Mr Wallachs Thought Process.

"Are you dead or you sleeping ?"

[aswallach]

Great news for those that hate long drives(modest mouse lyrical homage)

I am not who I want to be I think I may just take some speed euphoria doing the cockroach the crash started to scare me so Bury me with it just don't need none of that pressurecook bullshit and the drive was long but I came up short medicine cabinets only last resort pharmacy dope of all sorts stand in the suicide pit methadone treatment very misleading wow look at me now I'm on the karma payment plan so I went over the reservation to ask cowboy Dan he was busy drinking whiskey in his self pity firing his rifle at the sky telling god "your going with me if I gotta die" Dan was deceased before the ship sank but atleast it coulda been shoulda been worst than you would ever know the patient waiting and rewriting the wrong font for the correct words pertinent to what I communicate the seeds of planted ideas communicated to be heard for a book destined be mistaken and left in a sad state of decay or soaking paper on rainy day as a coaster or a testimonial lesson to question what is certain not ever hardly questioned what exactly was the answer for the learned lesson? why do I feel like I can't fucking breathe ? maybe I'm being crushed ? like the car you crashed into me two more days I hadn't sleep but don't quench your thirst don't breathe the air you need counter intuitive nothing as it seems I'm stupid today and I still stay aware no oxygen intake to inhale plenty of subhuman masquerades decadence in detail heart cooks mindstate excited for the fire sale so no memories of anything but the cost of the retail so why don't you build me an ephigy and I'll burn up your Ephegy it's all in flesh still all energy despite the architecture of recipe it's unfair itakes more than one to decide what's fair life is often toxic I will have to prepare waiting for the present day past in rear view mirror where the prisms cast shadows and the first is always last in line deep and shallow depths of consequence burnt mind worse nerves I'm tamed she's hurt so anyways you can't tell me it wasn't worth the pay it's free to not be asleep at least for a day stay centered watch out for your intentions remain pure Shepards are the herd the animals took the leash throw your books in a fire you know you don't want to see what it's like when you can't go back your awake now float on to the indifferent parting of the sensory the past present and future all the same as today eventually somehow ? I just don't know what it is ? the ultimate truth put my mind to use untill finality of this flesh and bones earthly use soul imbued do as you want to ? just make sure you bury me with it

[aswallach]

fresh out the half way house yeah the one up on old "Shepard Pratt " hospital is found is now purposed rehabilitation of the "I am just doing this one day at a time " frame of mind the HoCo md recovery scene Bob and Bill the whole triangle of self centered actions add up to an equation of sacred design the lower the bottom you live to hit ? the wider the foundation needed to support outside and in the recovery of the malady that plagues our self and Any one else who took the party too seriously and a lifestyle developed and guess what happened next ? habit was a job of survival had to rob , take , get jumped every once in a blue moon month steal a stash back and kicked the Kia into warpspeed also known as hella fast the fiends on the loose running from that original wound that's what I know not a day to soon you gotta at least know enough to know you really just got here you a baby on planet earth a pioneer for what it's worth me too . I just am ok with only taking in the sentiments and sentences that I can make sense of ya dig? macro is micro small is big these are truths I cannot alter but must learn use this sacred secretion drips from 33 to start with the number of columns in the spine the years Christ lived on earth the sacred equations aren't clear like the moment of vision upon birth so I am not ready to survey all gods mana and wisdom to gain as of yet I digress .. the sacred secretion drips from the crown atl the way down to the midbody after processing and spirit analysis it then flows to the pelvic region defying physics we have established despite all we know this is nothing but theories of the anti established but lastly this ascends to the pineal in the crown the sacred symetry sky water ground ancient and esoteric that's why it's not common understanding Gnosticism was all but completely buried those who have no desire to transcend words have little importance that's ok Bc this is a place of idol worship and we collectively couldn't unite to save the earth and all of those personal persons you love but they love to hate you they took so much away from you still forgivines I have accepted so I must forgive too between me and you : this is no place for empathy not a respite for the deserving few but the people that want to be complete they will gravitate to this cosmic mixture of psycholodelic stew so with that understanding this body of mine is uselessly essently to experience human life but I am spirit and spirit takes flight spirit find kindred folks inhabiting the spirits of the days night and the future folks who now we don't know but in time we might?

[aswallach]

One day you will get it

Untill then know that I regret not much but my last sentence I spoke to you . The words just appeared and I said something I didnt mean . Either way were moving apart from one another. That's the real hurt , not the stupid words .

