Warnings: Mentions of self hatred, depression,18+ material
Subject: Angst, Romance, Smut
Chapter: 4 / ?
Previous
Summary:
You hated yourself…
well more like your body…
You hated how you had to wear shirts three times other girls sizes just so you could feel comfortable but then it would be very clear that you were bigger than others. You hated how your thighs flattened like large pancakes when you sat anywhere, how they chaffed so easily in shorts…
You watched as your friends experienced love all around you. Smiling and cheering them on for being happy while you silently knew you would never be loved because of your size.
But when your walking home one day you meet a mysterious guy asleep under front yard tree, hat covering his identity as the wind blew autumn leaves down over his body.
We all live in the same fucked up world. Whether the difference be language, race, etc; we all live on earth. And we all have the same thoughts and feelings
Im going to be updating his cinnamom roll today. 💕💕 sorry its been so long. Been going through some shit, still am but oh well. More material for stories i guess
But first ill answer yalls asks and then update cinnamon roll and then work om the requests
I am really sad yo hear that u feel that way. I my opinion everyone should be love for what he is. My family has been mocking me my whole life for not having the Perfekt body and that depressed me so much, that now I have worse body problems. I know exactly how u feel. That no one will ever love u because u are not like other skinny girl. But that is the wrong way to think. U are beautiful and worth loving no matter how much u weight. Don't let these ppl tell u otherwise💖💖😍 love u sweety
Thank you sweetie. This made me smile 😊 im sorry your famikt sucks enough to male you unhappt but im sure your beautiful as well ❤❤
Hiii! Aah..I don't even know where to begin to tell you how amazing your cinnamon roll series are! I can relate to the character so much, sometimes it seems as you've just written my own thoughts and feelings. Thank you very very much for your work, and i hope you are well! ^^
Awww bb. To be comoletely honest im writing the story with my own thoughts and feelings. Everything she feels or does is something i have thought or felt. So yall are not alone and youll never be alone ❤❤❤ im going through it as well. Thank you for sending me an ask 💕
His cinnamon roll is so beautiful I'm actually crying. I never related to something so much I feel like you're writing about me xD expect no one would talk to me like that. I just wanted to thank u for this amazing story cuz most fics with chubby reader would just talk about some fat at the tummy or slightly too big tights. But this is the first one I read that I could relate to. I love ur writing style as well and can't wait for the next chapter 💖
OOOO i love this so much thank you bb! Ill continue to write in this writing style for you ❤ AND SOMEONE WILL LOVE YOU FOR YOU BECAUSE I DO AND I DNT EVEN KNOW YOU. NEVER GIVE UP JUST KEEP PUSHING ON BB
Warnings: Mentions of self hatred, depression,18+ material
Subject: Angst, Romance, Smut
Chapter: 4 / ?
Previous
Summary:
You hated yourself...
well more like your body...
You hated how you had to wear shirts three times other girls sizes just so you could feel comfortable but then it would be very clear that you were bigger than others. You hated how your thighs flattened like large pancakes when you sat anywhere, how they chaffed so easily in shorts...
You watched as your friends experienced love all around you. Smiling and cheering them on for being happy while you silently knew you would never be loved because of your size.
But when your walking home one day you meet a mysterious guy asleep under front yard tree, hat covering his identity as the wind blew autumn leaves down over his body.
Jung Hoseok was his name...
a name you came to love...
~
You use to question why no one hardly talked to you. Why you werent really one of the cool kids. But eventually you grew use to being alone. Alone with your poisonous thoughts that eventually fell silent. But staring up at the one person who wanted nothing but to throw your life into chaos; your heart couldnt help but race.
"I dont want to leave you alone." He repeated as he rubbed at your cheeks agian, the cold stinging the cold tears. "I see sadness in your eyes (y/n)-." He paused as he smiled a bit, stepping closer to you, the crunch of his feet in the snow soothing your nerves a bit. "ever since i moved here I've seen it..."
and so what? That didnt answer my question... "Hoseok let me go." You muttered grabbing at his hands that squeezed your cheeks. Anger growing rapid as you looked at his smiling face. "Why would you ever want to talk to someone like me..." You muttered; more and more of your inner thoughts wanting to spill out as you grew more emotional. And for some reason it felt like you could spill to hoseok...
