Hearing her talk about it, Jonas realized that he never apologized. He should’ve said something, done something, but he’d been so wrapped up in his own misery show that he just let her go. It was time to make things right. At least he would take try because it really wasn’t what she thought. He gently nudge her with his shoulder, encouraging her to look at him. They were finally having the opportunity to discuss things and he wasn’t about to let it pass. “I’m sorry, Aubrey. You tried to be there for me and I had the worst reaction. My dad and I had a very complicated relationship for years and I don’t know, I just… I was mad and I was hurt when I found out he left his club to that woman. It felt like being let down. Again. But I shouldn’t have reacted the way I did. I didn’t want it to interfere in our lives but what I didn’t realize is that I was allowing it to by not opening up to you. Instead of ignoring it, I should’ve told you how I felt even if it was hard. But this had nothing to do with you, babe. I didn’t mean to push you away and I regret. I loved you.. I love you, okay?”
He paused to consider everything he’d just said. There was more she didn’t know and he’d be happy to tell her if she wanted to know. His relationship with his dad was one of hurt, abandonment and missed opportunities that was affecting him well into his adult life, much to his dismay, but he was trying to move past that and hoped he would be given the opportunity to make things better. “And that’s why I’m ready to do this with you if you’re ready too. It’s not pity, I mean it. If you decide to keep it, I’m with you all the way”. She’d caught him red handed before he eventually realized that yes, he did want this baby. He wanted to be a father. But he also wanted to give her the space and time she needed to decide what was right for her. “I think I’d make a pretty good mom”, he smiled. He wiped her tears away and resisted the urge to tell her how beautiful she was. He fucking missed her and it was killing him. Although he never stopped loving her, he did fell in love with her all over again during the few weeks they’d spent together. “But there’s no pressure. Whatever you decide, I’m with you all the way. Everything’s going to be okay”.
not only talking through their situation was hard but also hearing him saying what was on his heart - his defense. but what she could feel from his words were rather an explanation and apology. sometimes, the things you do at a certain moment, you think that are good and that you behave in the best way that you can, but with the passage of time it can turn out that it was complete stupidity. unfortunately, this situation was exactly the case. but with her injury and memory loss it was much more complicated. “yes, you shouldn't have behaved that way. you should have done it in a different way.” aubrey said with a low voice. just being here, listening, talking, thinking - it was all very emotional. "but it was in the past and we can't change the past. we just have to deal with it, accept it or deny it. but right now we should focus more on the future."
tears falling down her face, there was finally a sign of much more happy emotion than just nervousness and fear which completely caught her - a sign of relieved smile appeared on her face. “if you could, you'd even carry the baby for the whole nine months instead of me, right?” if it was somehow possible, she bet that he would suggest such a thing. "you would be the best mom a baby could wish for. definitely better than I'll ever be.” even though he didn't have a good relationship with his father, aubrey didn't see this as something bad what could devaluate his qualities as a parent. it wasn't like she would be a bad parent, but somehow she could imagine him more as an exemplary person who is aware of all responsibilities and who will be an example for another (little) human being. "okay, everything is going to be okay." she slightly nodded as she agreed with him. “"nothing is clear yet. this was just a first step. a lot of things can happen. everything happens for a reason. I don't know if we are destined to be together, but maybe we are destined to be parents to a little girl or a boy. they said they could give me a pill that could end this probable pregnancy but I don't want that. if it's going to happen then let it happen. I may not be the best mother but I will try and I want you by my side.” looking at him with those watery eyes, she closed them for a second and took a deep breath. "we will have a baby." whispered, as she breathed out and opened her eyes again, aubrey couldn't help but the corners of her lips formed into a cute and shy smile.
