So it goes.

Ashley. Artist. Determined. Mother of 2.

[popclture]

Salvador Dali painting The Face Of War (1940)

[atexturedlife]

“Mombie” 5”x7” mixed media drawing.

I had my son and things were all well and dandy. He was 6 when I got pregnant with my daughter. 7 by the time I had my daughter. He was a great baby through and through.

Then I had my daughter. She is the opposite of my son. My pregnancy was so much harder with her. My recovery was harder. I struggled with post partum depression in a way that I never imagined with my daughter. She was colicky on top of it all.

I started to use my art to cope with my depression and my negative feelings. I’ve always kind of used my art in this way. Creating has saved me over and over again.

So I started this piece a while ago and worked on it a little bit at a time here and there until I finished it the other night.

What I will say is struggling is something we all do. But it will get easier.

[atexturedlife]

I used to love a lot of things. Now I don’t feel like I know who I am again.

[purplebuddhaproject]

https://www.instagram.com/pbuddhaproject/

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[atexturedlife]

Am I the only that tends to lose motivation when you need it the most?

[sixpenceee]

A quote by Neiman Marcus.

[atexturedlife]

I can’t believe you knew what was going on and you pretended like you had no role in it. Peer pressure or not you participate instead of fighting against it. You and you and you. There’s to many people that had an active role in why you’re not here anymore. I wish I would have known. I would have fought tooth and nail to save your life and maybe you’d still be here. 

I’m not sure anyone knows how empty my life is here without you. You were my best friend for so long and you helped me through so much. And now I guess all I can do is keep fighting through this chaos to make you proud of me, like you did for the people you cared about. 

I just miss you...

[purplebuddhaproject]

[illogicalpatience]

You didn’t make it this far just to make it this far.

Don’t give up. (via vocallife)

[purplebuddhaproject]

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[wnq-writers]

I lost her, she’s gone forever. I cost her, she’s gone for better. I was not what she needed. I was fought and defeated. Now when all I want is to hold her she just gives me the cold shoulder.

W.D.W (via wnq-writers)

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[sad-plath]

Aneta Kostrzeewa

Marcin Kempski

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[antoniosvivaldi]

HP Aesthetics: Hermione Granger