stand by me

aly • 25+ • she/her • been travelling through time • ao3: asterdust

[asterdust]

“少年时呢， 意气最盛。总想着庇佑天下的责任都扛在自己的肩上。而且总觉得呢能保护身边所有的人。可事实上呢很多事情并不是我们想得这么简单又并不是我们都能掌握的。”

Every arc in Mysterious Lotus Casebook depicts Li Lianhua's true feelings. No matter how many times he attempts to run away, he is slowly confronted by his past. He tells the young Fang Duobing that he cannot just carry the weight of the world, as there are many things that are out of his control. Something he wished he had known when he was younger.

[kayephat]

MR. KILL | EP2

[memoirofaouboom]

aka Phat being a simp.

[asterdust]

just imagine man you're just trying to get by. sell your soul to the devil (draw palatable comics instead of what you're passionate about) to earn money and pay those inherited debts, then one day some sick ass mf uses your early work as a tool to kill......

[buriedinmyownfeelings]

Poor Kaye is having a rough morning and now he has to deal with a pretty inspector suspecting him

That self deprecating smile kills me. In one sense he’s happy that his manga is so different that no one would ever assume they were written by the same person but also that just means that he isn’t writing what he actually wants to write and is only writing romance to pay his debts which is soul crushing for any artist

The silence speaks for itself

He really thinks he can get away with anything with that pretty smile of his

Also someone tell this boy he’s a terrible liar

My man is fighting the urge to defend his work even though he knows that’s practically a prison sentence

You can literally see the light going out in his eyes. He had to hear his editor say to his face that the work that he actually enjoys wouldn’t sell and that it was nothing special

Someone give this man a hug and by someone I mean Phat

[justplaggin]

piled-up evidence (3/∞)

latest occurence

enquiry

*drumroll*

*keyboard smash*

[asterdust]

tag game: 10 people you’d like to know better!

tagged by @rose-tinted-vision thank you for the tag :D

last song: panic cord by gabrielle aplin. she's currently in my rotation lately so ive been playing her light up the dark album a lot. i love her so much

currently watching: white cat legend, love for you, payback, the prosecutor's proposal, kiminatsu (my summer of you)..... a lot right...

currently reading: pinilakang tabing by ricky lee! it's a filipino novel which means silver screen/cinema. this novel is a love letter to film 🥹🫶 and sir ricky lee is one of the best screenplay writers slash novelists in my country (also maybe this year im planning to read more in my native language to write better in my native language hahahah)

current obsession: ding yuxi... (by extension of nbda) but im probably more obsessed with his acting right now bec where were you when i needed you man? dont think ive ever watched a show of a c-actor back to back to back before despite loving them the same (sorry cheng yi, jianci, zhao lusi 🥺)

currently working on: my ongoing shse time loop fic..... i am literally behind my supposed deadline which is Suho's birthday 😭 i wrote ch 4 plot points then stared at the ceiling. i also wrote fifteen words of zhang hailou mourning zhang haixia then curled up and died.

last google search: the death of the filipino film director lino brocka (which was mentioned on the novel i mentioned above fjdjdj)

favourite flowers: i dont know much about flowers but i do like the meaning of aster

tagging; @ninja-mullet (im not so active here lately so i dont remember most of my mutuals names sorryyyyy)

[jievn]

ZHANG JINGYI as Miao Jing LOVE FOR YOU 野狗骨头, 2026 | Ep. 1

[asterdust]

maoye does not want to part with his hooman chen shi 🥺

[justplaggin]

black shrimp local knife enjoyer

[duncan-rohanne]

"The gardener said the words she'd heard those years ago, she willed it with everything she had. You, me, us. "Take me with you," she cried in her heart. "Take me. Drag me down like you did the others." But the lady in the lake was different now.

— The Haunting of Bly Manor

[asterdust]

love has fireworks short review...?

i think this drama's romance is made for me. it's the right amount of slow burn and it made sense for these two people. i also love the fact they were friends first before becoming lovers. and none of them fell in love at first sight.

just like everyone else on the internet, we all don't like the third pair's subplot! dang yu can do better than that. but i guess there are such parents. i don't really give a fuck tho.

thought id snooze over the whole investment banking thing since i literally graduated in finance, but surprisingly....... the whole shanlifang IPO plot felt like watching a fictionalised case study on investment frauds and schemes....

also can we talk about women friendship here?????

love love seeing tan jianci and wang churan's acting dynamics! they're so so balanced on the screen.

[harocat]

Ding Yuxi’s Farewell Message to Zhang Haixia:

[translated by sunrabbit]

June always seems to be accompanied by the curtain falling of some stories, the story of Haixia which began on a winter day has also been pushed by time to have its final stroke written in the midsummer.

During this period of time I became you I saw your high spirits and also accompanied you through your moments of confusion and helplessness. In fact many times when reading the script, my heart ached for your strength because you bore too much. But we all know that at the bottom of your heart, there forever lives an inherently kind Zhang Haixia.

Thank you to every single one of you who was willing to pause your steps for the sake of Haixia, no matter what he looked like, accompanied him up to this very moment. Looking back, we already have accompanied each other to walk through a very long journey.

So I feel more and more that everything was worth it, everything is precious. The two words 'thank you', even if said another ten thousand times to you all, still feel like not enough, so I want to say to you again "thank you, thank you all.”

Haixia, I hope that no matter where you are, no matter who you are, no matter what kind of happiness or pain you have experienced, the ending that belongs to you will always see royal poinciana flowers blooming generously across the entire world.

You are free, my little thrush...

I've come to take you home, Haixia (only here, he used Haixia’s real name ​海侠 here not 海虾)

[harocat]

Zhang Xincheng’s Farewell Measage to Zhang Hailou:

[translated by vii]

When I first met you, you were still a reckless and passionate youth, carrying a vivid, untamed pride untouched by the world.

You were like a free ocean breeze.

You dared to brave any path and venture anywhere, because Xia Zai was always walking by your side, and your Master and the Archives were always waiting for you to come home.

Later, the winds and waves of Nanyang grew turbulent, swept up by an unpredictable destiny. Every seemingly steady and mature step you took was solely to protect the last remaining sliver of warmth you possessed.

In this life, gains and losses are always hard to measure. The tragic experiences of your childhood shaped your "true snake-like nature," but later you were also fortunate enough to meet Xia Zai-someone you could fight alongside, someone willing to secure a retreat for you, and someone for whom you were wholeheartedly willing to give your all.

Xia Zai and Master were the rare lights in your displaced life, granting you irreplaceable moments throughout the long years. Because they were there, you could charge forward without restraint.

The longevity of the Zhang family might, for you, mean an agonizingly long remainder of your life, but perhaps it is also an opportunity to keep watch and wait.

If time could be turned back, let it stop at that year in Xiacheng, in that small courtyard of the Zhang family, where everything remains exactly as it was in the beginning.

Always remember every single person who walked by your side and every story you lived through together.

[asterdust]

whats up with this unresolved sexual tension between li bing and qiu qingzhi...

[asterdust]

dali temple so far has two and a half working braincells (one for li bing, one for cui bei, and the rest shares that tiny half)

[asterdust]

i am sorry for being so absent i have developed a stupid hyperfixation on ding yuxi's acting