"Someone like you?" Hoseok repeated as he removed his hands and cupped them with your cold ungloved ones, once again your heart raced and you tensed at his warm touch. "theres nothing wrong with you though..." He smiled dipping his head closer to your own until your foreheads touched.
Normally you would want to tear away form this but you felt forever stuck on hoseok. That was the first time no one has ever insulted you... The first time you believed a compliment.... But then the thought of the skinny cute girl that clearly liked hoseok rushed back to you. your eyes returning to a glossy state as you told yourself, ill never be like her... "Let me go..."
You pushed away from hoseok, the sound of snow crunching under your feet as you stepped back from the only person that liked you for you it seemed like. "(y/n)-."
"no." You interrupted, wiping at your face and pulling your signature fake smile. "I'm fine. Just ready to go home. I'll see you at school tomorrow." You smiled as you heart tightened in sadness as you quickly jogged home. The cold air running through your lungs as you breathed heavily from your movements almost made you not realize how hard you were crying... almost.
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You knew it seemed selfish to hate yourself as much as you did or to not want to be here anymore.... You knew that people had it wayyy worse than you did. That kids were out there getting raped, molested, murdered, ec. To be locked up and told to keep quiet about things to be in so much fear that death is nothing but a blanket to them. But for you it seemed like an redo button.
It was like that decision game. The 'if you press the button' game. if you press the button you get to start your life over but you lose everything you ever had with friends, family etc. Normally you would say that you would slam the fuck out of the button but you wouldnt...
You loved what little friends you had, the small escapes you found, and your parents... They loved you for you
So while you sat there in your room crying like you were now, you couldnt help but cry harder. This always happens... You start crying over something small and then think of all the reasons you should or should not be crying. And that just makes you cry harder.
But this time was different... You could still hear his voice... The feeling of his hands on you...
you’ve never felt so happy before.
~
"I haven't seen your dress yet (y/n)." Jessica sang as her hands wrapped around you from behind, head digging into the crook of your neck as she sighs. "You always are so comfy (y/n)~ i love it." She sang into your ear making you forget that you had balled your eyes out the other night.
"You'll see it tomorrow night." you smiled as she removed her hold from you and faced you directly. Jessica always visits you in homeroom before classes start. You’d normal share a blueberry muffin together as she spills about her night with her boyfriend.
You loved listening to her stories and all the feelings she felt. It was like you could feel them through her and it was a amazing, scary and unique. "well im looking forward to it then." She smiled as you followed her out of your homeroom classroom seeing that the bell was about to ring for homeroom to start.
"I'll see you at lunch then-."
Your voice is silenced as you come face to face with Hoseok. His large brown eyes staring into yours as jessica lets out a simple, "Oh hey hoseok. You're the new guy right?" She spoke casually to him but his eyes wouldn't leave your own.
His words from yesterday rang in your head as he looked at you...
theres nothing wrong with you...
He didnt know me. Not at all. you could be some child killer and yet here he was saying there was nothing wrong with you. "Hey." He smiled his signature bright smile as he looked at you and then jessica. "can i borrow (y/n) for a second?" He questioned Jessica as he already began to drag you away from the classroom.
"um okay?" Jessica called towards your moving bodies as you looked back at her worried and confused face.
ill tell you later... You silently promised her as hoseok pushed the two of you through the side building exit doors and the cold winter air kissed your skin. You hissed at the temp change and then ripped your hand from hoseoks. "Class is going to start soon so-."
"Its only homeroom." He interrupted again as he grabbed your arm from going back inside. "Can I ask you something thats been bothering me?"
He questioned and you felt like your heart jumped to your throat. He looked at you as snow began to fall, a slight breeze pushing the falling flakes into his hair and your own. His eyes held seriousness and so did his unmoving lips. "um... sure?"
You questioned as you tugged your arm away from him again accepting his annoyance and listening to him. "Do you hate yourself?"
how could someone just ask that? your body froze as time moved slowly. As if he was repeating his words in slow motion, lips curling in and out over the syllables as you tried to find an answer for him. To maybe just give the answer you would give anyone else who actually cared to ask... to say no.