[stargazerinmoksha]

wanted to.

I wanted to call you, but it’s not something that I need, it’ll do more harm than good. I wanted to love you right, but broken people do broken things, broken people think brokenly, wicked poetry dripping from her lips, these days I think about her more than you and that’s the pain that we feel— words like to kill feelings so we keep a cigarette ripped and out ashtrays empty. Loveless, I’ve sorted my chaos out. I wanted to call you, but when the call ends you’d just end up leaving me again— it’s just not worth mentioning that I’m still hurting, broken person tries to hold broken person, we were never going to make it, the world looks a bit lonelier on this side. The grass is blue, dew makes it look like they cry, we’re all a little lovesick and ready to end things, this is just another letter that I can’t remember. Infatuated by your lies, flaming insensitivities you used to be in love with me— it’s something that I’ve been meaning to tell you, I’m tired of loving you.

[aswallach]

Wow !!!! Excellent writing

[aswallach]

Our last breath /cold brackish waters

Since I want you and me wearing the same rope for eternity Could you tie this knot together? While I drive off the bay bridge To sleep with you eternally!!! Ohhhhhhhh! Fuck me !!!!!!!!!! If I said anything you didn't need to hear from me And we can stop the ongoing arguments While with the barnacles We sleep so deeply in the sea I saw your face That yesterday I can't know reality from dream What to say ? We seen enough together To know we can't stay on earth together So resign your fate with me this is my gift A gift I want you to read Letting you know "I want sleep with you beneath the sea " Don't you love to love the drama And all the bullshit we breed I know we could beat karma If we slept beneath the sea Breath in the cold water Let the salt sting your lungs One last gulp and we will be asleep Asleep and finally numb

[aswallach]

What In the holy fuck is this girl trying to say ?? You can't be an effective Superiffciant assasin Of emotional stability Built on years of a forced sense of resentment Ill intentions God forbid I ever mention These purposely assembled haphazard event patterns of the 6 Senses of the fact of this matter She knows we're in the ether But only when truth comes to light And she knows its mind over matter But still it doesn't matter ? As long as this festering misconception of miscommunications are added to the plethora of already unstable foundation and personal procedure Of ways we choose to give no fucks thus Breeding Mistrust And incompatibly It's less than beerible You see? I'm me and that doesn't change much You can accept it or not ? But I can't sign myself up for "operation brain fuck " I.e. A complete and utter violation of this 3 plus Year Of a reckless example Of what you thought a relationship was I'm too grown for this shit You already know I'm quick to explain "how this bitch Yeah fuck her ! She's not able to groove with it aha ho! go deal w it " I'm the eternally new sense of resilience I kept quite to long This is news you can choose to accept and adapt quick I'm not your average Dude With an average dude stchick You know I'm destined for a life way better than just accomplished and socially accepted I'm the living unschooled Bad attitude Elemental archduke Of the" house of no growth " hate made with words not spoke but I conquered it though And slain the imbued Sense of entitled And accepted Trespasses And not forgiveable Past happenings Nasty attitudes That I had be made feel true And I will be this long after the time of you or me me and you I bring this decree To present application Due diligence is a must For my conditions Of power trip Relationship Assasinanation Non compliance Established as accepted Knowledge If what it now is Until there remains not one bridge Connection myself to that of the one who would contemplate Calculated Destruction Of what I know me and you is ? And you know you shoulda Already knew this Idk? It's not what it was It's what it does Chick But I mean ? Fuckit You know I always will love you baby No matter what the days Plan for our arrangements 3 almost 4 years Not a thing I can change always know I love you I know you feel the same Unti later Maybe I can meet you in the astral planes ?

[aswallach]

