Someone Care!
i want to die so bad, but I cant. My life's too good, i'd be a total bitch if i did.
i'm hurt so bad. but looking from the outside, everying is so perfect in my life, everyone would think me a total bitch because I acctually have a shot at a "perfect" life.
But it's NOT as good as everyone thinks. All my friends are leaving me, I'm finding out everyone I love acctually hates me. Everyones always yelling and screaming at home. I can barely get any sleep.
And on top of all that... My fiance wont talk to me. the ONE person I can confide in, the one person I want to talk to, is ignoring me. I send her messages, but instead of replying, she roleplays with others!
I cant say anything bad about her, because she trusts me. I'm one of the only people who's never abused her physically or verbally in her life. So I have to be careful with what I say, I cant express how much pain I'm in or how I really feel. Because I dont want to hurt her.
I just want this pain in m chest to end. there's too much stress. If I was Tony Stark and had an arc reactor in my chest, I would have torn it out by now. Just to make the pain stop.