Warnings: Mentions of self hatred, depression,18+ material
Subject: Angst, Romance, Smut (in the future??? idk yet lol)
Chapter 3 / ?
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Summary:
You hated yourself...
well more like your body...
You hated how you had to wear shirts three times other girls sizes just so you could feel comfortable but then it would be very clear that you were bigger than others. You hated how your thighs flattened like large pancakes when you sat anywhere, how they chaffed so easily in shorts...
You watched as your friends experienced love all around you. Smiling and cheering them on for being happy while you silently knew you would never be loved because of your size.
But when your walking home one day you meet a mysterious guy asleep under front yard tree, hat covering his identity as the wind blew autumn leaves down over his body.
Jung Hoseok was his name...
a name you came to love...
~
You wanted to ask him why he would even care to the likes of you. You were just some chunky girl around school that no one hardly talked to. From his looks it was easy to tell that he was a popular guy. That he probably had tons of girls wanting one second with him and your position.
He really was weird... strange actually. Firstly he was your neighbor that liked napping under your front yard tree... and now he was wanting to become buddy buddy with you. What was up with him?
A few more days pass. Of course he tried to talk to you every second he could. During school people would look at the two of you questioning why he would even look your direction. Feeling the hatred eyes of many was a new feeling to you. You hated it just as much as you hated judgmental stares you would get for your appearance.
But when he would try talking to you on the way home you kinda had no problem answering his questions. You werent really relaxed around him just yet. Just because he wanted to ask you about school and small personal questions didnt mean you wanted to ask him any.
It was hard talking to someone that made your heart race. You told yourself several times that he is not interested in you in anyway. That it is not a possibility because - look at you.
Your eyes would roam over your naked body in the bathroom mirror. Heat staining the sides of the mirror as the shower ran... you would just frown and shrug your shoulders telling yourself that it doesnt matter. But in your head it did matter...
You always over thought things and this was one of those things. Hoseok was constantly on your mind after meeting him, his hat still hung on the back of your door.
"You going to prom with your friends?" Hoseok asked as you closed your locker getting ready to leave for the day. His smiling face made your heart race with fear and something else. It was just the sudden appearance and question that frightened you. It was his words that made your heart squeeze.
Hes wondering about susan and jessica.... you smirked at yourself as you pieced it all together. Of course he didnt care about you. He was just one of the other guys-
"Wow." Hoseok interrupted as he suddenly caressed your chubby cheek. "You're really pretty today." He smiled making your heart race and your previous thoughts fly out the window. "Wonder what youll look like this weekend at prom..." he spoke softly for once your time of knowing him.
"What?" You questioned softly as the last bell rang and people began pushing past you two to leave school.
"Im excited to see you on prom duh." He rubbed your head softly before being thrown a bit forward with a groan.
"Hoseokkkkkkkk~~."
excited to see me? Your eyes drank in the beautiful figure of the girl that jumped on hoseoks back, smile eating at his neck as she kissed it quickly. Your chest tightened as you watched the couple like scene.
"get off." Hoseok spoke in annoyance as he removed the beautiful girl and wiped his neck. As the girl stood on her feet you couldn't help but look at her tiny figure. She was so cute and small. If you were to try anything like what she just did to him you would surely hurt him....
The thought of actually jumping on his back and hearing him groan from the large weight made you frown a little. There you go again... Talking back about yourself.... It was a bad habit to break. To watch everyone else do things that you knew you couldn't do. As in watching two people canoe together. There has to be weight distribution and that means you would be placed in the back with two people in the front... Not that you've done that. It was just a thought scenario.
"see ya." You begin to duck away with your self hatred and leave the couple be until hoseok grabs your chubby hand with his slender one.
"Wait." He muttered softly before turning back to the girl who was now giving you daggers. "see ya later. " He waved the pretty girl off before walking ahead of you; tugging you with him out the school doors.
You looked at the connection he held your hand in. You cringed at the clear size difference... Your chubby fingers against his long skinny ones... You thought of the cute girl again and how she probably looked compared to you as well. "Hoseok let go." You spoke softly at first.
But it seemed that hoseok didn't hear you at all as his feet just moved in the direction of your neighborhood. Luckily you both lived close to the school; pausing on the bridge as your heart finally cant take it anymore and you tare your hand from his. "I said let go." You grunted as you pull you hand back to your side, hoseoks eyes widening to yours.
