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Changed my twitter password to a string of 20 digits, wrote it down, hid it in my AA Big Book
Names of playlists I've made on Spotify, by year
2012: heyday jams heavy machinery indulgent cocoa riffs ands or buts it's only pop music skip / hop text message
2013: 21 DRUNK ST. xxxmas merry xmasx working on things No New Friends
2014: warmed rain your party, darling xxxx cheer
2015: emotivation thugga thugg xxxxmas spirit working on things ii liquid courage country western
2016: this feels like a nightmare buprenorphine 8mg 2016 jammin kurt ~ travis autoturnt up heavy summer 16 pop style summer 16 is this a party, i feel good friendsgiving
2017: summer 17 rap lamping in the dark reasons to bikeride sober after dusk " FALL '17 " WINTER '17/18
2018: xmas for sugarplum fairies (the good stuff) the children R we love you very very very very very very much art official 2018 shit was like a movie try to cover these live fast die etcetera claimin prego rhythm and poetry et al TO LIFE! LIFE 2.0.0 back roads to a party radio station
2019: giddy emo for a new america emo dewey decimal system summerpack becomes fallpack icepack for a burning winter love 2019 in the face i can see it emo lullabies for man babies and my other friends north peters colony road now i got the juice now im feelin loose wine pod songs on repeat are bootstraps real honest day's work (country)
2020: work work work work work do you wanna have a picnic singin a song in the morning pink sugar songs 2020 u know the fuckn vibes vote for hardcore cover these frank dhl & in my room Slow Yr Roll
2021: drake greece & laugh now posted by thomas low end bf etc. music blues is now kickin' in our year of 2021 diner jukebox from where the wind blow nunchucks lol god told me hit a lick you were a dream... the desire for light produces light
2022: DJ AUSTIN~~~ talk like a lick.. fallpack 2021 good at drugs sticker and that's on gospel cause yr sweeeet another go the dream police soup szn 1.5 soup szn 2 soup szn 3
2023: brunch szn 3 soup szn 4 guitar szn space heater? it's go time... bougie no. 4 - fleur d'oranger habanero bbq almond happy joyous free candied ginger fixing to be a moving picture 20 songs? waiting for the 2 how are ya man? propinquity 幕 arriving
OCTOBER 2023 MEDITATION LOG
this was inspired by an assignment in my english 101 class. it prompted us to watch/read some mainstream articles/vids about meditation and try meditating for 3 days in a row, then write about it.
Fri, Sep 29 1:05am Watched the Light Watkins TedX video. Interest was piqued when he said that meditation brings a deeper rest than is possible in sleep. Then he went on and on about the difference in biological age when you meditate. Excited to try more rigorous meditation schedule. Meditated 1:35-1:45am, was really nice. Came close to falling asleep a couple times, I am very tired. Felt grateful to be living in the city hearing rain sounds on the street.
Sat, Sep 30 9:01pm Took a break from anatomy notes & electronic music to meditate 10 mins. Had a hard time keeping my mind off [redacted]. The things that were difficult then would be easier now that I’ve matured and relaxed a bit. But [redacted].
Sun, Oct 1 10:38am Tried to do 10 min meditation during AA meeting but had to poop after like 4 mins. Did 10 full mins after meeting ended. It’s easier in the mornings, but I can feel I have lost the groove to a large degree. Still, morning meditation is simpler. By the evening my brain is usually in full pleasure-seeking mode. Mornings I’m usually reeling a bit from soreness and stiffness.
Mon, Oct 2 8:45pm Did 10 mins sitting up. It’s wild how my body is aware that it’s tired but my mind ignores it, until I try to meditate sitting up and have to fight off sleep over and over. Maybe I should turn in early tonight. When I was awake, I was releasing thoughts about food and women, as usual. Laughed a bit to myself remembering how excited [redacted] was to find the “hidden veggies” pasta recipe on TikTok.
Tue, Oct 3 1:19pm Late start today. Brewed coffee then laid down to meditate before drinking it. Lot of sexy thoughts bouncing around! Hard to bring my racing mind down today. Probably because I didn’t sleep well. This is somehow becoming both a mediation and a sleep log.
