here?â Please be down here.â
She whispered the last bit and looks around. She swallows, all she can see is where she was last there.
âPlease, please, he has to be here somewhere.â
She steels her composure and runs back up the stairs to the main hall, the main ritual room.
âŠAnd steps inside. Phillip is lying where she left him, heâs squinting as he looks at her, she couches down beside him. Sheâd holding a pillow.
The room is dark and charred the worst. Itâs bound to have been.
âPhillip? Dillon? Where are you? Where is he? Stop hiding Dillon, you coward! Phillip, Iâm here, make a noise if you can hear me.â
She tries the light switch, and of course, nothing. She shines her torch and kicks away half melted candles. She almost gives up hope when her torch flashes against the bright white of a chalk outline. She stalks towards it and sees itâs a freshly drawn eye in the middle of the floor. And in the middle of the eye she sees it. A crumpled heap in the middle it.
She runs towards it and crashes down to her knees.
âPhillip, Iâm here, Iâm here I-âŠâ
CDI Michelle Harding kneels infront of Phillip and places the pillow down beside him.
âOh dear, Phillip. Lookâs like sheâs failed her mission. She hasnât got to you has she? No matter, Iâll keep a close eye on her.â
In front of Leila is Phillipâs sweater from the space centre and the first note she sent to him in captivity. She reads the words over and over again and draws the sweater close to her. It still smells faintly of his cologne from her birthday.
Her shoulders drop, the torch clatters to the floor.
She doesnât care if all of Shropshire hears.
She holds the sweater close and cries into it. Her whole body heaves as she wails, tears fall from her face and her stomach flips. Sheâs not in control, nor in this moment can she regain it.
âYou bastard! You bitch! You evil fucking cunts, how could you! How could you! I hate you! Youâve taken everything Iâve ever loved, youâve betrayed me! How could you! Youâve murderd my husband, you kidnapped me, and double crossed me, and made me believe I was going good!â
She doubles over, heaves and sobs as she screams the words, years of hurt, years of repressed rage all coming out now.
âI never got to say goodbye! And now his soul c-canât even rest! And youâve now taken the only other man who I could let into my heart, someone so kind and gentle who did nothing wrong!!!â
She stands and kicks the chalk outline, making the eye look distorted. Her eyes are wide as eh looks manically around the room, maybe heâs here, maybe he can hear here.
She crumples to the floor and again and bows her head as she sobs freely now.
âIâll find you. Iâll find you, I wont let them hurt you, I canât. Theyâll have to go through me to get to you, Phillip. Iâm sorry,Iâm so sorry. I canât lose anyone else, pleaseâŠpleaseâŠâ
Her hair cascades down over her shoulders and face as she lets out her pain.
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