I know most people on here could actually give two shits about me but in case someone has the least bit of interest in me, here are 10 things about me that no one knows:
1. My friends know me as the "older child" but I actually am a middle child. I have a younger brother & a half older brother & sister. My half brother lives in Liberia and my half sister lives somewhere down south. I don't have any real relationship with them because they are not too fond of me and my younger brother; I don't really know why they hate us though.
2. If I was not pursuing a career in pharmacy I would become an actress. I've alway had a love for acting since 3rd grade ever since I watched the first movie of Harry potter (extremely corny). I actually practiced speaking with a British accent until I perfected it and then tried looking for auditions as extras for all the future harry potter movies lolol. I even watched audition tapes growing up (rachel adams audition tape for the notebook & henry adams audition tape for E.T are amazinggg!!) and I tried doing my own; Im convinced this is the reason why i am so dramatic.
3. I am EXTREMELY sensitive and I do an excellent job of hiding it. Almost anything and everything hurts me (physically and emotionally lol). You could honestly make the softest joke towards me and Ill play it off in the moment but I can bet you Ill be pondering over it all night and thinking that it was a personally attack towards me. I think this is the reason why I hate confrontation because I feel vulnerable because of my softness.
4. I'm sure anyone who knows me knows that my obsession with Jhene Aiko is not something to play with but alot of people dont know why that is. Alot of people tend to idolize celebrities and sometimes it comes off as though I idolize Jhene but I see her as a "human model" rather than a idol. I dont look at her as someone whose life I wish I had but instead I look at her as someone who has gone through life struggles just like me and we have both found ways to cope with it which makes everything she say so relatable and real(if that makes sense). I hate using the word "depressed" but there was a long point in my life where I was not happy at all; mostly throughout high school & a good portion of my college years. The reasons behind it is a bit difficult to explain because anyone who looked at me would think that there was no reason for my unhappiness since I had everything. I think it was just a combination of different things that any normal teenager would go through but again I think because of how sensitive I am the pain from those things alway felt more to me. I never liked how I looked, boy problems, my parents were way to harsh on me, I always felt alone (especially in high school), I felt worthless & I didn't feel like I had a purpose on this earth. There was never anyone I could turn to with the problems I faced which made dealing with this 10xs worse and there were so many times when I wanted to just end it all plain & simple. Fast forward to Jhene.. I listened to like a few songs when she was with B2K and when they where big but she went away for a while and came back in like 2011 with her mixtape. I loved her mixtape and it helped me just by the things she talked about being relatable. However the main reason why I am so fond of her is her introducing me to the philosophy of Buddhism and just helping me to look at life in completely different perspective than what I was looking at. I honestly believe if God didnt bring her to my attention that I would not be where I am today.
5. So going along with my previous fact, I have a great passion for Buddhism. I've been into this religion for the past couple of years now and although I dont actually identify myself as a Buddhist I love what the religion stands for. My favorite book is No death, no fear by a Buddhist teacher, Thich Nhat Hanh ( I think I've read it like a million times now) and my lifetime goal is to attend one of his conventions!
6. I hate labeling. I feel like labeling only sets you up for disappointment. For example if you label someone as your best friend you end up putting that person a pedestal where you expect alot of them. I have learned that no one is the same person as they were a year ago, yesterday, or even an hour ago. People change and how they were to you yesterday may not be how they will be to you tomorrow. I just don't expect alot from others and I don't label anyone anymore as my best friend, my associate, my friend or anything in that matter. It's a weird concept I go by but it works for me.
7. I love love love learning about different cultures. I am very open minded and I love seeing life through other people's eyes and what better way to do that then meeting people from different backgrounds.
8. I'm someone who is ALWAYS thinking of others. I am such a giving person and I tend to put others before myself & that has hurt me so many times in the past. I think the reason behind that is because I understand and know what it feels like to not always feel wanted and alone.
9. London used to be my getaway vacation trip but If I could go anywhere in the world it would be Thailand.
10. I actually think that I am the funniest person I know. Im aware of how extremely arrogant that is but I just find myself funny. haha
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