Wed, Oct 4 9:40am 10 min meditation during morning meeting.
Thu, Oct 5 12:28pm Had been sinking into phone-greyout, scrolling haze, absolute oblivion, and needed a break. 10 min meditation was the only thing that could work. Counted breaths for most of the 10 mins, after english prof. explained during class that counting breaths is the important part of '20 breaths' meditation. It def helped during 10 min meditation. Leg pain was distracting so toward the end started stretching a bit. Feel refreshed and ready to sit down for some studying before work.
Fri, Oct 6 11:52am Watched the Andy Puddicombe Ted Talk. I liked his analogy about knowing you have a loose tooth and continuing to mess with it even though you’re in pain. Meditated for 10 mins. Feel less overwhelmed about how many things I need to do this afternoon. I’m calmer and more apt to work through them in an organized manner without resorting to distractions. Thought about what to say to [redacted], thought about doing dishes and stretching and listening to new Drake album and taking anatomy notes and making a doctor’s appointment. Tried to recenter and focus on breaths a few times.
Sat, Oct 7 10:30am Meditated during morning meeting.
Sun, Oct 8 9:51am Meditated during morning meeting. Thought about my plans for the day (going to NYC to have dinner with my aunt), thought about my mom and my grandma, thought about the family counselor Dr. Prakash who taught me to meditate in 4th grade. Used breath counting to help 'let go' of thoughts and return to quiet mind.
Mon, Oct 9 9:50am Meditated during morning meeting but was kinda drifting in and out of sleep.
8:45pm Went to [redacted]. It got kinda intense but [redacted]. Decided to decompress by meditating together for 10 minutes. It was beautiful and memorable.
Tue, Oct 10 2:10pm Read ½ of NYT meditation article then set 10 min timer to meditate. Lots of thoughts running through my head, I can be so obsessive about personal stuff. Was good to have a break from that, even though I didn’t really want the break, I wanted to keep obsessing. Post-break though, I feel better. Body is really sore since I’ve gotten 17k steps, two days in a row. So before the 10 mins were up I got out of my chair and started doing some stretches with eyes closed. Love combining stretches and closed eye meditation. Definitely feel better now, and my 'mindfulness muscle' is getting a tiny bit stronger each day. I find it easier to return to the centered calmness of counting breaths.
Wed, Oct 11 Didn’t meditate
Thu, Oct 12 10:47am Meditated 10 mins after morning meeting. Really out of the groove today but tried to just count 100 breaths. Thought about chopping wood for work, about sex, about being messy in romantic relationships, about stretching after meditation, about the kid in my math class who seems to be following along better than anyone else.
Fri, Oct 13 Didn’t meditate
Sat, Oct 14 9:45am Meditated during morning meeting.
Sun, Oct 15 2:01pm Took a break from studying anatomy to meditate. Was sort of fighting off sleep part of the time. Said simple prayers to ask for God’s will to be done, and to discover what that will is. Prayed also for a loving and generous spirit in my heart.
Mon, Oct 16 11:00pm Meditated 10 mins after looking at Twitter/Reddit for ~3 hours. I think I need to try 15 or 20 minute meditations because sometimes I find myself totally distracted and overstimulated for more than half of a 10 minute meditation. That was the case this time. At some points I opened my eyes and just stared at the wall to keep from thinking about downtown Montreal, or applying to a Master’s program in 5 years, or how I had a bad attitude at work the other day.
Tue, Oct 17 12:14pm Been feeling emotionally unhinged lately, lowkey lashing out at people. Trying to redirect. Meditation is a good starting place. Meditated 10 minutes and had to stop myself over and over from planning out my day. How much time will I spend in the restaurant working on prep? How much time on schoolwork? Will I have time to pick up a cleaning project? Could I meditate for 10 minutes on the clock? Who will I see there and what will the vibe be when I talk to them? Used breath counting to reel in some of the thoughts. Asked God for help. I have a long way to go toward being centered, organized, disciplined. Please, God, help me make some progress today.
Wed, Oct 18 Didn’t meditate
Thu, Oct 19 10:30am Meditated in morning meeting. Feel at peace with my life, with who I am and where I’m at, with my propensity for anxiety, for mistakes, for seeing things through a distorted lens. I’m gonna keep learning and I’m gonna be okay.