"Sorry." He smiled and chuckled softly as he rubbed the back of his neck, feet shuffling on the snow crunching ground. "Did i squeeze too tight?"
no... You were tired of this. Tired of being played with. It may have only been a few days but having his presence around you gave you the wrong impression. You were starting to believe he actually liked you.... Saying you were pretty and shit when he clearly has a girlfriend. A cute tiny one.... But here he was. Holding you hand, calling you cute, giving you his hat, and following you around like a lost puppy.
"Why?"
You found yourself speaking in the cold breezed silence that floated between you two. Your head lowering from his smiling eyesight as your fist tighten by your sides. Being around him had made you hate yourself alot more. You looked at yourself too much everyday now... Sometimes in the back of your head you wondered if you looked good for him. ha.
"Why what?" Hoseok repeated, his feet shuffling like he was trying to catch eyesight with you again.
But you couldn't do it. You were so confused, lost in your thoughts and seeing that girl hug on to him easily. Her thigh gap, skinny arms, slender face.... She was beautiful. And seeing her kiss on his neck as she did....
"You should leave me alone you know." You began chuckling as your throat burned, your head racing with more evil thoughts as the cold winter winds brushed any exposed skin you had.
Silence drifted between you two and for a moment you lifted you head to see if he was still there. But as you opened your eyes you came to see that you had blurry vision and that meant if you blinked you would break in front of him. But you couldn't stop your bodily function...
Tears slipped down your face as you stared at hoseoks thin emotionless face. His hair tossed in the wind as he looked at you, stepping closer as he rubs your tears off your face.
"I'll never leave you alone (y/n)."
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I'm in love with this story btw.
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like i said many times before. This story is completely unedited and straight from my mind in like the matter of seconds. So yeah it may be rushed? but oh well. I love it.
I'm really enjoying "His Cinnamon Roll"!! As a bigger girl myself, who has definitely had these thoughts before, it's nice to see stories with chubby representation lol. I like the way your setting it up, can't wait to see where you take it :D
Yeah honestly being anything bigger in general today is something frowned upon. And that i do not totally understand. Big is beautiful. And i like the way im setting it up as well. Its like quick yet slow? idk its kinda just the product of my mind racing real quickn and just writing whatever came to mind. So im really happy to see people like you love it <3 there needs to be more chubby girl stories <3
So i got caught up in stuff today. Ill do a late post of his cinnamon roll or just post tomorrow. Im going camping though so idk. Ill try and post. I should have a hotspot on my phone and i can use it real quick to post and shit hahaha. Anyway ilysm. Send me questions if you have any ❤❤❤💕💕
I wanna give "His cinnamon roll" five stars. Its so good so far. I like that the story is about a bigger girl seeing as I'm not exactly small, makes me smile. Most FF I read are about smaller girls but your out here showing some love to us plus size hobi Stans. Can't wait for the next chapter.
Yeah exactly. Thats why im writing this story. You never see thicc girl stories. And my little hobi stan heart needs this story as well. Im so happy to hear you like it enough to give it 5 stars lol i guess ill make the chapters longer now then 💕 anyway after work today ill get working on 2 more chapters or just a really long chap. But any ideas you want to see possibly? Make my head think while im working pls hahaha.
His Cinnamon Roll is really cute so far💖💖 tho it's hits a lil too close to home 😭
Honestly everything that you see the girl feeling or thinking about is everything ive thought about being a plus size. Even though i love my size haha and im hoping to make ypu guys love yourselfs as well through this experience. 😊💕 im happy to hear you are liking it so far - zoie
Warnings: Mentions of self hatred, depression,18+ material
Subject: Angst, Romance, Smut (maybe idk yet lol)
Part 2 / ?
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Summary:
You hated yourself...
well more like your body...
You hated how you had to wear shirts three times other girls sizes just so you could feel comfortable but then it would be very clear that you were bigger than others. You hated how your thighs flattened like large pancakes when you sat anywhere, how they chaffed so easily in shorts...
You watched as your friends experienced love all around you. Smiling and cheering them on for being happy while you silently knew you would never be loved because of your size.