In memory my last message to my friend

It's been since march /early April And You left before my birthday I don't have a soul i can relate to When I got the call and Darcy said you was dead All my life turned around in less than one day I remember philosophy at your place Smoking jays Tripping out laughing Yeah those were the days Now I can't drive past your street Without the phone call played on repeat Your sister said you were dead And I was at a funeral already My dads friends kid just passed away That's two motherfucking deaths in one day !!!! Both drug related Overdosed and I tried to wake you Three sticks and pebbles through your window To wake you up !!!! It just wasn't enough Now I wonder how in the fuck ? Your family just left you like they did ? You supported them and they left you for dead Man I hope you know I couldn't bare to show my face at that funeral All the snakes from the clinic Acting like they really knew you though I woulda flipped out Busted Darcy in the lip Dragged your cunt mom to the casket Screaming " look at him !!! Look what you did " "Left you to die over some petty methamphetamine bullshit " I know you know I'm never going to forget this And as I try forgive I can't seem to forget You was my one friend That I could actually count on Yeah I could depend You had to shoot that dope alone You were sad bro but all that over some stupid hos ? Just let me find one of these whores alone Or maybe I just need let this go ? But I'm writing this just to let this be known I can't speak to you but you aren't alone I'm still holding your memory A part of me went with you You knew more than most family Fuck I miss you dude You were so proud to be a Hebrew I respected you I fucking said I love you too ! That's not easy for any man to do But I can't even say I'm not mad at you For leaving me here alone I coulda helped you and you fucking know it Should asked you to go to a meeting or something? Shoulda busted down the window and made sure you were still breathing But I had no way to know And Ben I am sorry I didn't show At your funeral I love you though My main man I hope your comfortable And smiling at the fact that I can't let you go You were important More than you ever got the chance to know Godamnit I miss you Ben I'm sorry I wasn't at your funeral Until I see you again Keep a seat waiting for me Until then Rest In Peace Amen God bless your soul My best friend I love you Ben

[just-tabletop-things]

A lot of Lovecraft’s descriptions are basically, “And then I saw the spook. It was so scary, that I won’t even describe it. But it was spookier and much scarier than anything my contemporaries could come up with, I’ll tell you that!”

[aswallach]

lol Bc true !!!!!

[aswallach]

[aswallach]

#dinosaurshavebadapplications

[aswallach]

[aswallach]

Exactly !!!!

[aswallach]

I don't need your happy excerpts from a bullshit pseudo existence

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[aswallach]

lol funny very much laughing at words very much good for the purpose of lol .

[aswallach]

I just reread my rhymes ?!!! what the fuck ? don't give credit to art that's not up to snuff shit is haphazard lyrical can't imagine what I was thinking acting like my rhymes mattered? so now it's back to the practice mat put words where the money's at keep onlookers hooked on when my rhymes get refined and recooked like ready rock sold behind the liquor store :laundry mat if I'm claiming I'm bad as a date rapist taking the fire escape and firebomb your mothers place I'm still not as ill as I want sick as fuck and taking 5 seconds to empty out the evidence in the trunk of your boyfriends truck turn the tape deck on to some old school funk put the suicide vest on then roll up a blunt smoke that shit and wait for the buzz back over the land lords and owners and ask what's what ? is that you ? blood ? cuz? ain't shit mattered when I'm wet as fuck shirm stick and angel 😇 dust motherfucking arbitrary martyrdom Bc where I grew up from not two people gave one single fuck and now I'm old enough to know what's up so I rock my own stuff how I want fucking with words and swerving on curbs out side the box of what's been done anyways just a legacy from the land of exactly you know what that out the mud eyes wide shut Bc you ain't seen shit till I blow up the strip hold hostage the industry taking in little kids under my wing turn em into burglars of the pop chart industry they better e be better than me that's how you pay lyrics forward that's what makes a fake vs a real ass m.c giving back what was given to me so freely I'm just saying I do it for the art they do it for the industry ok I'm out and I know you know you can't out rhyme me so go ahead make a move hun I dare you try me just for fun Oh and I'm still around Grabbing these nuts And dropping acid on your playground

[aswallach]

"I was a cloth patchwork and full of holes Still to be whole I loved pretend The seems and threads tattered from age ten The makers abandoned the cloth Alone i sat on a rack Still the fabric so naive and soft A fellow tattered cloth of better design Found me and our threads combined The fact was we were from to different seemstress The threads tore And soon a tear was all but impossible to ignore So the towel was put away only for love and memory sake Taken out every once in awhile To make certain it's not forgotten Even though very frayed That's love that didn't stay But you don't let it break Instead you pull away As to not let the connection of thread tear For its in weathered and worn out shape . Love eternal will always stay accurate even if unused But abuse and take for granted That cloth will certainly tear and never be of any good use It will shred away For my sake For her sake The cloth nearly ripped But love saved a sinking ship Now the memory is all that exists And our mutual patchwork cloth Kept safe in a closed closet Even though resentment stays on a list " Alex Wallach 2017 "Love is a threaded linen "

[aswallach]