Fri, Oct 20 10:30am Meditated in morning meeting. Had trouble staying quiet mentally. In the meeting we talked about the 'confusion' that exists without a spiritual connection. Thought about how meditation and confusion are like exact opposites. Lot of confusion and noise for me lately. Meditation must be one of the main solutions. Not just meditation but a meditation practice. Prayer as well, I need more of that. Talked about meditation with my sponsor later. He recommended I try the 'toes-to-head' meditation.
Sat, Oct 21 9:00am Made coffee then meditated for 10 mins before meeting.
9:45am Meditated for 10 mins in morning meeting. It felt good to get more time in. Would like to do one longer session but 10x2 was easy and felt very calming.
Sun, Oct 22 9:30am Set a timer and laid on yoga mat to meditate for 10 minutes. Said a prayer for my mom and grandma, who are going through a difficult time. Had to keep returning to baseline as I kept fantasizing about sex with [redacted], who I’ve been texting. Sex is a constant refrain for my tired brain, I think I’m subconsciously convinced that there’s some simple relief there. But intellectually I know it’s never that simple, relationships are complicated and usually come with more stress than being single. Important to talk myself down from these underlying desires.
Mon, Oct 23 Didn’t meditate. Busy day, but I think I need to start finding more time. It’s possible to replace some of my phone-scrolling time with meditation every day, sometimes I just don’t do it. This log is helping me stay accountable and showing me what I need to change to meditate more.
Tue, Oct 24 12:45pm Meditated 10 mins laying on yoga mat. Was really able to start calm with deep breaths, maybe because I was laying down. Often I start with a hectic mind and try to calm it for the first 5 mins.
Wed, Oct 25 10:30am Didn’t meditate? Can’t remember
Thu, Oct 26 11:45am Meditated 10 mins. Sick with a cold, hopefully not worse. Did not want to meditate but do feel a bit better
Fri, Oct 27 9:48pm Meditated 8 mins. Got antsy during the last two. Feeling very baby because the cold is actually a flu or something. Lots of schoolwork to do before tomorrow night. Trying to stay calm and not get overwhelmed.
Sat, Oct 28 8:15pm Meditated 10 mins which led to me napping for another 30. Very ill but still going to work and studying. Sad!
Sun, Oct 29 Did not meditate. Walked for 2 hours listening to an old interview with Brad Phillips, he talked a lot about 12 step program, psychedelic drug experiences, Zen vs. Tibetan Buddhism. Helpful for pondering meditation and how to consider it in my life.
Mon, Oct 30 10:45am Meditated 10 mins after morning meeting. Health is improving slightly. Trying to spend the day doing work, chores, service to others, or meditative things like prayer, listening to spiritual talks, walking. Trying to leave alone the chaotic, noisy things that are really perpetuating my discomfort and dissatisfaction.
Tue, Oct 31 2:03pm Meditated 10 mins after writing for English class, before going for a walk and calling my sponsor. Turns out I had covid. At least it's almost over. Same with October. What's next.