But when your walking home one day you meet a mysterious guy asleep under front yard tree, hat covering his identity as the wind blew autumn leaves down over his body.
Jung Hoseok was his name...
a name you came to love...
~
A few days passed since that weird encounter with that guy. You hung his hat on the back of your bedroom door thinking about the next time you would see him would be. Mainly because you saw him enter the house a few houses down from your own so it was clear he lived close to you and probably went to the same school.
But also because his words still rang clear in your head. "pretty..." You replayed that saying you only ever heard your friends and family say to you. To hear it from a strangers mouth had you feeling like you were on some kind of high.
As you looked at yourself in the school bathroom mirror you remembered to tell yourself that your probably just over thinking things again. He probably muttered something else and gave you the hat- Well actually you had no idea why he would give you the hat, let alone linger his hand on your chubby fucking cheek before sprinting away like the weirdo he was.
You bit the inside of your cheek as you sighed and returned back to history class. You hated sitting in that class when it was unnecessary to. As in it was 'study time' therefore that was another word ion a different language for everyone to start talking instead of actually working on the task at hand.
You didn't have any friends in that class so sitting there while everyone talked made you feel so alone. You would take the occasional extra minutes as you walked back to class trying to disappear from the awkward atmosphere in the loud classroom a bit more.
Feet swinging over the hallway tiles as you felt with each step you took the jiggle of your thigh. You've always wondered if everyone saw just how much your legs actually jiggled when you walked. Seeing it in pants like this was probably not even possible but in shorts it was a defiant possibility.
"what happened to the hat I got you Hobi~?"
An annoying light voice made you head lift from staring at the patterns on the hallway floor., Eyes adjusting to the two figures that leaned against the wall as they spoke. The boy called 'hobi' had his head cocked up, jaw clenching in annoyance or something else as the girl with long blonde locks spoke to him about this 'hat'.
Continuing with your walk back to class you couldn't help but glance at the figures identities as they grew closer to yourself. eyes widened as you notice the same guy from a few days ago. 'pretty...' You bit you lip as his eyes lock on your from a moment, time freezing a bit before you tear your stare away and continue to class.
You clutched at your racing heart asking yourself why you should even be as flushed as you were from just a stare. "Are you even listening to me?" The girl questioned behind your walking body her annoying voice echoing off the halls as it slowly fades out the further you get from the two.
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Your walk home is just like every other walk you took home. Taking the long way back, watching the creek under the bridge you cross before getting to your house. You always paused at the tiny bridge, wicked thoughts eating at the back of your head wishing it was bigger so you could jump... But then you would just shake your head and try to move on with your boring life.
There was no reason to kill yourself just because you couldn't fit into a size 4. You've came to realization with that after middle school. You saw how there were others girls like you around your school. Walking around with larger clothes on and a smile on their faces. So you tried to be like them.
To fit in to something for once...
Your thoughts are silenced as you see a figure press itself against the side of the bridge that you leaned against as well. His brunette hair fluffed in the autumn wind as your eyes drifted onto his figure. it was him...
"Why didn't you say hi to me earlier?" He questioned as he crossed his arms on the bridge ledge, chin pressing into his own muscle as he watching the autumn debris float on with the river.
um because i dont know you... Is what you wanted to say. But as you watched him crumble up a leaf and let the pieces fall in the river you couldn't find a way to open your mouth. There was something about this weird guy. A strange presence and aura to him.
"Have you ever wished that this was a bigger bridge? deeper water under it?" He questioned making your eyes widened and heart skip a beat to his thought. You knew exactly where he was going with this whether he knew that you caught on or not. "I want to go bungee jumping."
He smiled wildly at your frozen beating body. oh. was all you could think as you stared at the guy named 'hobi.' He wasn't meaning what you were meaning moments ago when the thoughts crossed your mind. duh (y/n). not everyone hates themselves like you do.
"Sounds f-fun..." You muttered a response making his eyes open wide to your voice. "and uh your ha-hat-."
"keep it." He waved his hand with a flick of his wrist. Your thoughts fleeting back to that poor girl who clearly wanted him to have that hat... You felt a little ping of pain in your chest for that girl. She probably loves him. "Anyway I just moved her a few weeks ago. I like the tree in front of your house." He paused scoffing at himself as you stood there still motionless. "It's calming to lay under."