En homage to The Godfather of grunge

Hey hey my my Selfish whims are all on time There is more to the picture Then truth happening so fast it goes undefined Hey hey my my When you go It is your chosen time A pickaxe to diamond Won't nearly grind The shapes of men And there wills so rotten These are my words And best forgotten If you could do it again ? Just one more time? Choices changed all over ? One less lie? Or leave it all for judgment in time ? My my hey hey En homage Neil young is here to stay Won't ever not be loved As musics human guise This is truth Stood the test of time "Harvest moon " To lost b sides My my hey hey Pearl Jam died along the way Why couldn't spiritual successors ? Have more to say ? But still they continued Songs you didn't make Lyrics you didn't say The kings not gone But mostly forgotten This is the story Of grunge rocks father Turn the radio off I don't even bother That imperfect voice Perfection next to modern hipster fodder My my hey hey This is just the things I say Nothing more But nothing less Don't forget from who inspired your progress

[aswallach]

Battle @young john vs. (me) 410 knowzis

ok good lookin out on the essential free press shout out @young john I started this with no ill will but I asked for it so let's gut gully and let proverbial blood spill yea I lack focus but foreal i know you must notice I'm not trained in no way but the lyrical practice in which you barely survive getting slain drinking off the top rail if I chose to take it there comprenda ? you sip box champagne compared to that of my awareness a tende rare snitch on the screw up mail list you lack confidence I rock operatic emphasis barely take a second to crush this next battle going be that ill shit this a warm up simple practice but oh well no shit ! I write it so I wrote it oh man thank god a good challenge to master unlike the basic (bating ) in which you obviously master lol I ain't calling bitch on a dude I could probably learn some ill shit but that's not today and I ain't a thing but a word away like cocaine and razor blades I blow through the crumbled leafs you leave lyrically on this battle page similar to how wind simply gusts and the fallen plant matter is nothing but dust one thing ima mention where you fucked up is assuming this was easy as that cool breeze attitude you straight bluff you mad now? or maybe just seen the error of assumption ? like sucker punk sneak punching calling this a battle ain't even a description to label this simple function I'm too easy to go back in that addict mad max math crazy as a bed bug but never caught sleeping dude you got snuck past morning news or my bad prolly watching that blues clues? maybe the "I can't get a reaction to get me that satisfaction for dummies" like I said I may lack focus but your just bummy that's nothing I can't cope with I hope you aren't totally mentally demoted ? needing pro help to deal with the raw smack you got dealt :( I just told you what's what and the murderer who just wrote it dumb fuck !! it's ok take my rhymes and quote it !! I'm no slow minded learner that you seem to be so inclined to try and battle like you could actually rattle me and my motives with any type of faggotry but yeah you got totaled just in case you ain't notice still hollin 410knowzis! ya bish can't end this without that killshot diss but really its already been done no need to further embrace any more self esteem degradation a non factor ass actor stuck to what's already been done like wall and plaster nick name mc no one or mc non factor asshole of a human disaster get a thesaurus and read so next battle slightly more challenging or at least worth a thought out reaction react faster !! to easy for me to bust up that soft ass verbal rotted salad you ok ? I hope your not really filled with anger and malice ? either way I'm a word away if you got any more stupid shit ? you wants say but any way no ill will just practicing my skill if you take a battle personally? I can't tell you nothing but dude I'm just posted on chill wrote this at a moments notice but thanks for the response it got me writing like I want nothing but showing love take it exactly as you want I'm done no more words for this no one

[aswallach]

Ummm who is this dude?

What happened ? When I can't go to the clinic Without getting caught up in "thug life" Distractions lol no intimidation I'm just asking? When blondie has the balls to eyeball me like a fucking faggot Hop out the Kia and let the hands to the yapping He had the cool breeze shades on Trying to act like he's all about that action Case in point I started to straight snap him After all that the security guard saved his ass and that's ok with me I know who's who For looks and in actuality Who will swing first And who get laid out While I'm upright lol laughing That he had nerve to truly try and see me I'm a motherfucking demon seed And your no threat to me And the fact is you just jealous kid I got scripts that you wish you did Grimiest bitch on this side of the bay bridge Yessir hun this Maryland And I'm not sure where your from ? But we don't play that shit Don't get found Stretched out Over words of a bitch Waiting and hoping Security at the spot where you pop off with that mouth shooting like sawed off You got lucky today Next time I wouldn't bank on the same fate I warn once Twice means It's too late ! Go get your dose and go home You don't know who I am or what I can do ? What I'm capable To drive the point home Homo ! No more warnings Just simple scrapping Legitimate knuckle busted Neck snapping Unfortunate events Yeah they do happen It's mathematic One two three Tap out You silly faggot