Charisma Putri

2am's were made for poets

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my midnight moon 🌙 my morning sun 🌞✨

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me: they get me wrong, i need them to know the truth

also me: i dont see the need of explaining myself

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shouting that's what they do barking for what you two?

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Katamu Tuhan tinggal dalam diri, tapi kau berdoa menatap langit tak menunduk menatap tubuh.

Seolah Tuhan begitu jauh

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Sungguh malang. Terbentang beribu samudra di antara aku dengan asa. Kalau saja puisi cinta adalah benar adanya. Semesta mendengar degub yang malu malu menampakkan wujudnya. Kemudian denganmu aku menua. Ah, sayangnya aku hanya hidup dalam dunia yang fana.

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🙍🏻have you ever missed someone so bad your heart crippled?

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I once met her in the halfway, she was pretty & plumpy.

I saw her today, she didn’t change. Just a lil bit wary. Where does the sparks go? The glare on her face fades. She didn’t smile, she didn’t cry either. She’s troubled.

But she didn’t change. The girl i met in the halfway. The girl; in the mirror.

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Aku pernah menjadi mentari bagi tata surya. Di teriknya gurun pasir akulah fatamorgana. Bagaikan O2 bagi ras manusia. Aku pernah. Sudah pernah, menjadi kamu.

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I’m pulling myself thousand times to not cry my heart out. But it feels hurt all over my body every time i try to burry away the memories. Then i decide to write.

I still remember that morning he asked me for a massage on his back, he’s ran out of breath. He wore his oxy-mask for hours.

Mom came from the kitchen with a bowl of soup for his lunch, then i excuse my self to take a shower. Not long after, i’m about to pour the warm water upon my head; i heard a scream. That scream, slashed my soul to pieces. My mom’s.

Then everything went so fast. I ran him to the hospital. Drove the car by my self (still wondering how, where's all the strength come from??). The doctor did all the helping procedures and im just standing there, with a major heartbreak.

Mom showed up from the emergency room. My pretty mama, the toughest bravest woman ive ever met

She whispered in my ear, God loves him more than us do, he’s already in the better place.

I lost all the strength that left. I cant even feel my feet.

And my heart, lately i know it’s not broken. It’s gone. Along with him in heaven..

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and it's true that you've reached a better place. still i'd give the whole world to see your face

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“… people we love can really get old and sick while we are busy sporting out our own existence.”

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🎧💗

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Aku terjaga semalam. Dibuat gelisah olehmu terkadang mengasyikkan. Adakala anganku berlebihan, hentikanlah jangan kau biarkan. Entah. Apa hanya aku; atau kah juga kamu? Memilih buta akan yang sebenarnya ingin ditau. Mengukir kamu di relung hatiku, terlalu lama kurasa. Adakah juga aku disana?

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Eid Mubarak 1436H✨

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My ultimate sad song. A major case of denial 🙅🏻🎧

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some people feel the rain, others just get wet.