"Why would you need to be calm?" You questioned slapping your hand over your mouth as soon as you heard yourself speak. dont involve yourself in someone else life idiot. You cursed yourself as he stared at your with amusement.
"to get away."
away from what? You wanted to question but then again you could kinda understand? well not understand whatever it was that he was going through. But you had your own moments when you needed to get away from everything as well... Happens alot actually...
Seeing you weren't going to pry more he pushed off the bridge, cringing to the feeling of cement pressing against his palms. "Anyway we should talk more." He smiled before looking you up and down one time, your heart racing from his eye movements. "Whats your name?" He questioned.
why would anyone want to get to know me? let alone a cute guy like him? I'm ugly... Bot pretty. Maybe he is trying to get to some of my friends. Maybe I should help him? You bit your cheek as you took a deep breath enjoying the slight view of the dying sun behind his head. "(y/n).." You muttered.
He flashed another smile. seems like he does that alot... "pretty..." He muttered in the same tone he did a few days ago. so i did hear him right? "Im Hoseok." His dimples came to life as stuck his hand out.
Your eyes drank in his long slender fingers and you stared down at your chubby ones... this is where it begins... You sighed as you crawled your chubby hand into his own and he shook softly. Your heart pulsed as he kept eye contact with your red face. "so who do you want to meet?" You questioned knowing that this has happened many times before.
A guy would actually look your way, get closet o you and then ask for one of your friends numbers. Not that you would ever give them out like that but you would set up a hangout with the two to help. You never were the one to get set up...
"what?" He questioned with a chuckle as he removed his hand from yours and cocks his head. "(y/n) I'm wanting to talk to you." He rubs your head softly before fixing the mess he made and then pinches your cheek.
"Oh..."
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So this is reminding me of a story i use to have before it accidentally deleted. So i may make this a smut story but idk yet. imma keep it romantic for a bit but yeah this is just a flashback onto their friendship started.
send me feedback plz
and sorry if there are grammar mistakes. im kinds just wirting this as it comes in my head and yeah it gonna be fucked lmaooooo
but thats fine cuz no one is paying me to write this soooo. dont complain <3
You hated how you had to wear shirts three times other girls sizes just so you could feel comfortable but then it would be very clear that you were bigger than others. You hated how your thighs flattened like large pancakes when you sat anywhere, how they chaffed so easily in shorts...
You watched as your friends experienced love all around you. Smiling and cheering them on for being happy while you silently knew you would never be loved because of your size.
But when your walking home one day you meet a mysterious guy asleep under front yard tree, hat covering his identity as the wind blew autumn leaves down over his body.
Jung Hoseok was his name...
a name you came to love...
~
"Hows this look on me?"
It was prom week so all of your friends dragged you out of your house to go shopping with them. Of course they were able to try on a wide variety of dresses from all types of stores. You watched as their bright faces lite with each dress they tried on. But you were to just sit there or scan through the dress sizes that were too tiny for you. But that was okay...
It was always okay...
You were use to this. Use to going shopping with your thinner friends. Dragged to stores and sections that would most likely not have the plus x size you needed in order to be comfortable. You were never one to complain about your body in front of your friends. Not one to break down in front of them and show just how weak you actually were. So instead you just went shopping by yourself or with your mother.
Which was okay of course... But you wish you could have been shopping with your friends...
You sighed as jessica twirled in her thin pink dress that hugged her beautifully. "It looks great on you." You didn't lie. She was stunning in that outfit. Thin long legs... "You should get it." You suggested.
"What about me?"
Susan questioned as well as she stepped out of the other dressing room, lighter color dress on, shorter in length as well. But her dark skin made the bright color pop and look beautiful on her long thin body. You envied her long curls. "Beautiful." You smiled clutching your chubby hands over your flattened thighs on the chair you sat in.
"(y/n) where's your dress?" Jessica asked after she stepped out of the dressing room back in her crop top and short shorts. She gave a quick 'god yes please get that dress' to Susan before looking back at you for your answer.
