The story of my life

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Her eyes her beauty and the blood that rans threw her veins

Her laughter her jokes and her silly games

I fell love before her first breath even before I gave her a name

Her fingers her toes her honesty that puts me to shame

The way each of your discovery amazes you

The way you move me when you feel so blue

I know that love is real from that day I met you

Before I held you in my arms I knew it

I knew my life would was good and we made it

That long 9 months and one week

I was so frustrated that you were not here when it reached the last week

But as you get older and independent I would love one more day with me

I love your mistakes and embrace your success

Your words of wisdom and your sticky messes

I am sorry for not giving you the typical family

I can never make up for giving you just me

But I will never stop making happy

We may not be a whole family

But Love is how I want you to remember me...

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I am over, over the point to excepting

I am over trying to do things alone

I am over being alone

I am not angry of my position

I am just over trying to find a new solution

I am over other peoples findings

I can not expect to get what their love is

Or how they got their riches

I am on working on what I have

I am using my mind and hands

I am over putting my self aside

I am working on what I have inside

I am on searching on what is meant to be mine

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My internal world has a different perception of my external my imaginations takes over the reality of what could happen, than the actual. the influences of the media world turning expectancy to unrealistic reality My disappointments does not effect my future choices. criticism are back ground noises. ignoring the obvious to remain in my own bliss. So all the warnings i seem to miss. I don't see the problem with this being optimistic its like a drug gets you high when its done you way down. this is more natural in my brain cloud Stupidity is the word blissful ignorance i prefer if i get it wrong again why do you care.

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I am what I say I am

I make mistakes over convinced I have learnt my lesson

I am the gold fish and my world is the bowl

I am the half making a whole

I am the clown fish and Nemo is my freedom

I am the child gazing at wisdom

I am the mock,

that sings for its flock

I am the brick that made a home

I am the flower that grew from a stone

Love me hate me

Only the blind really see me

My tone of voice speakes truth through lies

And my desert eyes cry

Where my humour is deceptive

From your words my heart is collective

My choices are reflective

My results are motivating

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My sense compulsion has made the decision

To ruin my life, my lack of thought over feelings

Has given me a story to tell

But has brought me to the word they use hell

bad choices that made sense at that moment

Moments now just coping

The saying of you still young

stuck chocked in my lungs.

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Let me

Let me embrace the sun kiss

That hot mist

On my lenses and make my vision impaired

The summer feeling that makes me not care

Those silly words we share

Let me lay on the hard grass

like we have no class

being unaware of our surroundings

and the people that walk past

Let me cool your head with my shadow

With my shade I cover your heart from another arrow

Let me

Let me share these waters to keep you cool

Our back and forth actions acting like a fool

The making of love keeping us cool

Let me hear your voice of melody

Flowers sway to your love remedy

Children play in the park where you remember me

Let me guide your sun blocked eyes

into the field where our story lies

Let us place our foot steps in the sand

let waters wash it away while you hold my hand

I let you make the rest of our plans

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One day future love

Established and convinced that the moment you find it

You could take care of it

You got it all worked out ,that your mistakes moved you

So there can be no way you,

Could end up where you are that hurts you

Changing every aspect of your life

It doesn't make you perfect or right

But the way you handle things with your behaviour

You rebuild of your mind and character

So you get up brush your self off

Back on it nothing can put you off

But... you pause and realise, you only know what no to do

Non of your and experiences show you

What you are meant to do

We get to the point where you say

F it I was made this way

See the way I would love you that way

You were built for someone

And if I may be that one

Who am I to remake something else

That society excepts to sell

Is the same way he should love me

That first thing that got you get me

When things change I say remember me

I learned not to give up until... All I want has left me

When this circle I stand on is just me

Even then I will hold on with every appreciation

Made with decision caused by my emotion

To Love what God gave me I will choose to embrace YOU

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Clowns cry with a smile

Clowns play like fools while,

You Laugh

Clowns act tough

Pretending that things are fine

So you can feel good inside

You never see a clown cry

And people never ask why

Clowns are not smart

But they do have heart :-/

Behind all the colour

Is that colour going greyer

She does do her daily prayer

This Clown wishes she was others

Being able to speak with out that acquired stare

Because she also has stories to share

With out that petty feeling she bares

She wants Love like that wise woman she relates

A clown is known to have one life she is used to

But she wants more like other wise beautiful lifes she sees to

This clown never seems to fit

Her words make her like that screw with the wrong fit

People keep their distance but keep close,

I guess a little bit of them knows

That this foolish Clown

Is like every one else around

But she is a different sort of Girl.

This clown learnt with out speaking

She can stop Making

These comments that makes her want to be a different girl

This clown knows people see a fool

She knows people don't see anything more than a fool

But she shrugs it off in order to fit

Looking down at her big feet.

Now she is determined for her little seed not to turn into a clown

So she does not live under that cloud

So instead she grows knowing her beauty and heart

The seed can now grow to be smart.

This clown with a heart

May never have something to show

But the see sees her, as the smartest person she knows

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My mind is bowl of random decisions

everyday each one falls out at a edge of my emotion

When times are good I want to spend every soul moment with you

when times are bad I want to beat every part of you.

When you forget things I don't want to speak to you

Then those spontaneous things you do

Makes me think you are the most amazing fool,

My birthday was two month ago,

But what ever I love you.

I ask you for your opinion you say what you think,

I do the most dramatic thing

two days later I am washing out the street dirt

out of your white shirt.

But one decision remains no matter how stupid you are

or how much I prefer to love you from far

I rather you push my buttons than push me away,

I love the way you know Go means Stay

And how you prove that valentines day is just a day

By doing things each day before that day

Just to make a point

My point my emotions may sway

but my decision to love you like me will stay

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Can't move up when you are still under someone. To See the sky get out the shelter

experince

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Incredibility is the word that comes to me,

To see the world and look at it with envy

The misunderstanding of other individuality's prosperity

The Seen glory came with defeat

The shoes on the feet

Walked further than what your eyes can see

It is crazy to expect the destiny we did not give our selves

And complain the we go through hell

Yes to each his own

But not one was made to stand alone

Dreams stay dreams till we make it reality.

Or we simply live to die,

Death is not a place to ask why.

As moments slip by and you are still breathing

There is still time remaining

Stop Wasting with complaining

Its a What now movement

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I recognize the sound of love

The emotion is vague

The meaning is unclear

Touched by only the tip of my fingers

Brushed by the ends of my hair

I have walked on opposite sides of the river

And walked the same direction

Haven't ended at the same position

And my name has never been mentioned

I have paid the price

with no reward, even smiled and painfully nice

I have spoken his name but

words don't echo

I walked a while solo

But where this water joins i hold your hand

Together we will stand

A once half is a whole

Writing the scrolls

Of new love told

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My Guards are up because my security is broken

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