ᕱ ౨ৎ ᕱ . ‘ ° ׅ ۫ — ALL OKAY IN THE END
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˞ ⚘ synopsis: you’re at the brink, and kazuha comes to comfort you in your time of need.
˞ ⚘ warnings: being done with life, crying, not proofread
˞ ⚘ love, quill: bro this is like the worst fic i’ve ever written please forgive me zee. also this is so so late, i’m really sorry i just lost my motivation for writing it halfway through :( i love you sm and thanks for sending in an ask<3
when spring finally bloomed, flowers would unfurl from their shy buds, revealing beautiful, bold petals.
but you, kazuha’s flower, were wilting.
archons, you were so tired.
even the most simplistic of actions fatigued you, your chest heaving with the effort of having done anything at all. you couldn’t anymore. what was the point anyway? nobody appreciated what you did and you felt so stupid, so silly for walking around pretending like you belonged when you were really messing everything up. for everyone.
you closed your eyes. the world disappeared and the darkness embraced you. the lack of pain you felt beckoned you, and you felt like you could live in this darkness forever.
and so you would. forever.
and just as the impulsive thought entered your mind, kazuha burst into your shared home, hazphardly carrying takeout, flowers, and the scent of maple leaves in with him.
"dove, forgive me. this son of a hilichurl kept assigning me more work and i know i usually don’t use such mean la—“
you looked up through tear filled eyes, at a blurry kazuha. bags slipped down his arms, with mussed up hair from the harsh wind outside. he dropped the bags at the front and ran to your side, worry coloring his voice.
you suppressed the urge to snap at him, did you really look alright? a frown overtook your features, but as you looked at his sincere face, your expressions softened, sobs coming out instead of cruelties.
warm arms encircled you as you babbled nonsense, trying to get your sorrows across to him.
"tell me everything will be okay. please."
one one coherent thought left your mouth, and you were begging for so much more in that one request. tell me everything will be okay. tell me you’ll always be by my side. tell me i’ll get out of here and be happy like i’ve always wanted to.
he looked at you, his own sorrow evident as he gazed at you in this state, tears rubbing in rivets down your cheeks, your voice leaking sorrow.
kazuha was always a steady rock, a pillar of strength for not you but all his friends and family. anytime comfort was needed from him he was ready to drop everything just to tell you how loved you are. but today, doubts filled him, yelling in his head so loud he couldn’t think. he did he not notice you were suffering? he did he let it get this far? was he even a good boyfriend? his tongue stuck to the roof of his mouth, physically stopping him from saying the one word you needed the most.
you looked up at him, your eyes swimming with tears as your heart sank in your chest, weighed down by his lack of confidence in you.
“you don’t think it will be, do you?”
sobs started leaving your body more rapidly, as you moved away from him, burying your head into your hands. you knew it.
“god it’s never going to be okay. i’m going to be lost lost lost lost lost—“
“no! no dove i’m so sorry. i just.”
he paused, moving closer to you. his hand inched closer to you, settling right next to your thigh and he could feel the warmth from your body, warming him from the inside out.
“i just couldn’t take seeing you like this. i do think you’ll be okay. i promise.”
he paused to think and whispers filled his head, rapidly so. he was the reason you were crying more. maybe you didn’t want him here, and so he spoke his afterthoughts.
“do you need alone time? i can stay, if you want.”
you nodded into your hands as another sob wracked your body.
“i love you.” kazuha’s voice floated near you, and you felt his arms around you, one hand resting at your waist, the other the small of your back.
one small kiss at your temple.
another, on your forehead.
“you will be okay. i know it”
the third, on your cheek.
“and i’ll always be there for you”
and through soft kisses and whispered words, you, kazuha’s flower, drifted off into his arms, with the knowledge that you definitely would, be okay.
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