You squeezed your fist together as you pulled a smile on your face. "Not here." You spoke simply as you rose to your feet and waited for Susan to get dressed as well. You knew that if you told Jessica and Susan about the many dresses in the store you wish you could wear they would try and make you put them on no matter what. And changing in and out of clothes that didn't fit you always made you break down in that tiny dressing room.
Watching as you had to stretch the fabric over and down your lumped body and sometimes how the item wouldn't even go up your thighs or arms. Of course you would laugh at yourself and then just watch as tears streamed down your own face... It was hard being you...
"Oh couldn't find anything?" She questioned as Susan now joined the two of you. You nodded your head and followed as they went to check out.
Susan and Jessica were the girls that sat with you at lunch on the first day of freshmen year. You sat there all alone in the lunch room snacking softly on your home sandwich when they came over bright smiles on their faces and introducing themselves to you. They were your only friends... And you loved them more than anything in the world.
It was now senior year and you were lucky enough to watch as they grew and mature with you. How many boyfriends and the occasional girlfriend they dated. The stories they would tell of their sexual experiences. Of course you didn't mind listening to your friends exciting lives. You loved them. Wanted nothing but happiness for them.
But you did envy things about them...
They were always liked by everyone. Received compliments instead of whispered curses like you would get...
"I saw of Jed asked you to prom Sue." You spoke up changing the subject from buying more clothes to something you actually enjoyed hearing. their exciting lives.
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It was almost like you could listen to others lives and feel content with your own. But when you got home you always came back to reality. especially when it came to changing out of your clothes and taking a shower. The mean and comments you would hear behind your back or from others would circle around your head as you stared at yourself in the mirror. Pinching and tugging on the fat on your stomach.
whatever... You would tell yourself as you were already so tired of crying over yourself. It was clear that your life would start when it decided to for you. So it was best to just sit back and watch others.
Walking back from school a few days after shopping with Jessica and Susan all you could think about was when you would go get your dress. As you flipped through your schedule in your head you are startled by a body under the large tree in your front yard. At first you thought it was just a bag full of leaves in the distance so you thought nothing of it.
But as you got closer, as you were now, you knew it was a human body. The figures chest was heaving up and down so it wasn't a hit and run case. Their face was covered with a snap back they were wearing, arms crossed behind their brunette colored hair. At first you were startled by the sudden body in your yard.
But as the wind blew and the autumn leaves decided to coat their white colored clothes with the streaks of dying leaves; you couldn't help but feel your pulse tighten. You took a deep breathe and stepped towards the body that trespassed on your lawn trying to capture the beautiful scene from a second ago in your head before you woke them up.
"u-u-um e-e-excuse m-me?" You stuttered as you nudged their leg with your foot, heart racing as you waited for them to move.
The body slowly stretched as it woke from the force you exerted on them. Your face flushed to the soft expressions on the boys face as the hat fell from it. He was cute... He yawned before opening his eyes softly to your leaning form over his body, blocking the sun for him unknowingly. "pretty..." He muttered making your heart skip a beat before he began rising to his feet.
You took a few steps back as you watched him fix himself, dusting the bits of grass, leaves and god knows what else crawled on him as he laid there. He was taller then you, skinny and well dressed. He was really cute... Was all you could really think as another gust of wind blew past you, hair scattering across your face as he disappeared a moment before your curtain could be fixed to view once more.
"it's getting cold huh?" His voice sounded closer to you as you struggled to fix your hair out of your face seeing only bits and pieces of daylight. A crunch was signaled right in front of you as he stepped on some dead leaves, brushing your hair out of your face and pushing the cap backwards on your head. Your chubby cheeks were on full view for him now. "there." He smiled as his hands lingered on your cheeks before stepping back and moving his hand through his hair. "Bye."
He waved after yawning again and jogging lightly down the street pausing at one of the houses and entering it. Your body stayed frozen to your spot as you tried to take in exactly what just happened.
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Imma be real honest and say that this was complete on the spur kind of thing lol. So yeah its short and cute. And i just want to say that EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT OKAY ILYSM.
Anyway this is gonna be a short story fanfic? IDK it may turn into more it all depends on if yall like it or not <3 send me feedback. Love you.
I’ll have part 2 up tonight or tomorrow.
This is gonna be one of those stories that i actually update everday lol.