flying high by travis scott
unroll both yoga mats
picking urban sprawl out my fingernail
i know where my loyalty lies
you must have been listening
it's fine i'll do it
say it again for the me in the back
for the you in back of me
someone has my back i know
what it sounds like when god speaks
impossible
i'm a disappeared celebrity or
a prominent nobody or
a little in between
turkey and habanero jack
whatever language suits the situation
i might choose to employ
dark horse, wildcard, maverick
peeking around a corner
hands around a pistol
extended clip of blanks
mondays i like
a lot of noise
on mondays i need silence
We published 17 things in 2021
Ghosts by Brad Phillips The Dog by Stacey Levine two stories by Willy Miwa Genesis by Lily Arnell I’m Not Here to Commit Any Crimes by Zac Smith Rainbow by Precious Okoyomon Omens, Portents, Comets by Jon Lindsey three poems from l-theanine by Willis Plummer Holding Your Breath So You Don’t Have to Breathe So Much Sometimes by Zac Smith Giancarlo DiTrapano (1974-2021) by various PCP by Anna Dorn I Feel Like My Own Life Would Be Better and All of Their Lives Would Also Be Better by Clancy Martin The Last Time I Saw My Father by Elizabeth Ellen The Jealous Type by Aoko Matsuda Drainstoppers by Natalya Malick What It Was Like, What Happened, & What It’s Like Now by Brad Phillips The Swan by Lily Arnell
official / original / alternate flyers for jesse prado’s ‘an evening of hella 4′ reading
remind me to change my passwords
should i write on my blog
what should i write on my blog
any blogs
listening to the new duster album on taotronics earbuds
knock-off beats by dre they are good
had coffee for bfast
and rew almonds. thought of the line in shrill which they put in the trailer where aidy bryant says ‘sometimes when i have six almonds, it feels like i had twelve almonds’
been thinkin of a girl named cassie
instead of saying god did something she says the universe did it
basically i find that so good in a person that i want to hear it all the time
what do you guys think
sike i don’t care what y’all think
on the train yesterday or on the bus, because i have to take one bus and one train to get from my home in west passyunk to my work in northern liberties, i was reading caca dolce by chelsea martin and after a couple of essays that felt like ok i am just reading this waiting to have a feeling about something, then i had a feeling after i finished the essay about her gross stepdad
the feeling was what i do not like when people write about these things from childhood of when the family unit feels broken and they get charity food and they don’t relate well to their peers
skin crawled a little and then it was over and i looked out the window and chewed on it for a second before realizing that i related to it obviously and obviously the skin crawl feeling was a cool effect it had on me and then i felt excited to keep reading
hmm what else
designing xmas card. well i did it already. did i phone it in, hard to tell. it doesn’t look how it looked in my mind’s eye
when i got up i listened to the new spoon song and the new travis barker song with lil wayne and rick ross and i listened to new jenny lewis demos and then i listened to jenny lewis album and thought about jordan castro
took a few hours to remember to ask jordan if he had the same mailing address to send him new stickers i made
should i drink coffee some more
called steven arc and left him a message in my deep voice that i had just woken up with and i said ‘hello mr. arc’ in an agent smith voice
is that his name
then steven called back and he had to poop and vomit waiting for the bus
then he got home and called again and we talked about internet culture and other culture and his piece for nytyrant magazine and how he’s gonna re do it but it’s gonna be a cross between the one he already did and i guess the movie boyhood? i wanted to say boyhood but i didn’t in the convo but surely he thought of that because he likes movies
suzanne decided that boyhood was like her favorite movie i think before she died
been watching bojack horseman with liam lately. like i will get home from work having closed the kitchen and taken a train and then a bus home and then liam will be up and he will smell a little like whiskey or whatever and he will be like half looking at his phone and half watching bojack horseman, this has happened three or four nights in the past couple of weeks, and so many times, like three times, he has said ‘how have i already seen this episode’ or ‘i remember i saw this season already’ but he thinks there’s part of the season he hasn’t seen or something and i relate to that because i forgot that there were five seasons and i’d seen them all i guess
i remember projecting the most recent season onto the wall at my old apartment and getting real high and falling asleep or going in and out of seeing the episodes. that was when it was still last winter and i was afraid of something in the apartment upstairs
paranoia paranoia everybody’s out to get me, ya know?
i don’t know
do you think if someone is good at kissing they’re gonna be good at sex? or they can learn to be good at sex? is it boring if someone is... forgot how to do sex but they’re going to learn real quick
i’ve been learning things real quick this year, thank you god
thank you god for how i’ve been doing things this year
thank you god for my family and friends
thank you god for my body is in one piece still
thank you god for my job and how my kidneys work and i can drink coffee
thank you god for headphones that don’t have a cord to the audio device because they are cordless
thank you god for raw almonds
thank you god for tumblr is still alive and i can do whatever i set my mind to
thank you god for the words ‘thank you god’
thank you god for voice memos
and for my guitar it’s the same epiphone sg i’ve had for over ten years
been looking at facebook again, it’s fine
it’s literally... this is fine
are you in a headspace to look at facebook that might harm you
yes bro i’m there
i’m right here
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